Archive | June 2010

On the Prowl

Well was just chit chatting with my workmates and one of them goes like:

So if you were to go back through your career and school life what would you change? Like what is it that you would want to do different career-wise, or do you like what you are doing right now?

Shiish! that’s a difficult question I must say. Seeing as we all go to school so that  we can have career that will enable us to live a comfortable life as well as contribute to the economic development of the country in an effective way well am being positive here lol

Anyhow this took me down memory lane, from when I was say 5yrs old to 13yrs that’s practically Primary school, when your parents ask you “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Our answers always started like that, “When I grow up I want to be like ……” and we knew exactly what we wanted and you would confidently say it. I mean no hesitation, it was for direct answers. And for that reason I admire kids. I mean if to be a doctor requires me to be good in maths and science, I would do whatever it takes to get a 90% or an A in those subjects, we used to compete, cry because we have failed i.e gotten a B in a subject. I mean if you fail, it’s like someone has crushed your dream.

When you say I want to be like daddy, it’s because you admire them, what they do and see that they are successful in their endeavours – I mean he is able to buy for you your best bike, the best clothes, feed you – as a result you want to be that what he is.

I mean at that age, our career decisions are influenced by those grown-ups around us like teachers, especially teachers or your parents friends, or people you see on T.V. Like I wanted to be a doctor (because of my mum) I would play doctor – patient with my dolls like the way I used to see when I visit moms work place, I also wanted to be an air hostess clearly seen from my posses on photos. I used to think they are the most beautiful models, until I saw air hostesses for British airways, my hopes were shuttered, they were old and not very appealing. #nopunintended

There is the stage for when I was 14yrs to 17yrs this was my high school phase. It’s at this point, where your teachers and parents are the dictators of what you should do, your career direction. Because I remember when I was in form 2, I had to drop some subjects and retain some and the people who contributed here, were mainly my teachers. They tell you what you are good in and what you are poor in based on your performance.

Given a chance to go back to high school, I would drop Physics and pick Social Ethics, that would’ve been a straight A #justsaying

Anyway then comes form 4 where you have to choose what it is you want to do? Engineering, Medicine, Computer Science, Bcom — I mean something! They should’ve said it’s your parents choice at that point, because basically they are the ones who are called to come help (tell you) what to fill in those forms.

Then reality checks in, when you are done. And this is where most people get confused, yeah you applied to get into the University but sometimes they give you weird degrees like Wood Science, Anatomy …. hehe It’s when you are left in a situation where you are torn in between everything.

Personally, I was unaware of what I want. I was even thinking Bio Chemistry because I loved Biology and Chemistry Thank God for not letting me go there that would’ve been disastrous. Anyway, I went for what was available and was thought of being a good school.

Sometimes you just don’t know what you want, and you need the brilliant people around you to push you a bit, sort of shake you up to help you figure what it is that you want.

And that was my dad, he saw an advert for Strathmore University having intakes for Diploma in Business Information Technology (DBIT) and he says “go do the interview and study as you figure what you want to do”.

That was the shaking I needed to figure out what I wanted in life, because I was so clueless or rather confused. That to me was the most critical time of my life, you can either make your life or break it. And when I finished that I went into Bachelor of Business Information Technology (BBIT), and right now as much as my parents could be a pain sometimes, I thank them for pushing me into it, sometimes as much as we complain, that’s their role, to make sure we get the best education and direct us in paths they think would be suitable for us especially when we are young, fragile and vulnerable.

Anyway, campus life was so much fun , exhausting and stressful — all those cats, projects, assignments, life issues, friends and trying to mix them up in a balanced way.

I would say Campus was like preparing a meal, i mean you had to mix the ingredients well to be able to come up with something tasty and edible (not in that sense though) at the end of it, that is a good education, good personality, good reputation, good record, good friends and so on.

Then comes the time you finish campus and now you have to look for a place to build up your career, where you are going to at least use the knowledge gained throughout your 8.4.4 , to be given roles and responsibilities, be PAID at the end of the month.

