Archive | March 2011

MARCHing on to April

There was nothing so special about March per se! Is that’s why as we March out we have to be met by the conniving April 1st … and this what Wikipedia and this link has to say about it. While here I thought there was a whole history about it.

April 1st is he 91st day of the year (92nd in leap years) in the Gregorian calendar. There are 274 days remaining until the end of the year. April 1 is most notable in the Western world for being April Fools’ Day.

Aphrilophobia is the fear of April Fool’s day

Many of the phobias associated with this day are termed social phobias because they pertain to being embarrassed in public or worse. This day is marked by pranks, hoaxes, and other practical jokes on friends, enemies, neighbors, colleagues, classmates, and family.  The aim is to embarrass the gullible by sending them on fools’ errands or by playing mischief, or causing embarrassment to them.

This time round no one is pranking me for $h!* … Yup! I’ve been a victim one too many times and your really end up looking like one hell of a fool.

I can bet the number of emergencies or deaths reported on April 1st and no one believes even the serious people … because one of the pranks my friends have pulled every year is that someone was involved in an accident or someone is sick or preggers … or couples breaking up or some freebies are up for grabs … Now that’s so last year and before … people had better come up with new creative pranks. I can’t lie, so I don’t even try … if it’s a funny lie, I will probably laugh so I’ll sell out … yeah! Sad, I can’t act an accomplice … so I’ve got my guard on… Anti Fool…haha!

Thank God It’s Friday *Yup Yup*

New Month … Hopefully, Great Stuff, I’m dire need of something of that sort.

I’m Feeling

Like dozing off in a hammock , then waking up staring at the sky and probably just thinking about life in general as I enjoy the sun *dyuum! where can I get that?*

This weekend

Not yet planned! Maybe I should go home, but I wanted to go when my baby sister is back from school … which means less attention from the folks = less lectures about life and school and bleh bleh bleh…tihihi!

I’m craving

Oh how I wish!


Highlights of the month

I made new lovely friends this month … very random, very unexpected. Thank God for making me a friendly person. If I had been mean I would’ve probably chased them away.

Catching feelings sucks! If only we could jump that part to where people who are into each other get to know each other as friends first before catching feelings that would be lovely. Then there won’t be feel bad moments or *sigh* he didn’t call or he didn’t do this or say that *you know the drill* That cycle can be such a bore *inserts finger in mouth* … Actually if I could meet someone and know this is it … Oh God, that’ll make everything else so much simpler…haha Looks like I’m so wish upon a shooting star!

Song of the week

My best Line: Her feet are killing her, I call it shoeicide … lol

I pray, I want and I hope

To find and fulfil my purpose … I’m still wondering what it really is … *sigh* but I’m sure one way or another I’m working towards it.

QUOTE OF THE MONTH

“Listen to your heart. Because, wherever your heart is, that is where you’ll find your treasure.” ~ Paulo Coelho

HAVE A FUNTASTIC WEEKEND AND BE BLESSED … OH! PLUS KEEP SAFE!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

 

 

Challenge *I love me a good one*

There are no great people in this world, only great challenges which ordinary people rise to meet ~ William Fredrick Halsey

We all say we love a good challenge … at least I always say so, especially when doing job interviews. The reason I say that, is because I don’t really know what I’m getting myself into and I assume it’s going to be challenging. To be honest, I say it out of assumption … out of assumption that I can handle whatever comes my way. I have never looked into what the word challenge means because it’s one of those things that you have drilled in your head since *I can’t recall when* that challenge = difficult situation. So when you are facing a challenge it’s automatically something difficult that you are not used to … more like a hurdle that you are supposed to overcome.

Challenge – Calling for full use of one’s abilities or resources in a difficult but stimulating effort

Am I the only one who used to think (when I was younger that is), that challenges were for smart people? I used to hear the word challenge and I’m like … whoa! That sounds big … like can I really face a challenge … how now? To be honest I don’t even know how I got it in my head that a challenge is out of this world. And when someone asked the greatest challenge I’ve ever faced? My mind chews a lock because I never thought that I had come across one yet. I don’t really know what I was expecting it to be as much as I knew the meaning.

I remember even way before I started blogging or even thought of it I used to think that writing is the most difficult thing ever. That’s the reason I hated languages … I had a strong liking for sciences for that sole reason. I used to think and still do that expressing myself is quite difficult. I can bet not so many people realize that … I am an “extrovert” so there are some things that people don’t realize unless there’s a situation that would place you as the recipient of my lack of expressionism (Good Lord! is there a word like that…lol). I can try explain something in more than 10 ways and in all the 10 ways I will assume you’ve not understood what I am trying to say, so I will try to look for other ways to explain it. Coming to think of it that’s so dumb,  maybe that’s how my blondeness gets revealed…lol

Anyway, I sort of love reading what other people write … “sort of”  because I’m a very selective reader, I can very easily get bored. I mostly like stuff with a story line maybe that’s why all the techie stuff as much as I’m supposed to be a techie by virtue of what I studied is just not fitting into my personality … no wonder programming and networking did not tickle my fancy in as much as I forced.

