Archive | June 2011

Collide *POW*

Today is one of those day’s they say, “I woke up on the right side of the bed”, whoever coined that phrase *shaking my head* because I always wake up on the right (hand) side of the bed. I bet they meant the other right … hehe. I’m in this happy-go-lucky mood and I have no slightest idea where it’s come from, not that I’m complaining. Suddenly I have psyche to do things that I had lost psyche doing :) , which is a very good thing.

I love rock n roll \nn/ and the roll it leaves on your tongue when you’re saying it, the r’s and l’s in the statement can be quite the tongue twister considering my Meru genes are quite strong, might just get myself saying, “I love lock and loll”, “I rove rock and roll”, I love lock n roll”…hehe. Anyhow, the Xfm frequency (105.5) was never clear in the office but today it was … could the day get any better, felt like jumping up and down, but this was all happening in my head. Next on the playlist is ~ Howie Day – Collide ~

My favorite part of the song is the choruses (whats the plural of chorus?) … I’ve mixed them up to feature the lines I like!

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind

Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

That one, is on the top of the list of my most favorite songs, why? Because I’m the kind of person who listens much to the message that the song is passing on, okay, the beats, it’s gotta pump me up. It’s one of those that get me saying “I love this song” *in the most girly of ways* and you’ll probably go like awww! Well, I said I could come up with a post out of a word, this is it today *COLLIDE*

Collide: To come together with violent, direct impact; To meet in opposition; conflict

Always dreaded, never anticipated is what colliding is. It happens when you least expected and the outcomes are always unknown. What I like about it, is the surprise it holds. I can’t say I love surprises, although I secretly do, but I have never brought myself to admit it. And today will not be the day I surrender, holding on strong, to my *I don’t like surprises*

For something to collide, there has to be an opposing force that is conflicting with it. Like opposite poles attract and like poles repel … same concept I guess.  I would equate this to life success, friendships, relationships. Basically, nothing comes easy, you have to fight for stuff, for it to work out.

In case you ever wondered why everything can be so hard sometimes, it’s because heaven and earth are having are colliding. Heaven is trying to make it heaven here on earth, while earth is trying to occupy it’s place and make it earthly. If they merge and form a good union … everything is heavenly and awesome, else hell breaks loose and depressing … okay that’s a joke, I done why life can be such a behind (euphemism at it’s best) sometimes.

Everyone is different ->and different people have different views, opinions, objectives, goals and so on. Then how do we make it together, because in the long run, a man is not an island? You need another to be able to achieve that which you’ve set out for. Your difference has to finally meet and I’m pretty sure they (the differences that is) ain’t going to sit around and wait to see what happens, they’ll have a go and eventually collide and the outcome could be either for the worst or for the best … surprise! surprise! This right her explains why I don’t like surprises, seeing as I’m human, I would love everything to be the best always.

Anyhow, you will find out that, that which collides, in the end, when it all works out, then it was worth the try. So don’t deny yourself anything based on the fact that it’s not you,  it’s different, out of this world or better yet not your kind of thing. Maybe that’s the key  to your treasure box. As long as it’s something that’s worth the fight then go ahead … what are you waiting for? *It’s not as easy as it sounds in writing/reading…lol*

Just to remind you that, no one has it all because even the best fall down sometimes and yeah, even the stars refuse to shine (do they?) … lol, just that the best and the stars never give up at any given circumstance. So giving up was never part of the plan … yah!

Okay, now go have a lovely evening … be happy, be the best, be a star and don’t be afraid to collide, it’s a way of life!

And this is my song of the day —> That’s more like me!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Girlfriends *Irreplaceable*

When we were kids, and anti-boys we would have girl cliques, girl sports, girl stuff going on but as we grow older and older, it all starts to fade … we get boyfriends and new friends (who are mostly boys) … and somehow we all go separate ways. No meeting, no pep talk chats , no small girl cliques, no being there for each other, no more stupid stunts … the boys take more priority in our lives.

I am not excluding myself from this category because I’m one of those girls who’ve done that. Truth be told I learnt my lessons the hard way, but I’m glad I did. Boyfriends are IMPORTANT, I love mine and they can be your everything but really not EVERYTHING, there’s that thing he doesn’t have * HE’S NOT A GIRL*. From my experience, the thing I always said to myself, “Kawi, never disown your friends because of your boyfriend”. The best way to do that, was to make an introduction, and make him meet them so that they can also be friends (thank God it wasn’t so hard, because he’s the friendly kind), then he would appreciate and be okay when I’m with them because they’re an important part of my life.