But there’s a cycle you go through. You need to Identify where it is you want to work, as a what (position), the requirements for the position, the salary you need to be paid. And so many other things, this are just but a few.

Personally, I figured I want to do project management and system analysis and design but before realizing that I went through a series of other things such as Networking, Programming #notforme but that’s not all there is to it, i mean you need to up your skill, read more, do more projects or better yet start your own thing.

Makes you have the feeling of not wanting to grow up, life is hard especially career-wise, to get that job that you really want,that makes you grow, that pays you well. Makes me want to be 5 years once again.

Or maybe not, since that would mean I would have to grow up all over again and go through 8.4.4. wololo that would be a nightmare!

So nowadays we have been reduced to just having a job that can help pay your bills that’s all. I mean, you don’t do what it is you were employed to do. Or that which you studied and went through sleepless nights to pass exams and get more knowledge. Or worse yet, you do what you would want to do but you don’t develop yourself intellectually because everything is so routine.

You know what I mean, I would want a job where I am given responsibilities and left accountable, where my brain is challenged, where I’m stressed not because I’ve come to work late but because I haven’t met my deadlines, where I’m leaving the office late not because I was tweeting or blogging but because I’m trying to work things out, where I get rewarded for the hard work I put in. In general , I want to develop and mature career wise and feel it, since at the moment I don’t.

As a result am still on the prowl, that’s what I want, it’s what I wish for and pray for thinking of which why do we just remember to pray when we have problems…gosh! Sorry God :)

“If we did all the things we are capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves”~ Thomas Edison

So out of curiosity, are there guys who have such discussions …. lol that’s just lack of ambition. Found it hilarious. If I foud my kids in future talking like this, I for sure would force him/her to become a doctor /engineer, the full dictation.

“You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself.”

“You can either create or allow everything that happens to you.”

Signing Off — *Kawi*

Generation Twitter – Facebook Facingout

Okay this weather is just so confusing. I thought I saw the sun yesterday, and today am freezing like hell #paradox ….lol but I always freeze now that the sun rays never reach my desk, am on that disadvantaged side…next to the window but far from the rays.

Anyway, this post was to explain how Twitter has now become a lifestyle hence the generation twitter, I mean even Mark Zuckerberg (Facebook Founder) feels threatened ooh which he should…hehe at the rate twitter is growing, Facebook might just be  Facedout. Seeing as am having a testimonial on my twitter usage already.

I can’t remember how I heard of it really twitter that is, oh yeah, I read it on CNN about this US president who used to tweet i.e write short updates on the different aspects of his life, i.e. his location, the weather, mood and they were found years later and were said to be tweets. And that twitter has taken that idea.

So I was like, “It sounds cool”. And I go to twitter.com and faithfully sign up with a username and password. And when the first page opened I was so clueless of what i’m supposed to do. So the excitement automatically faded seeing as am techno savvy or so I think..lol So being a normal human being, I forget that I had joined and go ahead with life, by that time facebook was the in-thing haha am talking about it like it was 1900BC.

Like months or a year later people start talking about twitter, and I remember I had an account but I can’t remember the Username and Password….and this is what we would call the:

“The Twitter Initiation Phase”

I can bet I’m not the only one whose done that, like three quarters of the guys I know on twitter have gone through the same.

So anyway, there’s no manual to tell you what to do next, so I started with my profile, then I figure, there’s no activity going on, I don’t know who to follow, who to follow me… so I was just putting updates like “Twitter is so complicated”, “I’m not getting how this is done”…lol and slowly some tweoples started following me, and I got the whole drift not really though.

I mean I still thought FaceBook was the thing, clearly I hadn’t tapped twitters full potential. And so I would visit it once in a while, although there was nothing appealing or driving me towards it.

Then comes the next one:

“The Twitter Familiarization Phase”

This where I started realizing, that I can actually use twitter as a communication channel, you know where I can follow a couple of friends and non-friends who have information that’s of relevance to me and they would follow me back or vice versa.

It’s where I realized the value of the two most important symbols “@” and “#” whereby @ is the reference to a follower such as @Someone , then # is for trending topics, or for emphasis on something. Once you get this two, I think you are set. You’ll enjoy for some time.