So back to before I started blogging, I used to read what people write (including magazines, novels, journals, blogs) and wonder how they do that, these guys must be super creative. Please note that my English teacher had told me I am not creative…lol, I should meet her today. What she didn’t notice is the fear I had to express myself. All my compositions and insha’s (Swahili compositions) rotated around … my neighbors being thugged … wasn’t that a good sign that I feared going beyond that. Kenyan teachers should learn psychology #ithink do they?

My fear of being creative was based on the fact that I was scared of creating a fictitious story then it comes true and no I’m not supersticious…I used to think (partly still do) what you say becomes…like if I say someone is sick, they’ll become sick. And I believe that’s why even today I write stuff on life happenings and not fiction, also could be the reason I’m a bad liar.

What I have come to realize is that we are all ordinary people … I mean if you scrape off all this external things like status, clothing, money bleh bleh! What makes us different is that extra effort we make to be extraordinary to get there … it’s how we work with our challenges that makes all the difference. I can be sure to tell you I haven’t made it in life, I’m still working to get there, I don’t know where though haha I bet my “self actualization stage” I’m still on the lower levels (Okay maybe between 2nd and 4th) of the Maslow’s hierarchy of needs … phew! A good way to explain where I want to get and where I am with few words.

However, if I’m asked today what’s my greatest challenge?  I think it’s overcoming my fear of expression especially through writing and then sharing with others. I have no idea how I did that because I just started writing stuff one day and the rest as we know is history. There are many others I must say, although this one is the one I still try to figure out how it exactly happened because I didn’t have to but I did and it took a lot of unknown courage.

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful ~ Joshua J. Marine

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

How to Spend $1000 in an Hour

Hmmm! What to do with the $$$$ in 1 hour?

Being a woman, I will probably be super confused, it's guaranteed! First off let's do what we would normally do … convert the dollars into Kenyan shillings $1000*85 (current exchange rate) = Ksh 85,000

Dayuuum! This is money that has come out of the blues, I had not budgeted for it … it was not in my plan at all and I need to spend it! So what i'll do is divide it by 2. So i'll have Ksh 43,000 and Ksh 42,000. Then I will take the Ksh 42,000 and do serious stuff like pay my rent immediately and go to buy house stuff from the super market (Nakumatt to be precise), you know those unnecessary things that I have been looking at but been ignoring because I need to spend wisely … a good example is that home theater!

Then the other Ksh 43,000 being the woman I am, I already have shopping spots in my head. I will go shop for clothes, shoes, bags, various funky unknown goodies and some gifts for my peoples until the last penny … trust me all this will be done within the hour. After all this was such a blessing … who thought! Can it happen now for real, so that I can put my words into practice…lol

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Funky Friday

M̸o̸n̸ T̸u̸e̸s̸ W̸e̸d̸ T̸h̸u̸r̸s̸ FRIDAY *wowzer* Thank God It’s Friday yet again. The days are rocketing away, considering we are already March’ing out and heading to April.

I’m feeling

Free Spirited (is there a word like that?) … light in weight, and I can just do back flips and twirl round and round given open field preferably with a dress *trying to see how that can work practically* … hehe reminds me of when I was a kid … do it like no one’s watching.

This weekend

The usual, just chill out … nothing special taking place or better yet, I haven’t planned anything. I’ll take it head on as it comes.

I’m craving

A good swim … it’s been such a long while since I swam. Thank God swimming is like riding a bicycle, once you learn the skill you can never forget.

 

Highlights of the week

I did a photo shoot with pikchaGUY a while ago, very random. I had pestered him, how he’s my friend and he’s never done a mini-shoot for me. Then we organized a date at the National Park and had a blast. I love photos but I’m a bit shy and since he’s a good friend of mine, I was so eazie and comfy.  The pics are super awesome, maybe modelling should now be a side hustle *just kidding* but I think I’m too shy for such…lol. Thanks pikchaGuy for bring out “Kawi” on the pics … I was looking at them and I was thinking “that’s so me”. There are some pics you look at and you wonder who’s that? But this ones –> WYSIWYG…I love em … thanks again!

