Archive | November 2010

TGIF *Catching On*

Thank God It’s Friday , though the week couldn’t go any faster than it already has. Actually it’s just not just the Week, it’s the whole Year … I mean we are in November, wasn’t New Year just the other day. As I said,

I feel like time is flying, and I must have jumped off with the parachute somewhere mid-way, but I’m catching on once again.

I’m Wondering

Why people never do TGIF . It’s actually the thing I look forward to at the end of the week or maybe I’m just weirdly cool in the most “non” showing off way…lol

Why do people(bloggers) insist every other story in the newspaper is plagiarized … if it’s a story, whether you got it first or not doesn’t mean that someone else shouldn’t also find out about it through another channel. So the person who gets it to the news paper..good for them for being good hustlers…just take heart and move on with life. #itsneverthatserious or sue … Just stop whining.

I’m Feeling

Ummmm sooo full, and I believe the next feeling is probably sleepy..but I can be fired, so I’ll just work hard to build the nation, as I eagerly await for 5, for no particular reason.

I’m excited

That I won a ticket for blankets and Wines from Rupu … Never gone for one before, and I’m thinking how the hell I’m I even gonna go for this one. Lets see how it goes…but bottom line is that I WON!!

That there’s someone who reads what I write and kinda sorta enjoys … And says so. Thanks. You are my inspiration, not necessarily for blogging…okay who I’m I lying to…ofcourse it’s for blogging…haha!

That Life is sweet … it has its moments of bitter, sour but the sweet kinda … no, actually dilutes it.

Theme Song Of the week

Alanis Morissette – I’m A Bitch

I’m a bitch, I’m a lover, I’m a child, I’m a mother (minus that – not yet)
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream, I’m nothin’ in between
You know, you wouldn’t want it any other way

I’m Craving

What a Vacay would do to me right now … I would kill (ok, I just pushed it) for one with peace and tranquility written all over it.

I wish and hope

That sometimes I actually had, a book/script that tells me what to do, where I’m headed to. Then there would always be less suspense … I’ve always been a fun of chick flicks, now if only life could be like a chick flick movie, it’s more of a thriller and the suspense is major and it’s becoming a forced favorite.

Whatever happened to cartoon and my life cartooning … that phase was fun, now to try to make this thrilling one fun too.

I’m praying

That God carries me forth … all of me, plus all my baggage … and sorts me out in all aspects of my life. Amen!


“Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does.”

“A bend in the road is not the end of the road… unless you fail to make the turn” ~~~ Gotten from @flomwangi


Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Anxiety = Wait (Did I + What If)

Anx·ious : Experiencing worry, unease, or nervousness, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome // Causing or characterized by worry or nervousness // Wanting something very much, typically with a feeling of unease.

Don’t you hate that imaginary monster also known as Anxiety. It just stupidly clouds your thoughts, actions and person as a whole. Like really why do human beings *read someone like me* have to be anxious about stuff.

Actually lets say, as much as I try to be an optimist … yes, I believe I am one (don’t burst my beautiful bubble in case you think otherwise). Although sometimes I tend to think of the worst outcomes given a certain scenario. So that maybe I do not get disappointed if the worst happens, or so that I can have something to be completely happy and overjoyed about if it turns out good.

Do you ever think that if you are too optimistic about something you end up Jinx’ing yourself – I do think like that sometimes,ok all the time so that of someone asks me how something I’m expecting is, I’d go like, “Not bad , Am not so sure really, I’m hoping for the best” but deep inside somewhere you know it was your best, and you want the best out of it.

Maybe I thought if I write I would be less anxious and maybe I will get consolation that I’m not the only one who gets anxious about stuff…that it’s a very normal thing that normal people experience.