Then comes the:

“The Twexpert Phase”

This is where you totally enjoy Twitter, where the you get the drift, know your way around. Now you’ve become a veteran, You can Retweet(RT), you can quote, reply, Direct Message (DM), put links and so on.

It’s where you have been able to get he right tweets on your timeline by identifying the interesting people with interesting and beneficial tweets.

I think once you know how to use twitter to your benefit you can actually get a lot out of it besides te social part. I mean it has people of different professions, people who know different things and update you. It’s a mini Wiki…lol, just that a status is limited to 140letters, which is a good thing, hence the name “tweet”. #ilike

I could be having a lousy day and some tweetmates actually make my day.  They are virtual friends but feels like they are actual friends… which they now are, I mean the best thing is to associate a tweet with a face, for the tweetmates i have met #cheers #tweeton.

For those who take twitter to personally, woe to you, it can make you or break you, just like any other social network. It also the best social network for those people who like anonymity i.e. being anonymous , you can keep your guard low like tweet away without people judging you or knowing who’s actually behind that tweet.

There are many applications that one can use to access twitter other than twitter.com, and until I realized that I used to find some of the twitter functionalities quite a burden like retweeting and so on, so at the moment am on ~ Sessmic Web App, and on mobile dabr.co.uk works well.. All this thanks to my Tweet Techie ~ @mwendariungu just giving credit where its due am nice like that lol

The only thing I hate about twitter, is when you are going to access it, and it brings you a #FailWhale Totally sucks, especially when you are burning to say something of importance yeah right.

Otherwise i’m a content twerson, I like twitter though am not yet an addict #ithink besides the hashtags even on text messages on phone, hope I dont hash tag when sms’ing my dad..ha! He would be so clueless #fail

Looks like am marketing twitter but in the actual sense not, I just like the whole idea. If you’re not in it, you are missing out.

Ok, not me literally, but that’s the essence of TWITTER – Follow me, I follow you and we interact {that’s me making up my own things…lol}

Signing out — *Kawi*

Age Ain’t Nothing But a Number

I’m an avid supporter of the statement “Age ain’t nothing but a number”, I mean, I should even be told to write an essay on that, but seeing as me and essay’s have a very complicated relationship. Up until now, if I’m told to write an essay I would just freeze, the whole arrangement and looking for words to best fit or make you look brilliant and knowledgeable. Maybe that’s the reason I’m now into blogging, I can write in any order. I like that.

Okay, loosing trail of my topic at hand.

This is what I think of age, I respect my elders, that’s a rule my parents have brought me up with. So that’s not what I will really blubber about. I just have this belief that if you are in a certain age-group, you shouldn’t feel so old for others. So on my age groups:

18-35, 36-55, 55 and above.

And those two age-groups in particular. I shall not go beyond 55 because that will be pushing it. I mean, if over 55, is some bow downs and serious respect you know what i mean, age of retirement, as a result it means that you have experienced almost everything and now you need to just sit, relax and enjoy life…and that’s why my imaginative mind can’t run beyond 55 *read fifte fae…lol*, am still on the hustling stage.

“The process of maturing is an art to be learned, an effort to be sustained. By the age of fifty (50) you have made yourself what you are, if it is good, it is better than your youth.” ~ Marya Mannes

Anyway back to my two groups, So here goes the 1st,

18-35

This is that ‘young age’ that you should take full advantage (with all the craze) of, it sort of spells out how the next age group will be. There’s a 17 years difference between the two digits. But in my tender age (lol) I have come to realize that the people in this group think alike, they go through similar experiences just that some can be easier than others while others can be more difficult, but when put on a table they can relate quite well for that matter.

Some tend to feel older by virtue of the years they  have lived since birth, but when it comes to experience you can find that the younger soul has more of it. As much as of course the older one won’t agree.

I say this because when I look at my friends they are all of different ages younger and older, and what interests me and I believe you as well is the level of maturity, It’s the:

  1. The content this person has,
  2. What they talk about,
  3. What they think,
  4. What they do,
  5. How they present themselves to others given certain situations,
  6. How they dress and carry themselves around (behavior),
  7. How  they react in given a circumstance.