Here’s a link to the pics and his blog: pikchaGUY blog + pics

Songs of the week

Count On Me – Bruno Mars —->Describes what friendship is supposed to be … and I double cosign!

[You can count on me like 1, 2, 3 ... I'll be there and I know when I need it, I can count on you like 4, 3, 2 and you'll be there ... coz that's what friends are supposed to do.]

Pretty Girl Rock – Keri Hilson —-> My feel good song, and it’s also been on replay!

[My name is Kawi ... I'm so Very ... Fly, Oh my it's a lil bit scary... lol]

I want and pray

So many things … gosh! Sometimes I even wonder where to start … but it all has to do with living life to the fullest … the whole package #ifyouknowwhatimean … Live, Laugh, Love and to continue growing and becoming better and better each day in everything I do. I hope God never gets tired of the number of times I call out for him…woi, some of them are so random.

Most of all inner peace and rational thinking for everyone (young and old) … because fighting back is never a way to solve anything. It’s so sad when you see people fighting in the name of wanting to be heard especially from us young’stars … and instead you end up doing more harm than there was before!

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

“Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?”  ~Fanny Brice

“The more you strive and search for happiness the more you overlook the possibility that it is here already.” ~Robert Holden

Funtastic Weekend to ya’ll … God Bless!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*


 

Signs and Symptoms of a Crush

So I was listening to “David Archuleta – Crush” and it got me thinking … this are the exact signs and symptoms of a HUGE crush, that’s just not really a crush, that you like … maybe more than like, that you want to be your friend … yet again more than just a friend. I know you get what I mean.

1. Call and talk on the phone for long … and by long I mean, talk, Safaricom interrupts, call, talk, charge dies, charge, call, talk, credit gets over, load credit, call, talk … and you just don’t want to hang up!

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

2. You’re both wondering what the other person feels because you’re probably thinking it’s one sided…maybe you’re catching feelings to fast. Maybe you’re all alone and if you let it out you’ll just sound or look psychotic.

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

3. You think about the other person a bit too much … you keep wondering are they going to call or text or pop up in chat.

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

4. Confusion galore – You just don’t know w’sup! And you are thinking why don’t they say something … about what this is exactly. I know what I feel but I don’t know how you feel … reveal what’s on your mind already *suspense*

Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

5. You want to let go but you just can’t and you’re pretty sure if you do you’ll just turn and ran back *movie style… ok not the romeo and juliet kind…lol* . When you are with them everything is alright with the world. *Happy Snail*

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I’ve tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away!

6. You don’t want to be just friends … coz just friends ain’t enough…tihihi! You want to hang out, spend more time together … Exclusivity is the word.

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we’re hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

7. Uumm you just never know, maybe we can just try something out… because the above feelings aren’t just normal.

See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

And last but not the least another one bites the dust *not literally though* , next you know guys are an item … and the rest is a story for another day.

Quick Question?

Who has an idea of approximately how long this process should last  and get to the next level? … lol, because it seems to happen in a flash!

“It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone” ~ Author Unknown —-> Sounds right but wrong…then again at least it justifies everything…YAAY!

“It starts with a crush, it then may turn into love, and hopefully will end up as soulmates *read hopefully*” ~ S. Neil —–> Ooooh, got more than I was looking for *wink*

Disclaimer: I’m not necessarily talking about myself :p . Good day mates!

Signing Off *Kawi*

Criticism 101

Criticism is the judgement of the merits and faults of the work or actions of an individual or group by another (the critic). To criticize does not necessarily imply to find fault, but the word is often taken to mean the simple expression of an objection against prejudice, or a disapproval ~ Wikipedia

“Criticism is something we can avoid easily by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing” ~ Aristotle

Who doesn’t want to do something and get all praises and positive feedback … you know the whole “Congratulations” , “you’re doing so well”, “I like how you do this and that”… We all strive and live for such commendations. That’s why we work our asses *forgive my grammar* off. That’s why we try to do things to perfection, to get that feedback that makes you feel worthy and of value.

So what happens when all you do seems to  raise eyebrows and gets people picking their noses into your business? When anything you do gets negative comments or reactions? The kind where there’s nothing to keep you going.

“Criticism is the disapproval of people, not for having faults, but having faults different from your own.” ~ Unknown

There are some people who thrive in criticism, it’s like their fuel. If a day goes by without them saying something negative … it’s like a day without food.  I usually tend to think that some people use criticism as a way to pamper their ego, make them feel better about themselves, because they don’t see how others can be doing better than they are. There are some things that don’t really need to be criticized, maybe just corrected a little bit to make the situation better, but instead of doing that, the person criticizes to the extent of dampening the other persons spirit. As they say, “It is easier to be critical than correct.”