Anxiety makes you zone off, and makes you start thinking about things that you shouldn’t be thinking about … Let me give an example then maybe you’ll understand what I’m trying to say:

  • For example you’ve done exams and the results are supposed to be out in a weeks time. Then you start thinking how it is you were answering the questions? Did you do the correct things i.e correct answers? Did you meet the examiners expectation? Did you answer them in a way that when they read or hear they’ll be able to understand what you were trying to say?
  • Then you go ahead and continue thinking … Ok, What if I fail? What if I don’t do as well as I had expected, What will happen? *sigh*, What if the examiners just don’t like your name or they are marking your exam when they are in a lousy mood?
  • If it’s a presentation with an external client who you want to partner with , or you want to sell your products to. Then you think about it, and it goes like; What if the presentation was boring and did not convince the client? What if they decline our proposal? Did we even make an impact there? Did we outdo our competitors?

Why Don’t we think happy thought’s when anxious? It’s always negative. And why in the first place do we even think about such stuff, while we can go ahead with life and have many other relevant thoughts as we wait *read anxiously*.

  • The exam went well. Most of the questions that came are things that I had read and I’m pretty sure I will do well. I will pass with flying colors. My lecturer was great, I know he will understand what I wrote and mark for me well… Even probably give me extra marks.
  • The presentation went well and the client loved the product, they should be getting back to us with positive results soon. We hit the jack pot right there, I could see the client nodding in agreement. Good stuff.

Wow, now if we all used to think that way, when anxious wouldn’t that be AWESOME. Life would be much much easier. The chain of thoughts that come up as you wait for something that will make an impact in your life can be quite the disturbing kind, they take you to a place in your mind you never thought to think *if that makes sense*.

Anxiety is like a wave … You think so high about yourself, then all over sudden you start thinking very low about yourself … and once you start getting back to normal thoughts, another stupid thought triggers you and you are back to the high or low thoughts of yourself and your position.

How does someone get rid of anxious thoughts? If only there was a guarantee that if you think positive, You will always get positive results, then that would be so easy. Because I think the reason we are anxious of the unknown or uncertain outcome is because we are scared of disappointments, we fear failures, or to be told we are not capable of performing and so on.

I would have said getting something to distract you, but clearly been there, done that! And a distraction is NOTHING close to the answer. The mind is a very powerful element, it works even when you don’t want it to, even when it’s not supposed to. So trying to distract it would be more like smuggling daybreak past a rooster…which is rather not possible.

So is this anxiety something someone lives with? If not how do you regulate it? *YIKES* Anxiety can make something look pretty twisted even when it’s something easy. Because most of the things in life could come in either of the 3’s : – Just like when God is answering your prayers … YES, NO and *the most dreaded* WAIT (=anxious).

Why did he put Wait? Was it to make us suffer? or Do you think it was to actually test and see which of the two we deserve YES or NO. And why didn’t he ensure that we forget about what it is we are expecting or waiting for during that period in which we have to wait. In that, it’s off our chest and mind, until a valid decision is reached upon, then he opens our mind to that when we are receiving the answer.

That’s just but a wish!


Anxiety is the rust of life, destroying its brightness and weakening its power. A childlike and abiding trust in Providence is its best preventive and remedy.” ~~~ Unknown Author

Prov·i·dence : Care or preparation in advance, foresight // The care, guardianship, and control exercised by a deity // God

PS: That quote could just be the answer …. HAVE A LOVELY DAY MY PEOPLE’S!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

TGIF *Perfectly Imperfect*

YaaaY, Thank God It’s Friday!! So this is what my week has been about in a nutshell! I have learnt to do the things *on Image below*.

And it’s a pretty GOOD thing that I have come to realize that sooner than later. God is basically part of everything in your life, whether you like it or not, so for everything to at least be reasonable, the best thing is to just be on his side through it all.

PS: I’m not saying be a religious freak, all am saying is acknowledge him in everything you do because trust me, he’s played the big role in it for one reason or another.

I’m Feeling

Happy about my life and where it’s at … It’s not perfect per se, but it’s quite something, more like ‘Perfectly Imperfect’.

I’m excited

That people actually read my blog, one that I write for fun. Yeah, how my mum asked me for my blog address *cringe* so I bet she will read this..hehe

That the first week of living alone, and I am that responsible girl *pops collar*. I’m proud of myself. It does get lonely and I want to run back home but we’ve all got to face it, I’m a woman who is capable of having a family of my own…so am Woman’ing Up!