This few things don’t just come about because you are 28yrs, it’s runs across the board, at all ages, one can be 18 and very mature as well as someone can be 35 and very immature. I stumbled upon a few quotes about maturity and I thought I should share.

“Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had, and what you’ve learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.” ~ Unknown

“’Age’ is the acceptance of a term of years. But maturity is the glory of years.” ~ Martha Graham

“To make mistakes is human; to stumble is commonplace; to be able to laugh at yourself is maturity.”

And it’s for that reason, age difference in relationships is never my number one elimination method. You just never know. Though extending to the next age group is more like suicide because different views, generations – unless you want to be treated like the full baby…hehe i doubt

And onto my next,

36-55

“Thirty-five is when you finally get your head together and your body starts falling apart” ~ Caryn Leschen …. Lol, Just Kidding.

Let me tell you, this are the most interesting people to hang out with, because they take care of you. And joke about everything they have been through in life. They take “It’s never that serious ” to another level. They advice you on the paths that you shouldn’t or should follow based on their experiences and those of other people they have heard of.

But anytime I make friends who are in this age-group, I am proud to be associated with them. They are keepers, they are the kind who say:

and wait you hear it, you’ll laugh to rib aches (ha just kidding).

What I would say to the age group is,

“Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many” ~ Author Unknown

Now you want to know why women don’t like saying their age? I still don’t know.

But being a woman, I could say sometimes it’s more fun when someone doesn’t judge you by your age, but instead by who you are as an individual minus the age if that makes sense. You could be old (which is a privilege by the way, Thank God for living long) but very young at heart.

All I can say is that,

“You are as young as your faith, as old as your doubt; as young as your self-confidence, as old as your fear; as young as your hope, as old as your despair” ~ Douglas MacArthur

Signing off — *Kawi*

TGIF #FreeSpirit *wink*

Thank God Its Friday By all means FURAHIDAY :)

I had really waited for today, as in I was even fast forwarding time and days, not that I have something really exciting to do at hand. But the weekends are the most attractive days of the week. I mean, there’s no pressure, it’s more like my time #FreeSpirit

What I’m excited about

Oh yeah, my one and only baby sister is coming for mid-term maybe that’s why I have been looking forward to the end of the week. She’s 15 but she’s so mature you wouldn’t think. She brings life in the house, a least for the weekend attention from my folks will be shifted from me to her #woohoo and I have a movie mate, and an update of all the new songs. She’s in boarding school, but she comes with all this new stories like she’s the one who’s been up and about.

How I feel

So today am feeling weird, compressed, confused-ish , in between hapy and not soo happy but happy….lol

What I wish for

Hmmm I’m seriously  looking for a new job, so any one know of a Project Manager Vacancy or System Analyst *holler at a girl* . So I wish I can just get an offer somewhere, from my blog to God’s ears :)

Just landed on this quote : “The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing” ~ Walt Disney . Hee,  It’s about time you know.

I discovered

That TMALL, the Tuskys on Langata Road has yummy food for take away, and am thinking i’ll be walking there for lunch. Seeing as i’ll be killing two boirds with one stone ” Eating and Excercising “

Highlights of the week

It was my mainest girlfriends birthday on 15th and I wanted her HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY, and mission was accomplished. Plus ended up eating so much and laughing more.

I thank God for this cheap thrills in life, like enjoying peoples company, laughing to rib aches and feeling loved.

A certain someone gave me so much inspiration on my blog, I couldn’t belief I actually make some impact on someones life, let alone get someone who doesn’t know me read what I write. I’m sooo honoured cc: @DanGithua Thanks.

I’m listening to

Some remixes By Dj Blaze done in 2009, which I accidentaly landed on, on my hard drive #TooFresh, they are more like House and Trance. The likes of David Guetta, Black Eyed Peas, Edward Maya, Desireless, Alanis Morissette…

My Prayer


What I want

The best things in life I bet i’m not asking for too much *giggles* … you know the kind of : no pressure, no stress – Free spirit…yeah!