For my girlfriends,

There are those girly stupid things you want to do but you cannot do them alone and you cannot drag your boyfriend to do, that’s just unfair and today I just want to say, “I thank God for My Girlfriends.”

I might not be the first person they call when they have something going on *good or bad*, maybe they don’t even remember I exist at that moment, but at least when I join them, I feel like the thing I was missing has been found, and it just feels good to be with them. And during this weekend, is when it got me thinking, that honestly, I’m gonna be there for my girlfriends when they need me or at least I will always try to.


You will meet up for coffee, lunch, dinner and you will start off where you left off … it’s like you’ve always been there, there’s no awkwardness of any sort, no shyness, no pretending … you are just happy and just you.

With men, there’s that awkwardness … there’s the I need to pull myself together, what am I going to wear, how do I look, what do I say … I hope it doesn’t go wrong … yaddi-yadda vibes.


They will cry with you when you are going through a terrible time or at least they’ll sympathize with you and tell you it’s going to be alright because they have experienced the same, if not going through the same thing — Girls are the ones who help you out of a situation, they are the ones who talk some sense into you…which if a guy tried, he will know better not to…lol

“A good friend is cheaper than therapy”  ~Author Unknown

Cry in front of a guy and he’ll be embarrassed and confused … get yourself together maen! Sympathy … ummm men? *say something*, talk sense … by the time you’re reaching there chances are that you will be considered to be whining a bit too much.


They will love you for who you are, even if you’re bitchy or being a bum, they will tell you, you are bitching and being a bum, and feel like there’s no love lost.

“You can always tell a real friend:  when you’ve made a fool of yourself he doesn’t feel you’ve done a permanent job”  ~Laurence J. Peter try tell a girl she’s being bitchy *OK, don’t try, unless you want your eye gorged out*


If you’ve gained weight or lost weight they’ll be open with you  … “Chic, you’ve gained so much weight, what are you feeding?” … sounds quite simple, wait until a man says it … hehe

“Cherish the friend who tells you a harsh truth, wanting ten times more to tell you a loving lie”  ~Robert Brault,


They always have 411 about everything and in detail … so you can sit for hours, talking about who’s doing what, going where, seeing who, doing who … lol, but really, I wouldn’t call that gossip, it’s just updating our databases, of what going on everywhere.

It just looks bad on a guy going on and on about irrelevant stuff *read very relevant to us*


Going for shopping … you can drag a girlfriend through the whole market or mall looking for something that you will eventually not get and you will get everything that you had intended not to get and you know what? That’s no big deal, because she gets you, because she has probably done the same.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Men and shopping … that’s synonymous to torture unless you have identified something you are going to collect it and pay … otherwise it’s not going to go down so well. You’ll either end up arguing or buying something just to avoid the look :p


You can do sleep overs … sit, drink, watch movies, beautify thy selves (nails and what not), chat in between movies (that guy is hot, this one is … bleh, bleh, bleh) and it’s fun and mostly theraputic.

haha you wish … No, I’m not describing a sleep-over at a guys house.


They will give you all the psyche you need to go for parties, make you dance like a mad woman … even if you had loudly and clearly declared how much you don’t want to party or you’re tired… they know how to get to your nerves the right way.

“In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out.  It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being.  We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit”  ~Albert Schweitzer

You’re tired and you don’t want to party … ” okay, you can stay at home, then I’ll go out, have fun and I’ll find you here” … that’s a guy for you. He just got to your nerves the wrong way.


When they see that you need them, even if without saying, they will come running to make sure you’re handling it alright. They see you and they know something’s not right and they try to make it right.

“If a friend is in trouble, don’t annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do.  Think up something appropriate and do it” ~Edgar Watson Howe

Well, I can’t say men don’t, they do, if you have a connection, they will notice and do something about it. Otherwise, you will have to tell them what you want and how you want it, or you’ll just have to dream on.


Those are the friends I have so far … and that’s why I thank God for them, I have learned a lot from them; I have learnt to be reliable, available, trustworthy, imaginative, quick to grasp stuff, capture inside jokes, keep time #iTry and most of all, have so much love!

I won’t name and shame them, because even if I do, not all of them read my blog :p *lame excuse* but if you read you’ll just know. I have girlfriends from everywhere, at least you’re one if I meet with we start off from where we left off. Some old, some new … but all together, I appreciate you all, and I really thank God for you, and may you all find all the happiness and be full of love to spread and share to all those who need it.

TO THE MEN —> We women, cannot do without you, you make life beautiful and thank you for being there … We thank God for you too and may you have all the love, so that you can love us girls to bits and treat us like the princesses we are. But on that note, don’t deny your girlfriends time with their girlfriends … they are IMPORTANT too. Fair?

