Archive | December 2011

Of the Old and New Year *2012*

It’s the nature of time not to remain constant. 2011 came and now it’s going but will always remain etched in history. And with 365 days A LOT has gone down, all in all, it’s been a great year.

This time I’m going to do it a bit differently. I have just watched a movie that has totally changed the view of my year. Yes it’s had very many highlights and lowlights (my word) I must say but sometimes all it takes is a word, an observation or better yet a movie to make you realize some things that you probably took for granted.

This movie maybe fictional, it’s called Courageous. For me it was so real, it made pick my phone and text my dad and tell him that he is the best man that I know and that each and every day, I thank God for him. I meant it with every inch of my body. You know my mum always says that the love of a mother is usually automatic because you’re joined from the beginning, biologically that is, but the love of a father, is one that has to be natured.

This year, I appreciate my dad. He’s been there for me since the time I don’t remember. Each and every day he’s concerned about me, worried about me, thinking about me, hoping for the best for me, works hard for me, wonders about me and loves me so much. How do I know this you wonder? It’s the role he’s played in my life since I was born and how he does it in his own special way. To be honest, his love has made me feel like I lack nothing. Like I have everything a girl would want.

I’m not yet rich, I’ve not yet made a mark in history per se, I’m not even dating…lol, but I intend to do all that and more. Basically I am not there yet, but the love my dad has showed me, given to me as I sit on my favorite couch writing this down, gives me all the confidence in the world, it gives me that zeal I need to get there. So this year, I dedicate it to my lovely daddy and family. I really thank God for them. Yes by all means, me and my baby sister are my dad’s favorites, hope my mum doesn’t get jealous.

I’ve been through quite some stupid experiences this year, made wrong choices here and there, allowed myself to be stressed by things that shouldn’t be. In short, I’ve been facing the world in a new way, which is not under my parents’ wings. It’s been crazy in a new way, I’ve broken down a few times yes, you can’t blame me. However, I always stand, dust myself up and tell myself “Kawiria, you can do much better than this” and I move on. What has always kept me going through out 2011 is my family and my desire to get there, where I always dream and want to be.

I know they probably don’t know, because there are some things of course I can’t go running to them for if you know what I mean, but by the mere fact that they are there when I need them even for the tiniest of things, sums it all up for me. I know you probably think, spoilt girl…hehe but nah, this is just me being grateful.

“It’s not until you realize what you are worth, that you will get what you deserve.”

In 2012, I’m going to look at it in the form of an ocean. You know how the waves wash away some things from the shore but still retain them in its contents. I am going to have the waves clean off all the not so cool stuff of 2011, but, because that stuff in one way or another has helped make me. I will carry them forward as lessons learnt that I need to apply in future.

Each and every year we always strive to change in the next, we set out things we call, “new year’s resolutions’”. We can change so many earthly things but what remains is character and personality. That’s who you are. I strive in building my character and personality such that they are the ones that will influence what I do and who I am. For instance, I can make money in 2012, but what’s money without the person? It’s just paper with a value on it, but if it’s attached to a person, that’s riches and wealth. I can complete my education and be a Masters Holder and God help maybe a PhD, but without the person, those are just certificates and a status, but if it’s attached to a person with great character and personality, its knowledge that will help build others, create change and much more. In relationships, same applies.

Too many people have the ”New Year, New Me” statuses. Nobody actually changes. —> LOL

I definitely remain with the smiley face and happy girl swag … I know most of you wouldn’t survive without that. Point in case, my cheesy workmates and friends… hehe.

Cheers to a New Year lovely people. May you have joyful and prosperous one and don’t forget to put God first, he’s really good at this stuff. Plus he always wants the best for us or better yet knows what is best for us.

Now that there will be no fireworks this New Years, let’s see how that goes. It’s gonna be awkward *cue high-pitched voice*, damn the Al-Shabaab maen!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

TGIF *Last Friday … Of the Year*

Thank God It’s Friday! I love the whole holiday thing going on, out of this world. After a whole year of working hard, now I can indulge in my guilty pleasures without feeling so guilty. Everyday has been feeling like a Friday and technically speaking, today is the last Friday of the year *woop woop* ↓

Random thoughts

I’m awake at 3:00 am Kenyan time, with no sleep. That’s very unlike me, but at least I’m watching a sort of funny flick and eating some bad foods, which is close to normalcy.

I’m feeling

Very content with me and the world. It’s a really nice feeling to finish the year with.

This weekend

Is the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012 and I don’t really have something I’m up to as per now (is that correct english?). However, whatever it is that I’ll be up to … my theme for the weekend ↓


I’m Excited

This is pretty lame, but I got my old iPod with my old music while doing my spring clean. All the rock songs I loved are there and it’s charging … I’m over the moon. Okay, that’s among other things, jeez!

I’m craving

Can you believe that I have no idea what I’m craving. Or if I do, it’s definitely not something worth mentioning here … lol just kidding. But really, this is pretty interesting, unless maybe it has to do with the time of the night am up, such ungodly hours! Today I’m all #teaminsomnia.

Songs of the week

Yup, this one will definitely never grow old. So I’ve got a feeling (maybe we can replace this night, with next year). In the full new year mode :)

I want and pray

I want to leave any baggage I had this year in this year. It’s been one hell-of-a year in all the right and wrong ways if you know what I mean. So I move to the next minus the baggage, that should be pretty much lighter.

Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past.  Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go.  ~Brooks Atkinson

I pray that next year really does me good. Like really really!


People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.  ~Author Unknown (LOL)

To an awesome weekend or better yet new year, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

When Christmas Comes

It’s that beautiful time of the year once again, that we all look forward to in a not so obvious maybe very obvious way. You know the whole festivities going on, the excitements, the off days, the parties, the eating and sometimes the gifts too.