I’ve been invited for a party on Saturday… but I’m 70-30% on attending,  70% being not attending. but we’ll see how the 30% goes and if my pockets can be dug any deeper I doubt…lol

Theme Song Of the week

Dreams – Gavin DeGraw – – – -> And all his other song, This Man!!! #isallamsaying and maybe the fact that he sings what every man should be saying to their woman just a hint to the men reading this.


I’m Craving

Uuumm my appetite is down to nil thanks to some flu that decided it want’s to find shelter in my body. So I’m really not thinking food as usual… Though if I was, it would probably be Pizza, if I recall well, that’s what I was craving for before the flu and medication.

I wish and hope

For God’s blessings upon family and friends … and that the things you wish and hope for fall in to place.

I’m praying


Well, I had the opportunity and privilege to attend sunday school when  I was much younger and the quote I can apply today, at this older age … haha … yeah right!Do your best and God will do the rest“.

“If you think you’re too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito” — Anita Roddick


Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

PS: Check out @Nkirdizzle’s TGIF, she’s the one who started the trend by the way.

Moving Out 101 *Ridin’ Solo*

So this was the most amazing, stressful, under pressure, exhilarating weekend I have ever had in my short-lived life. It’s one of those that I always used to say “I can’t wait to do this” —-> Not thinking that the day will eventually come when I have to do it.

As earlier mentioned, I finally man’ed up and moved out of my parent’s nest. I was thinking it won’t be that difficult, I mean we are all in one town anyway and I can go back home anytime I want…Yikes!! That was what I thought, until the day before moving out and I was in such a state, that it got my dad super worried.

To be honest, it felt like I was going back to boarding school, only difference is this time round, I was carrying much more stuff and not being given pocket money…lol … I take back my statement on Experience because now I understand what it means to lack experience. Moving out or Shifting whatever you may like to call it is actually a project…a big project! It requires those three constraints that should be at the tip of your fingers if you do project management: Time, Money and Scope.

At least at the moment when someone asks me “So what’s new?”, I have something to say besides “uuuummm, nothing much really”. My colleague asked me and the first thing to blurt out was “I moved out?”….That’s conversation right there.

The First Day – Of being in my own house can’t even believe I’m actually saying that was rather different, I was very conscious of any movement. Basically, my ears and eyes were super sensitive, that even the movement of a paperbag was scaring the shit outta me. Stupid me, thought of putting music way later *knocks my head* first thing I should’ve done because it makes a huge difference. And then I discovered am a mini-clean freak, in that I could not get any form of sleep (me who’s a sleepy-head) before I was done with putting almost everything in place.

Some things I did, that totally got me excited…

I actually fixed my curtains – I know there’s someone who’s reading and is probably thinking…like really? For me that was an mini-achievement, I’d never done it before and it took me a couple of many minutes to figure which hook goes where.

Fixed Curtain

I prepared my very first meal in my very own house, I settled for the easiest to prepare, which was spaghetti, drumstick and Soya Chunks.

My Very First Home-Made-Meal

So a few things I got to learn while I was moving out for anyone who hasn’t yet moved out and will eventually do, here is a #MovingOut101 for beginners like me:

  • Talk about moving out as much as you can, it keeps sinking into you, than when you do it abruptly. I think I talked about it like 2 months before I eventually did.
  • Write a list of everything you need … I mean everything, even the imaginary ones that you think you cannot afford to buy, just write it down any, it costs you nothing – ps : T.V is still on my list, I believe I’ll get one soon.
  • Check how much money to have to spend and budget wisely, buy according to priority – preferably (although I didn’t do much of that, I happen to buy by impulse)
  • Every time you buy something tick against the list…and keep all your receipts – I am yet to calculate how much I spent. You can do that on one of your idle days, because staying alone even with all the entertainment can get lonely.
  • Plan how you will arrange the stuff in your house, more like an imaginary arrangement, it helps you know what to buy or what to hijack from your parent’s house…hehe your folks never let you go empty handed…I took that advice from someone and true to his word, my mom was pushing everything to me.
  • Pack your own things yourself, so that you have an idea of where everything is, it makes it much easier for you … You can mark the boxes (although I didn’t, yeah I have good memory like that…lol)
  • Organize your own transport … and have plan A and B … in case A is unreliable or doesn’t keep time.
  • Have someone to help you fix the bed, I wouldn’t have done it myself … Thank God for dad, he even gave me a tutorial on how to fix the gas nozzle and tested all my electricals … hehe, you would’ve thought he’s the one who is moving in.
  • Dust the house before arranging stuff, trust me it makes arranging everything fun
  • Then arrange stuff, how you had earlier on thought it out – I slept at 1am having back aches, leg and thigh aches, hand aches…think of all those aches one would have as a result of exhaustion, but at least I know I have settled down.
  • You cannot finish everything all in one sitting, after settling down you now start realizing what you are missing and you keep adding up slowly by slowly.
  • ALWAYS SET YOUR ALARM – If you love sleeping!

See, it’s an actual project, it includes the full planning, designing, executing/implementation …. the only difference is that this one has no closure/termination. Everyday you find things that you have to change, purchase … Plan for *sigh*, but it’s fun in it’s own way.

I never thought at any one point I would be thinking in the morning what I will eat for supper … Tables do Turn!

It’s an exciting venture and I think I’m becoming more mature and grown up by the day. Oh well, I got a change and I’ve embraced it. Though that doesn’t mean I won’t frequent my folks nest…that’s a necessary, especially to get some love and collect food…hehe

Raising my glass, “To Moving out and becoming Miss.Independent”  :)


Preposterous - contrary to nature, reason, or sense; absurd; ridiculous ~~~ I found it quite amusing for no apparent reason, that’s so preposterous! (I hope I used it in the right context??)


Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

TGIF *Musings*

Thank God It’s Friday

So today is just a lovely day … Looks like I woke on the right side of the bed *which I always do anyway* and chose to listen to the right song, which has given my psyche from here to Timbuktu…

I’m craving and I feel Like

Song Of The Week

In case you haven’t listened to any songs by  Pink you’d think I’m her publicist you are missing out. I’ve always been a fun of her music since I knew she exists and her latest *Raise Your Glass* just gets the better part of me especially this my newly found pick up lines *wink*

Call me up if you want gangsta
Don’t be fancy, just get dancey, Why so serious?
So raise your glass if you are all wrong,
In all the right ways, All my underdogs,

So as the song is on some major REPLAY actually it’s the only one being played (that’s me) since yesterday #joke, and trying to look serious at work

What I’m Up to

It’s the weekend, I have lots to do with very little time *sigh* How I’ll juggle everything up so that I get to do everything…only God knows.

One of them is that … I’ve finally man’ed up…and I’m shifting from the parents nest …. I’m freaked out like crazy. Never thought it would be this easy …lol *read the most difficult experience*

What I’m thinking

Why do people have to try so hard … sucks huh! I mean especially around our friends. Why can’t people at that point just be themselves … provided you practice good etiquette and hygiene. If you want to dip your biscuits in milk and eat off that, or if you want to dress down i.e wear flats, jeans and t-shirt to an occasion, if you want to eat with your hand and not with a fork and knife. Just do what makes you happy around your friends…Too bad!

I pray and Hope that

I find pure pleasure in whatever I do :)



Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*


Right right, turn off the lights,
We’re gonna lose our minds tonight,
What’s the deal, yo?

I love when it’s all too much,
5am turn the radio up
Where’s the rock and roll?

Party Crasher,
Penny Snatcher,
Call me up if you want gangsta
Don’t be fancy, just get dancey
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
In all the right ways,
All my underdogs,

Dear Employers *Thinking Out Aloud*

Disclaimer: This is more of a general overview not personal per se!

No, I wasn’t going to write a letter, I’ll save that for cover letters.

