Archive | September 2011

2nd Chance *Just a thought*

I’m I the only one who believes in 2nd chances? Funny enough, in as much as am to quick to judge people, yes I am. I observe character, reactions, looks, responses, how you treat me and the people around me and using all that and more I see how to prioritize you in my life. Yeah judge me now … lol but I’m sure we all do that just that we don’t want to accept. Don’t we? No, they say denial is the first step to admitting.

75% of the time (that’s a pretty guessed statistic), people mess up given the 1st chance, me included, it’s called being human. Interviews, meet up’s and all … where you have to play your so called best so that people can think the world of you or see you in perfect light. Truth be told none of us perfect, but still we try to insinuate it. Then there are those ones who don’t sugar coat it, they are just who they are, good thing, bad thing because they chase us away knowing that someone won’t like that side of them.

In as much as you never get a 2nd chance to make a 1st impression. The 1st impression, if not a matter of life or death in my opinion can be replayed at a later date. Then with that I can measure it up and know if the person is worth prioritizing or not. That’s just a random thought. Probably it’s because I expect to be given a 2nd chance too … seeing as I have my blonde moments. Joke, I’m one of those very intelligent babes you’ll ever meet #JustSayingNotBragging hehe

And that’s the reason I give 2nd chances … but after that, that would be expecting a bit too much you know, better yet pushing it. Or (now I can involve my readers…for once) what do you think? Actually, the question is would be … Would you give someone or anyone a 2nd chance?

Yeah, raise your glass to a lovely weekend *cheers*

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Smiley Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! The day started off looking all gloomy, but looks like it got my memo. Yeah, the sun is really trying its best shine and it’s a  bright day after all, even with the dark expectant clouds. Totally matches my mood! In case you have no reason to smile, oh well …

 

Random thought

Why is it that when you’re brushing your teeth in the morning, you become so thirsty just when you’re gurgling the toothpaste off your mouth and the tap water feels so cold and tempting to just swallow? By the way I’ve always wondered, because after that even the thought of water tastes yuck.

I’m feeling

Content and grateful … then thoughtful and happy!

 

This weekend

Up to have some fun *wink* it’s yet another birthday weekend.

I’m craving

To shop for very irrelevant things for my house. And that’s what I will do. Like a pencil holder, fridge magnets and what not! So who knows where I can get this funky nice (irrelevant) stuff ? … hehe

Songs of the week

This woman is phenomenal! She’s stuck to her culture and that just makes her know what she’s about. Now playing STL – Haba Haba. I can listen to her songs all day. I love her originality and appreciation of where she’s from and who she is.

I want and pray

I want the weather to stabilize. It’s September, one of my favorite months and it’s supposed to be sunny, happy and full of life. Whatever happened?

I hope that I’m living my purpose … you know the full working towards what I have always wanted and what I am supposed to be (which I really don’t know … if only life came with a manual, like when you’re popped out, you come out with the manual and the nurses give to your mum, then when you reach 18yrs she hands it over to you), so I hope in one way or another they tally. (Yeah, that’s some deep thought right there. Don’t know where that came from.)

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

 

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday *Hi 5*

Thank God It’s Friday … Ayeiya! I’ve always looked for a platform to say that word, but where else other than my beloved blog. I don’t know at what point it’s said and if I try to say it, I know it will sound pretty awkward.

Random thought

The mind is a very powerful tool. If you set your mind to something, that’s the only thing you will see and nothing past it. So beware of what you put mind to —-> At least for me that’s how it works.

I look at my watch in quarters … to estimate how late I am because keeping time is my kryptonite and that needs to change big time…taking baby steps. Disclaimer: Don’t judge though

I’m feeling

This weekend

Hmmm lets see. This time round, I’m the one who will derail some people.

I’m craving

To do or eat something different. Just try to get out of my comfort zone that is.

 

Songs of the week

Been seeing this song on Channel O and I really liked it.

 

I want and pray

For God’s protection over us, nowadays new is so depressing. Young people losing lives and tragedies are happening left, right and center. Mother nature should take it easy on us. And in other non related news … I hope it works out :)

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

 

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

What I Mean to Say *Loose Statement*

There’s a word that I figured I loosely use when I find out someone lost their life. I would say, “Life is short, enjoy life”. I have never thought the impact of my statement until today when I had met with two of my old *relative word* for coffee. And as we were talking it happened that one of them had witnessed an accident over the weekend and he helped out the young guys but unfortunately they on reaching the hospital one of them had died and the others were in critical condition. Sad story :(

I hate it when I hear a young person lost their life,  there’s still so much to see, to experience, to feel … you know. Anyhow, so as he narrated to us the whole ordeal, it happens that one of the guys involved in the accident was in my Primary School did I just make it sound like I owned it, a year behind me, and I’m like jeez! I know that guy! As usual I would defend my statement … well not know know him, but I have a vivid memory of him. Then my loose statement very conveniently finds it’s way into my mouth, “Oh my life is so short, we need to enjoy it”, and they all node in agreement.