It’s weird how, “Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn’t seem to crack.  Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces”  ~Anne Morrow Lindbergh , just read the quote and figured that is so true … hehe men are lucky bastards (in a good way though, if you know what I mean.)


“A good friend is a connection to life – a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world” ~Lois Wyse

“The best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends” ~ Gwyneth Paltrow

Signing Off  ~~~ *Kawi*

Saying Out Loud!

It’s so amazing that people get to read my blog and considering it’s the internet, anyone from anywhere can. Where am I getting with this … I have a reader in India. Like really, how cool is that? I wish there was a way that, maybe once a year, bloggers from different countries could have a conference kinda thing where, they meet and interact.

So, Miss. Prathima Gangadhar tagged me in a post “Knock Knock -Surprise“, that asks you to write 7 random facts about you! Plus you get yourself an award’ish … I think she’s pretty cool and I can relate to her posts, check out her blog, “prathi-says“.

So here goes, 7 VERY random facts about me … Things I have never said out loud, but maybe defines me right about now and in case you see me doing some of this stuff, “Thou Shalt NOT Judge“.

  1. I like drinking my tea with a tea-spoon inside the mug … psychologically, it makes the tea taste better for me!
  2. I cut my chapati’s into small pieces and mix it with food while eating, it just makes it easier to eat!
  3. I eat chicken to the bone, even the cartilage, that white thing at the joints. I love chicken!
  4. I don’t know how to ask for major stuff, or rather I find it difficult e.g cash, leave, saying I can’t do something … but for irrelevant things like food, quite easy!
  5. I was never out of love, I just needed some reality checks to know what I really want … now I do and I have you :)
  6. I don’t like dirt. I’m a mini – clean freak sometimes, then I get lazy!
  7. Music speaks to me … loads!

Now to do the honors!

To just but a few bloggers I follow, cool people I must say! —-> Say the 7 most random thing that you have not said a loud yet.

Mrs. MwitiInked BikerRevealedPieces of meAround and AboutColored In SepiaConfessions Of a SoapaholicJaded PageThe green calabashRandom Day In an Engineer’s life .

Lovely Weekend, Lovely People’s … xo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Happy Friday :-)

Thank God It’s Friday! Considering how my week started, I am happy that I am happy and I am not dwelling in the past. What is gone is gone, and what’s here, has to be appreciated and utilized ;-)

I’m feeling

Happy and grateful! Life is beautiful.

This weekend

Plan home. I intend to RELAX by all means. I need to and I hope I will stick to that plan.

I’m craving

Songs of the week

That would be my newly found Sarah McLachlan – Loving you is easy. Some of her music is woiye *sad*, but her voice is worth listening. Happened to hear her music while watching the series ‘Life Unexpected’.

“Loving You Is Wondrous and Pure, I shout it from the roof tops”

I want and pray

To achieve what I have set out for and for procrastination to be a thing of the past.  For blessings to all my loved ones. Amen!

Highlight of the week

It’s been a long week, but at the end of each day, I have been having something to smile about and thank God for.

Lesson Learnt this week

Positivity makes everything seem better and is emotionally needed to deal with life. And for that reason I will always try have a smile on my face even when all the external forces are dragging it down. Life is too beautiful for us to waste it worrying about things we shouldn’t be worrying about.


I hope so!

Lovely Weekend, Lovely Peoples! God Bless … xoxo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

20 Questions to ask yourself every Sunday

So as I was reading @Nkirdizzle’s blog, as usual she has the most amazing stuff that will get you to juggle your head for a bit. I came across one of her posts that has this, “20 questions one should ask themselves every sunday”. Well, it wasn’t Sunday, but I sure can take myself back and I thought I should try it out … It’s like therapy, makes me notice how much I’ve been lazing around *bad, bad, bad girl*.

He he, this pic is funny!

What did I learn last week?

  • Being paranoid could sometimes be the best way to avoid an oncoming problem.
  • Family is important; they know you more than anyone else would.
  • Positivity makes everything seem better and is emotionally needed to deal with life.

What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?

  • Good question! Keeping up with the pressures of life could be classified as a weekly accomplishment yah?

Which moment from last week was the most memorable, and why?

  • That would be the beginning of last week. Because I made an unsaid promise to myself and to someone else :p

What is the 1 thing I need to accomplish this week?

  • School, school, school, I need to gather all the psyche I need to apply for my masters…Jeez!

What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?

  • Search, Identify and Apply!