“A critic is someone who never actually goes to the battle, yet who afterwards comes out shooting the wounded”~ Tyne Daly

You find that someone has worked so hard, to get what they have and be who they are – similar to being in the battle field, they have fought the fight, in the midst gotten themselves wounded, physically drained and still striving harder to survive in this crazy world. And just after the battle is over and one has won, comes someone (the critic) who has probably been up to nothing, maybe watching from the side line as the other fights their fight.

My take … is that in this world, there will always be the fighters and the side liners (the audience). Same way we sit on our couches, watch a movie or ball and after it’s over … we are like that movie/game was so boring, quality was so bad, the actors were … bleh bleh bleh, but we sat down through the whole movie/game …hehe we might as well just have changed to something else or done something more constructive, but we chose to be an audience.

As the fighter, when you hear people criticize you it’s because they chose to watch you, they want to know how you do what you do. Critics love what you do, and because they cannot do it better than you can do … they’ll find a way to make you feel like you are lesser than them. Oh well, such is life.

Listen to your critics, don’t ignore them, they could have something that might be of help … they might not bring it out politely or the way you’d like to hear it and that’s why as the fighter, crocodile skin should be on you. Also confidence in what you do makes you look like quite the catch *wink*. Considering the critics don’t know what you’ve gone through to be where you are … so why should you care less about them.

Quote of the Day

“Constructive criticism is about finding something good and positive to soften the blow to the real critique of what really went on.” ~ Paula Abdul

“Criticism, like rain, should be gentle enough to nourish a man’s growth without destroying his roots.”

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Reality Shows

This is even embarrassing! but I’m a girl so it’s allowed. Who finds themselves 1st checking which reality show is there when you get hold of a TV even before looking at the news? and you sit yourself comfortably watching other people living their lives and being paid as we watch them…and chances are they are also sitting watching something else … and shuuut they’re getting paid to do that.

 

Kendra

 

 

Puh! Life can really suck! I wish I could just bum get filmed and get paid as y’all just watch me. That sounds pretty easy, but I highly doubt my life is that interesting to get people glued to the TV. Not that the lives of the ones on the reality show are that interesting either, but we still watch anyway.

Keeping up with the Kardashians

 

How come no one has never tried that reality show concept in Kenya … haha I would really like to see how that goes. If getting guys to watch local programmes is an issue … now imagine a reality show. Plus us guys have a way of just dramatizing everything especially if we know it’s being filmed … so the reality show won’t be so reality … it’ll be more like a movie in real time.hehe . Plus the way us guys hate on everything we do, I bet reality shows just wouldn’t sell here or would they? #IWonder

 

Real housewives of Atlanta

 

 

Like you want to tell me there are no hot housewives in Kenya who can make some mullah out doing a reality show, showing off nini nini…hehe I’m just trying to imagine how it would be …. ok, I can’t imagine … lol

Why do we do things that we clearly know that we are wasting our time doing but we still do them, because there’s really no value this shows add to our lives … I am not complaining though, because that sometimes is the only way to enjoy life … it’s too short to deny ourselves this life’s little stupid pleasures … such as watching reality shows at the end of the day after spending most of it pulling your hair trying to think … you know the serious stuff you do during the day!

Oh well, I can’t stop watching this reality shows … it’s kinda fun in a lame way!

Okay that was a very random post! Deuces!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Please all = Please none

Yikes! Where did I get all this confidence to share my blog in public … sometimes I question  if it was really a good idea because considering I write posts mainly on life happenings, I’m sure some people who are part of my life probably read and think ‘oh my she’s written about me…lol’ and chances are that they are the last people on my head as I write … this stuff is very random … some of them are fictitious, I just think of situations and sh*& like that.

Anyway, if there’s one thing I have come to realize is that you cannot please everyone. One way or another in your endeavors, you will always rub a couple of people the wrong way. Why? The reason, quite simple, we are all different. Hence the phrase, “One man’s meat is another man’s poison”. I bet whoever came up with that had that in mind.

When I was younger *cough*choke*cough* , I was the kind of person who wanted to make everyone happy, pleased … in short “hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil” … little miss goody two shoes was me, wants to see the world smile back at me. Thing is I never used to pretend, I was just nice (not that I have changed) … lol, but I used to care so much about what the person next to me will think about me. And that somehow alters you from really being you … because you only do what you think will please them.

Then I grew up *yeah, I did, mature and all + hot too … hehe* and discovered that what makes you happy is not necessarily what makes the person next to you or the people in your life happy. You could be doing what gets you to smile or laugh to rib aches, but the person next to you could be getting irritated like you wouldn’t want to imagine. How can we be so differen’t?