*Bulb light moment*

Wait a second, what exactly are you guys agreeing to? Yeah, that was me right there asking that. My reasoning was that we always say that, but what exactly do we mean? Does it mean to go on vacation and relax on some beach preferably lying on a hammock, holding some cocktail drink with an umbrella on it or some ride on a cruise ship … what does enjoy life mean? Here are the answers I got,

Friend 1 : Playing golf at some Golf Country Club in Limuru gives me so much joy

Me: (my reaction) O_O like seriously, maybe it’s because I have never tried golf, but it sure does look boring.

Friend 1: Walking on that grass, feels like I’m walking on a cushiony carpet, and the scenery is just heavenly, so if I was told it’s my last day, I would hold my golf club and just swing it away.

Me: O_O wow!

(Then my attentions shifts … onto the next one. How about you?)

Friend 2: I’ll just make sure I have it right with my friends and family. That makes me happy.

Me: :) Now I can relate.

But you know what, people are so different. What makes you sleep at night, can make me stay up all night maybe soiling my eyes with tears. And in the same light I looked at my loose “enjoy your life” statement, at first I was thinking how can golf … like seriously golf make you that happy, but you know the same way family and friends would make me happy, then that could be his reason.

Bottom line, is whatever makes you exude that hidden smile, that makes your heart melt and your soul joyful … that, you should make sure is your priority. At least indulge in it once in many whiles, that’s what my loose statement means.

I got this quote somewhere, life is like a’ cuppa tea …

“You sit by the window with a book in your lap, while soft wisps of steam curl up from the tea-cup. You lift the cup, assume a mid-distant gaze and take a careless little sip. Only to realize, somebody forgot to put in the sugar. Too lazy to limber up, you somehow struggle through that sugarless cup! Till you, ruefully, discover undissolved sugar crystals sitting at the bottom. By then, it is too late…..”  ~ Author unknown

Sometimes all we need to do is just stir the spoon. Enjoying life is kind of like imagining  there’s sugar and stirring the spoon … I mean what if there was sugar at the bottom and you just had no idea?  Just in case there’s no sugar at the bottom, then at least you tried your level best at that place and time to make it sweet. So sometimes enjoying life doesn’t come easy, you have to imagine, to look for stuff, for people that make life sweet. But just in case they are not there, you also need to learn to embrace the bitterness of it. Yes, I know there are different ways to see the quote but today this is how I chose to see it.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday *Rants*

Thank God It’s Friday … Then there’s the, I really thank God that it’s the end of this week. How I am hacking, even I don’t know … I’m just doing it, but I’m physically and mentally exhausted.

Looks like I have a cat thing nowadays. Please note that I can’t stand cats. As earlier said, they make me sneeze, but they look so cute in pictures…hehe

Random thought

Funny how we ignore those who want us, want those who ignore us, love those who hurt us, hurt those that love us. That trend is an absolute no no!

And I did some of my good deeds of the year last weekend and yesterday (graduation and birthday). But I still have many more to do … in case you were wondering, it’s just to make people (especially my friends) happy! So if I haven’t done it for you coming soon :p

I’m feeling

Indifferent —> between good and bad, tired and maybe I can handle it, happy and not so happy … I just don’t know … you get the in betweens. Yeah, it’s that time of the month…lol

This weekend

I don’t know – refer to the above. However, rest is essential and I think I really need it.

I’m craving

Rest! Just bumming and doing a lot of nothing. If only I was ↓ but since I’m not … Bumming it is!

Songs of the week

Taylor Swift – Sparks Fly —-> Her songs make me happy!

I want and pray

I think God sees me and knows what I want. And if all this could stop taking a toll me then it would be nice. All in all I’m thankful to God for all I am today and for the people I have in my life … I don’t see many of them often, but y’all in my heart :) I bet you know that yah!

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

Happiness and sadness run parallel to each other.  When one takes a rest, the other one tends to take up the slack ~ Hazelmarie Elliott  (This definitely explains my state … lol)

“I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved .” ~ Anon

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

On Second Thoughts

Ummmm Oh no! And on ↓

Really like really really *cue soprano voice* I have come to the conclusion that second thoughts, must either be my best friend or my worst enemy, that just makes me doubt any decision that I make be it simple as simple as what’s 9+2 or difficult like … hahaha I don’t know what’s difficult really, it varies across various platforms.