“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable.” ~ Hellen Keller

Signing Off — *Kawi*

My new favorite

This song has got me too… woi! me and my tendencies to replay a song a million times well that’s just me. and in general her songs are just the ISH, they all make sense and super sweet to the ear. Like her lifestyle too, she aint splattered all over the media for all the wrong reasons. #TooFresh!

Anyhow, ever had those people in your life, that even if they do stuff that hurts you or totally pisses you off, when they are in trouble or need you, you’ve always got them? or say you’ll just quickly forgive? #justasking

Signing Off — *Kawi*

Negative Vybe = Negative Energy

I had a lovely weeked, you know the kind where you are here, there and everywhere. So in the midst of my all my escapades of the weekend, I met a couple of old friends and you know it’s all excitement as I haven’t seen them in a long while. So chatting up and laughing about stuff. I enjoy meeting people, i mean am a chatter box when opportunity presents itself.

Though one thing I have never done is build negative energy on someone, I always try my best to look at the good side of things, you know things could be thick and difficult, and we can talk about that, but those things can have something positive that can make you feel better.

Anyway for the first time ever, I felt like am a dart board, and my heart was the one being aimed at. Like the heart piercing kind.

You know when people talking about something that affects you directly, and as much as it sounds true or not you don’t have a say, like you just shuush and listen as they toss your “life story” like a ball, everyone has an opinion and they don’t spare any bit. I mean you can’t contribute because it sounds partly like advice while at the same time it’s “I don’t know what it is” #confused.

So let’s just say as the conversation continued ok maybe not conversation it’s me just being told things as I wasn’t really responding, It reached a point and i’m thinking ok, stop! it’s abit to much. You know some things can be put forward as jokes and at first it feels like a joke and you laugh with them, but when it becomes an extended joke then it reaches a point it hurts. And being me,  I always try to put a brave face and laugh even when am the target. You the kind where :

Yah that was me, I was laughing and smiling and acting like what they were saying was haha funny but in the inside, I was just like I want to get the hell outta here … that feeling where the slightest opportunity to flee would be highly appreciated. Regardless of wether you will remain as the topic of discussion.

And by time I was  leaving, all I was feeling was:

At one time or another, this had to happen. It’s good to experience some things so that you can know how it feels and how you can tackle them. Because after that I just wanted to go home and sleep … I love sleep, because when you sleep everything just goes away. I had wanted to go party but I opted out, my partner in crime wasn’t amused…hehe

Every experience for me is always a learning experience, I think a lot I must say, about different things. And when I thought about this particular instance, and all i could come up with was this,

People see, hear and talk. People will tell you things you don’t want to hear, things you probably know but don’t want to get the reality of them. They will say the truth from what they have observed..oh and the truth hurts.. sometimes what they say could be out of their experiences and they are just letting you know so that you don’t make a mistake.

You just need to know how to handle all that information in a way that’s beneficial to you. I mean with all my intelligence, I should be able to “sieve chuff from good grain” — I got it….ha!

I also learnt another thing, people are very delicate creatures… I can look like am the strongest, but you don’t know what’s going inside me #emotions. And concealing them is our life’s job description.

So when dealing with something that will probably touch on someones feeling, be gentle, you can joke but don’t extend it. and when someone says stop, you stop unless your intention is to hurt them #amjustsaying. Plus drop in a line of encouragement.

“Note how good you feel after you have encouraged someone else. No other arguement is necessary to suggest that never miss the opportunity to give encouragement” – George Adams

Oh well end of the story, those my friends never encouraged me after all the negative vybe, but one other person did, thanx babe and I am grateful *wink* . Glad I have someone  I can call, rant and rave from a girls perspective. I love you @Wanjanmajid :) and Happy Pre Birthday (15th June), Thank God for bringing you into this world, clearly he saw I needed you..hehe

“To be a friend means encourage strengths in others and accepting their weaknesses, in other words, accepting them for who they are.” – Catherine Pulsifier — #ihatequotes

Signing Off — *Kawi*