So speaking as any other youth who is interested in development and empowerment, looking to grow career-wise and wants to exercise what they learnt in campus and the little experience gained while working … (since we are now graduates or better yet professionals) in a reputable organization. We have one major hurdle.

I would always go through vacancies on both the dailies and the Internet, we all do look for greener pastures I must say considering the rate at which our economy is growing…*uumm read becoming super expensive and unaffordable*.

This major hurdle happens to be EXPERIENCE. Nowadays that word, that small “11” letter word, when it comes to anything to do  with career totally gives me the creeps. That would be because, a job that perfectly describes what you can do and offer (or bet yet think that you have the ability to do so, I mean qualification, skills all match) … all except that one sentence that reads –  6years or 15years experience needed.

Surely, is my dad the one supposed to be the one applying for this jobs. So what’s left for us youngsters? The ones who have 2 – 3 – 4 – 5years experience? or the ones whose age doesn’t read over 35.

Ps: Everytime i’m sending out my C.V, I look at my age and laugh a bit at myself but assure myself that you shall not judge me by my age.

I do apply anyway … seeing as I have nothing to loose and maybe everything to gain … probably not giving it high hopes. Well the excuse would be the more experience one has, the more bring on the table, the more they know how to deal with certain situations. I will always agree with that …

But our minds are young, we have new ideas. We do see what’s going on, we are the ones who get to hear what the others have to say. We are the one’s who interact with people on the ground. Maybe we should be nourished in such a way that Experience shouldn’t be our hurdle to get into the corporate world.

Thanks to corporates that offer Graduate Trainee opportunities, but that’s like 1 out of 500 in Kenya , and how many educated and “partially” experienced youngsters are we? like millions and millions. And not all of us are cut-out to be entrepreneurs just yet.

So I was just wondering what happens to us? Do we sit on our skills, since we are not given that opportunity or platform to actually show what we can offer (more like our ideas aren’t taken into consideration )or do we just settle for available underpaying jobs that more or less do not provide for any career growth, in the name of getting work experience as well as striving to be over 35 in order to get a managerial job?


Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

The Mysteries of Creation *One of Them*

My Father and Mother — First off , I always wonder how God chose them for me ? How he decided that this two shall be the ones to get me to this earth? That they are going to be my parents and that they’ll love me the way they do. That to me, defines mystery.

Like the Seven now Eight Wonders of the world, I would say Parents love is one of the Mysteries of Creation…Like really. Whoever came up with this scroll (credits to them) speaks my heart. I couldn’t say it any better.

To be honest, I always wonder what’s the best way to say “Thank You” to my folks. I have tried so many things:

Buy many gifts on their birthdays,

Promise them that when I get money i’ll buy them all the nice things they want.

Be that lovely daughter – Be home early, not argue, listen to them, be responsive, best performance in school….bleh bleh bleh

Of course it doesn’t happen like that all the time. There are times we are at complete logger-heads. They get mad at me and I at them. We all have different opinions for a certain situation and no one wants to hear or do what the other has to say …. sometimes stay silent at each other, or be a bit rude even when you know quite well you are doing the wrong thing.

I’ve come to learn that no matter the status of your relationship with the parents, they will always Love you. It doesn’t really matter what you do. The most amazing thing, is that Parents Love to me is synonymous i’ve been using this word a lot lately to Undying Love. At this point I know that those two *mum and dad* would be there for me no matter what…literally through Thick and Thin.

The only way to show my thanks is I bet by just loving them back…as much as it’s automatic…but also be there for them all the time, whether they need me or not. Chances are that … actually they won’t even read my post but I do love them with every breath in me.

Material things to them  are sometimes equivalent to nothing and loving them is everything to them.

They are the people who are genuinely happy for you when things are going well, and praying hard for you when things are going downhill. They always want what is best for you, and will do anything to ensure that you’re loved, happy and protected.

PS: Something quite dumb!

I usually believe that my mothers prayers are always heard by God, in that if I really want something, I will always let her be in the know because chances are that her prayers will reach before mine and are answered ASAP!… lol


Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*