What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?

  • Sleep! I need to get insomnia. I’ll blame it on the cold for now, but I think I love my sleep a bit too much.

What was last week’s biggest time sink?

  • Procrastination enough said!

Am I carrying excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?

  • None really! Funny enough I have the least baggage in my life right now, I just hope I keep that trend.

What have I been avoiding that needs to get done?

  • My postgraduate diploma Project! Like seriously, I need to get over and done with it.

What opportunities are still on the table?

  • I believe they are many; I’m just not creating room for them. Which is just wrong all together, so something’s got to give!

Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?

  • I don’t think so, at least as per now.

Is there anyone that deserves a big thank you?

  • I say thank you when I need to, and I keep saying when I have the opportunity to, but my folks do deserve a BIG one.

How can I help someone else this coming week?

  • I’m trying to be of help where possible.

What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?

  • To complete my Masters degree
  • To exponentially grow in my career
  • To be completely stable; this includes relationship-wise and financial-wise

Have any of my recent actions led me to closer to my goals?

  • I think so and then again I haven’t tried hard enough. Jeez this is like a therapy of sorts it seems…yikes!

What is the next step for each goal?

  • Look for a school and apply
  • Work smart, in a way that’s going to contribute to my career growth
  • As for the other, I’m not doing bad so far :p

What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?

  • Ummmm! This is bad … but in case of anything, it’s got to be something good.

What are my fears?

  • My efforts to go unnoticed by the relevant people
  • Not achieving what I would want to achieve (does that make sense? at least in my head it does.)

What am I most grateful for?

  • Everything that I am today, and for the people who have played a role in it … I am grateful.

If I knew I only had one week to live, who would I spend my time with?

  • This is a familiar question. If I knew I only had one week to live, I would call my family and friends and let them know, then I will spend time with whoever wants to spend time with me :)

Maybe you should try it out too!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

It’s a Big Bad World *Paranoia*

Yeah, it’s a big bad world. There’s no two ways about it, because it is. Adam and Eve could not have been thrown into it for them to come and have a ball here. You know! Have you ever wondered why we are faced by so many trials, temptations and tribulations? That’s what I was thinking of anytime I had time to think. And to my conclusion, happiness is definitely a choice, it’s neither a state nor a feeling. Just like love is. Someone chooses to be happy.

Over the weekend, after having so much fun with my friends, a birthday “pool” party and a night out. All was well, and by this I mean, I had no qualm whatsoever with the world. I tend to believe that’s happiness as well. When time came for us to go home, I was easy, because I had had so much fun, it was about time I lay my head to rest. As we walked to the car, the alarm had gone off and the first thing that crossed our minds was that someone had probably hit the car or something, oh well, everything looks okay and what do we do! Enter the car and off we go.

  • If I had the mind of a thief or my friends did, then we would have checked that everything in the car is intact, including the locks and the stuff we had left inside. But because we had not experienced such a thing before, all was well and the alarm was just as a result of something unknown.
  • If only I were paranoid because we had experienced this before, we would have made sure we had taken all the precautions as we set out clubbing i.e I wouldn’t have left my bag in the car in the first place.

Anyway, I did not realize anything abnormal, my bag was intact, just where I left it. So I never even thought of checking it’s contents. I was dropped home and as usual my first thing was to remove my phone and tell the mister I’m home safe. I had my usual phone, but I prefer to use my zain line because it’s clearer, cheaper and it had enough credit. So I search for that phone … ai! Nothing, so with my regular phone I tell my friend I think I dropped my phone in his car, maybe he could check for me and let me know.

So he tells me it wasn’t there. Please note, that all this time, I’m still thinking, ah! I must’ve dropped it somewhere in the car or at the party, so  someone will get it and call me to return it….HAHA! Then I prepare myself, and as I leave the house I think let me buy credit, hmmm! I gladly take my wallet, but no cash…ai! Then I had cash in my bag, I check, uuummm! Nothing! Okay, so I tell the shop attendant, I’ll be back, I forgot my cash. As I walk to the house, I still hope that I’ll get the money, since I had just changed handbags.

So, no zain phone, no cash! Then I call my friend and tell him I think I was robbed, but we were together the whole time, so the question was where? I hung up and make another call and as I’m explaining what had happened, it hits me, wait, whoever was stealing was just taking electronics and cash, then it hits me … crap! my beloved camera … gone!