Sometimes we try so hard to … to make everyone around us be pleased with what we’re doing, who you are … and sometimes it just doesn’t move them, worse yet, they don’t even don’t realize your effort.

My take, as long as you do your best in whatever you do, the right time, right place and the right way then it shouldn’t really bother you who your pleasing or not, because it’s either they like it or they don’t … and there’s only so much you can do. I mean there some people who don’t like you just based on how you look or how you dress. If you change and try to be who they want you to be, then you’ll lose who you are and confuse those who loved you for who you genuinely are. As a result, please all = please none!

Ok, it’s good to suck up sometimes to get what you want in life *read sometimes*, but to suck up and be who that person who you’re sucking up to wants you to be … then you’ve just lost the plot all together. What if they don’t even like ‘the sucking up’ you, if you know what I mean. I hope I made some sense right there. In short, don’t lose who you are, in the name of pleasing someone else. If they don’t like you the way you are, pull the “moving on swiftly” move, it always works … and chances are that this person will be impressed and actually like you for who you are. If you’re confident in yourself, then it automatically trickles to the people around you, and they will think the same of you.

When we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

I love this quotes;

“There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout: This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me … or leave me. Accept me or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don’t fit your idea of who I should be and don’t try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad – you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.” ~ Stacey Charter

“I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.” ~ Bill Cosby

Deuces!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday *Dougie*

Yeiya! Thank God It’s Friday!

I’m feeling

Like I want to do the Dougie dance in this little happy bubble that I’ve formed around me, just hoping that no one will pop it, or I won’t pop it myself as I do my thing!

This weekend

I have no idea what I’ll be up to … but sleep is obviously in the agenda. I want to say work, but since I’m not that of a workaholic…let’s just say chill out and see how it goes! I may just allow derailment.

I’m craving

I’m not the polish kinda girl. I like the plain nails, but of late I’m loving this new colored nail polish look. It just looks lush … funky and fun to look at especially if you type a lot. Cheap thrills this week: was looking at my purple nails as I do my work. Yeah, it’s that bad.

I want

To succeed in whatever thing I have put your focus on achieving. It doesn’t come easy, but I just want to do it right.

Song of the week

This one has to be my favorite this week, it’s such a life song … Casting Crowns – Stained Glass Masquerade.

“Are we happy plastic people. Under shiny plastic steeples. With walls around our weakness. And smiles to hide our pain?”


I pray

That people may find inner peace and for Japan, its people and it’s surroundings to be safe.

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

Never expect, never assume, & never demand. Just let it be. Because if it’s meant to be, it will happen just the way you want things to be! ~ Unknown Author

HAVE A SPLENDID WEEKEND AND BE BLESSED MY PEOPLE’S!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Music Does Speak

Why is it that when you are going through something, a song has to play that fully well describes your situation or someone tells you something that relates to what you’re going through. It’s like the universe is indirectly communicating to you. Or how else would you describe it?

I noticed that my favorite song of the day, will always relate to what I’m feeling that day. If I’m sad, a sad song will catch my attention and I’ll love it … and I can replay it like all day (and no, I’m not joking…lol). If I’m in a happy mood some fast beat rhythm that gets your energy up is what would catch my attention.

I think music is another version of hypnosis. Just that in this case instead of someone dangling some pendulum before your eyes it’s the rhythm, the voice, the message and the beats that get the better part of you. And that’s why for some of us music is a kind of a therapy. Maybe that’s why today I can love a song to bits and the following day, I feel zilch for it. Or I used to hate a song, and all over sudden it’s my favorite … that happens to me a lot.

Funny enough the day you are experiencing something weird (good, confusing, bad, somewhere in-between), a song that describes the situation probably with coupled a solution or some niceties somewhere in the mix is what plays and catches your attention.

That’s just weird. I was actually thinking about it and as I was listening to “Coming Home”  by Diddy – Dirty Money (Ft. Skylar Grey) in the morning as I was prepping myself for the day somewhere he pulls up this lines;

Ps: Now I’m in love with this song.

“I hate that song, I feel like they talking to me when it comes.”

“I love that song, whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong.”

That’s what got me thinking, I love songs or hate them based on what they tell me … for me some songs seem to me like the universe is communicating and telling me, you ain’t alone going through that *whatever it is* it could be about, love, hustle, family, friends, you just name it. I even find myself scrolling through the play list looking for that song that’ll speak to me on a particular day, and for sure my searches never fail me. Songs are sometimes are source of strength… again maybe that’s just me.

I know I’m weird…huh! My quote of the day:

Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.

Have a SUPER lovely week. God bless y’all!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*