I can’t seem to decide whether it’s a best friend or an enemy, but I can bet it’s my enemy! Because the best friend is supposed to be that person who will tell you, chic that decision you just made is stupidly lame, but you know what, just deal with it. Then an enemy will definitely give you advice is not in the best of your interest, anything to make you miserable and frustrated.

Do you ever have moments where you do something and you start thinking, maybe I shouldn’t have, maybe I should have done it the other way. For me second thoughts are like the good – bad angel, telling you do – don’t do, only that it comes too late after the first thought has already been executed.

Maybe it’s as a result of over-thinking things, if only I could do stuff and not really think of the impact and instead wait and see the outcome in reality and not as it is in thought, because then I see it from the worst case scenario. Let me give some examples then maybe we can relate.

Here goes:

You have made a decision on something it could be an exam or an interview, then  once you’ve made the move answered the questions and handed in your paper or finished with the interview, while you were at it, everything seemed correct and to be flowing, but once you get off it, you start thinking, wait a minute,what if I answered it like this instead or what if I used this instead of that … like seriously, second thought, damage has been done! Then you think how you’ll just fail but you get the results and you had ace’d it!

or

You’ve written a text to someone you like, and they take AGES to respond. And you start thinking, what if I said too much, what if they don’t like me as much as I like them , what will they think … psychotic tendencies. You’ve already sent it anyway, and then they respond with something reasonably nice, that doesn’t make you want the earth to open up … but you had thought otherwise.

or

You pour out your heart to someone and wait to hear what they have to say, but right after you’ve gone all foot in mouth, you think, “Oh snap, I shouldn’t have said all that, now what do they think, what will they say back” … and you could just wait to hear their response before taking yourself through the torture of the second thought.

or

You say yes to something, could be a deal, a job, a plan … then you think, ummm maybe this is not it, what if I made the wrong choice, should’ve probably said no. While I was thinking this, I was watching the movie “Mr. Popper’s Penguins” which you should watch, it’s kinda hilarious. And Mr.Popper had to say this at some point,

“Second thoughts are as valid as first thoughts, they only come later” ~ Mr.Popper

In as much as I would’ve loved to disagree with his statement, I think it’s quite appropriate, but only if it came before the execution of the first thought. Then again there’s a reason the first thought came first.

The second thought in question is the doubting Thomas, yeah, as I try to convince myself. So if you over think like I do, maybe it’s time we gave our minds a rest. There’s only so much the second thought can change … it’s just a source of frustration. I have been trying that of late, not to have second thought on what I do, because most of the time, what you think first is the real thing, what you think after is a condemnation of the real thing, so you’re basically trying to undo what your heart wants.

First thought equals less stress, second thought equals more stress! And once I figured that I have so many “on second thoughts” moments, which in turn made me stressed even when I was supposed to be happy. This is what I had to tell myself, “it’s about time I got confident in my decisions”. As long as the decision are made with wisdom and some from my heart … then there’s no need for doubts. Take in the outcomes as they come, if bad deal … with it, if good … rejoice!

QUOTE OF THE DAY

The real secret to total gorgeousness is to believe in yourself, have self confidence, and try to be secure in your decisions and thoughts.

My theory is that if you look confident you can pull off anything – even if you have no clue what you’re doing ~ Jessica Alba

 

 

Lovely Weekend Lovely Peoples … XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday *Just because it is*

Thank God It’s Friday … Yesss! I don’t have classes today, that’s something to rejoice about and the fact that it’s Friday *week end*. Then I just found this cats doing a Friday jig, kinda looks like the cat’s version of the Party Rock Anthem … How cool’s that?

Random thought

I think Zebra’s are the most beautiful animals ever. They just look pretty, the stripes, the thin face, the naughty grin … yeah shoot me now :p

I’m feeling

Photo Credit

This weekend

Graduations and Birthday parties, I definitely can’t miss something to be up to. Or I might just decide to kick it indoors, it’s becoming quite the plan nowadays.

I’m craving

I know, weird! I also shock myself sometimes, I will definitely make this for myself this weekend!

Songs of the week

From one of my favorite bands —> Paramore – Monster, I love this song, the video is sic but I like it all the same.

I want and pray

I want to say congratulations to my friends who are graduating today (Ben K and Wanja K), welcome to the monster world. It’s kind of beautiful though as much as you have to keep dodging bullets here and there.

I pray for wisdom while making my decisions no matter how small they are. And guidance in this life, maen, it can get pretty confusing, but at least at the end of the day I know I have God by my side :) And Philippians 4 is a pretty good chapter, if you get time take a peek, it will give you every reason to smile.

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

I fear failure, loss, heart breaks, but most of all death … I know, I shouldn’t fear either, but I kinda do. Then I came across this quote,

“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live” ~ Norman Cousins

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*