Then as I ponder where this must’ve happened, because it was definitely not the pool party at riverside, it hits me that it’s Psys LA parking lot, the reason the alarm had gone off is because someone had found their way into the car *sigh* . And all  they thought of taking is stuff from my bag. However, they were considerate thieves because they had a chance to take the whole bag but he just took what he/she thought looked extravagant…lol

How I was consoling myself, is that maybe for them to steal, they were very needy and just need a source of making money and I just blessed them. To be honest I felt bad and regretted for a moment why I did not carry my bag, or why I didn’t go back home or why did not have a clutch bag … I even cried for a given 7mins *okay, that’s a guess but it was shortlived*, and the one thing I was told, is that’s just material replaceable stuff, and I was like yeah true, phone and camera I can buy, money I mean, we work to make money, it will be made and maybe in double fold.

It’s a big bad word I say and every single trial, is a lesson learnt. I have learnt to be paranoid, if my instincts tell me something is bad, I take the precautions and not leave room for regrets. There are malicious people, so don’t tempt them…lol, I think that day I just tempted the stupid thieves and they just did the noble thing, satisfy their desire. The last thing I ever thought, is that someone will still from me … and that’s what is called trusting the environment a bit too much.

Now, I’m totally okay, no more rants about what’s gone, just appreciate what I have. More will come, bigger and better … yah! And people, take care of your stuff, if you go to party, carry the necessary leave the rest at home, not in the car, or at least in the boot because of late the watchmen work hand in hand with the thieves.

Lesson Learnt

Be paranoid! If you think something could happen because of what you’re doing, or because of an experience you’ve had before, chances are it’s definitely going to happen, so take some reasonable precautions. Painful lesson, but it was most definitely learnt and now I’m over it :p


“Sometimes paranoia is just having all the facts” ~ William S. Burroughs

“A paranoid is someone who knows a little of what’s going on” ~ William S. Burroughs

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

It’s Friday *Does a Jig*

Thank God It’s Friday … I don’t know how to classify this week. Not so sure if it’s dragged or if it’s gone fast. It’s just there! I loved the last many Friday’s. This one is *I don’t know*, no plans, no sign of plans…not anticipating any offers on plans…lol, but TGIF, that’s already a good enough reason to do a JIG!

I’m feeling

Happy! Content! It’s not all easy but it’s also not that bad too. The fact that the people I love are there for me and I’m there for them, makes everything alright.

This weekend

Plan cushion! Need to get me a huge cushion for my coach #TMI and I’m derailing a friend to tag along :p , then Rugby and if I make it home early do something very constructive, that’s hopefully not movies…lol. Church on Sunday and a family get together. Yeah, that’s basically it.

I’m craving

First things first, I need to get me a good book. Any suggestion? Nowadays, I start a book and on chapter 2 I’m already bored. I love books with a story line and I hate inspirational or motivational books. Good, interesting books can be difficult to find especially if you don’t have time to go to book stores and screen them, if only someone understood my taste.

So, I crave, just staying in on a loose weekend, with a good book , curl up in my duvet, a hot cuppa chocolate or maybe cold juice (since I’m a sucker for cold stuff and the way I have allergies), a snack and just chill out and read.

photo credits

I love imagining stuff and good book takes me away, it’s like I’m there. For a moment I feel like I’m acting it. Does that even make sense?

Songs of the week

That would be David Guetta featuring Rihanna – Who’s that chick

“Too cold for you to keep her, too hot for you to leave her … who’s that chic? … tihihi!

I want and pray

For everything to work out well and for God to bless me with all that I need for it to work out. It’s a prayer so you don’t really need to understand what I’m talking about, I bet God understands :p

Anyway, do you ever have those random moments where you look at the mirror and just think to thank God for making you beautiful, handsome or even what you are today. I have many of those moments, and I really thank God for taking time to plan out my life.

Highlight of the week

Mr.Champ went back *sigh*, but heey! I will survive, had too much fun though! Now to relax … lol. There’s nothing that feel as great as having someone who you can totally be yourself around … no pretense, no trying too hard, just you and you’re sure they love you for just being you … that’s Mr. Champ for me.

Lesson Learnt this week

That I visit some blogs regularly expecting them to have posted something that is of interest to me to read. Only to get really disappointed when I get the last post that I had read ages ago is the last post showing on their blog. Then it just got me wondering, if I have readers who do that with my blog? as in they come to my blog expecting new stuff to read and zilch! hehehe

I observed that every Friday, my statistics are really high. Is it that guys are bored on Friday and they make it a point to read blogs … lol. Someone should do research on that, maybe me :p


“Life is all about timing… the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable… attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It’s all about timing.” ~ Stacey Charter

Lovely Weekend, Lovely Peoples! God Bless … xoxo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*