Personally, I love the Christmas and New Year time. Not because I have so much going, actually most of the time I usually have nothing going on. Other than the usual hanging out with family and friends. For the longest time I can remember, for me it’s a time for receiving cards from here, there and every where, watching christmas-y movies and cartoons, cooking, eating, going to church and lots of loving and giving. I love buying gifts for my family and seeing the look on their faces as they unwrap them.

We’re rarely on the move, which I enjoy in a way. I don’t like the whole hustle, though I wish to go for vacay some time and see what the big deal is usually, and maybe change the monotony of just chilling out, but considering I love being a lazy bum during such days…hehe, I sure hope I can handle what I wish for. Actually this is what I wish for <check this out> this I can definitely handle. Oh my! Isn’t that place out of this world. I think I should create a savings account and name it ‘2014 Christmas’, I’ve always had a thing for 2014, but anyway. Oh my again, I’m still trying to figure out where that is, you know wishes and prayers need to be specific and in case it’s answered, I / we assuming I shall not be trotting alone need to know how to get there…LOL

So it’s that time for celebrating the birth of Christ, singing jingles and everyone getting all up in your space asking you what you’re up to :p So in case you ain’t feeling it this time round, just use it to let the people who mean something to you know that you think the world of them. It’s also Jesus’s birthday, and he’s all about good tidings, love, forgiveness, sharing and caring, getting together  and all good things, you might as well make sure you celebrate it with him, pretty sure he’s usually at yours, plus he’s that guy watching over us throughout the year.

And here’s my official Christmas Song … AWESOME. I think Mariah Carey and John Legend was just the perfect “Christmas” musical combination.

Because this Christmas time get together
It’s gonna be so nice, better than ever
Because this gift of love lasts forever
The Lord makes our hearts open up soon as Christmas comes
It’s gon’ be alright when Christmas comes

Oh, jingle all the way, oh what fun, mmm

And we gon’ reminisce about the good old days
And we gon’ laugh together as the children play
And through the years is always gonna be this way
Come what may


“A child can teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires.” ~ Paulo Coelho

Christmas is not as much about opening our presents as opening our hearts. Merry Christmas my good people’s, have an AWESOME one wherever you’ll be. Pretty sure you’ll do, sometimes it’s all in the head. So, to having fun, living, laughing and loving!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Musings

Thank God It’s Friday! This was one of the few short weeks of the year, but funny enough it didn’t feel as short as it’s supposed to feel. It’s finally here though and I can smell holidaaaay from not so far *woop woop* ↓


Random thoughts

Of cold showers, my instant heater is messed and my landlady is taking a bit of time to fix it, so lets just say I am too lazy to warm water, or rather I love my sleep more. So I would rather sleep in for those 10 mins I will use to warm the water don’t judge, I’m just human :p Then as I was in between those movements people make while showering with cold water, I figured,

You know how you soap yourself up from the feet so that you can feel the warmth, more like sugar-coating the situation. Not knowing that the soap has to eventually get off your body and you just get your body into that cold shower *shivers at the thought* … so is life, in as much as you sugar-coat situations, it does bite you in the ass in the end and you have to face it rather coldly, else you have to make extra efforts to make sure you’re not in that situation in the first place.

I’m feeling

Anxious and excited at the same time … the kind that gives you heebie jeebie blues, okay I got that from this song. Found them rather hilarious, they’re so 1900.

This weekend

I finish the exams that have been all over my space … lol, now I can say that. And the holiday mood checks in. And instead of saying, does a jig, I should say doing a heebie jeebie dance.

I’m Excited

I’ve figured that when I’m excited about stuff, I kind of jinx it. Looks like I should just get rid of this section. Why I even added it, was just to accommodate a particular excitement. So I hush *zips lips*

I’m craving


That is all :)

Songs of the week

For all the rock heads out there – “Spread your love like a fever, and don’t you ever come down”, I tried to not like the song, but now it’s just at the back of my head.

I want and pray

I want, I want, I want *drum rolls* a gift for Christmas :)

I pray that … okay, I don’t want to make it so obvious, so nah, I’ll just pray silently *says a silent prayer*. You know the whole thing about excitement and jinxing, it does apply here too.


The only way to have a life is to commit to it like crazy ~ Angelina Jolie


To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

A Place to Belong

Photo Credits

Feeling of displacement aside

Out of place, dis-appreciation all dim lights

I need something that’ll shine

A sign to show I’m welcome

Part n’ parcel of the gang

But everything is so distant

In one place I was guaranteed and belonged

Where the drums beat loudest

And my heart comes in whole

Where the smiles are abundant

And everything breathes hope

Recognition doesn’t matter

The only place my name n’ fame doesn’t count

Safe abode where my mind is in peace

And my body comes in handy

But …

I look forward, I see blank faces

Full with disappointment, disgust and pity

I wasn’t part of them, that, not a doubt

I wasn’t even like them, can’t be figured out

Where could I possibly fit

A place where I wouldn’t be a misfit

Somewhere I was calm

Not dense n’ damp

The sound of music, the feel of innocence

My daily constant dose of heroine

Every sniff sends me flying

Pass everything n’ I’ll do it good

As long as it’s a note with a tune

A lyric like do-re-mi-the chords

They look corny while they’re at it

But the way they’ll pull it off is just MAGIC

Head :  Side to Side , Waist : Likewise

Beauty in the making, utterly breathtaking

But all I wanna do is sing

Whether it’s Pink or Elvis Presley

The beats of the track slowly on crazing

When I say B.N.P

I don’t mean … Before Nubian Prince

I mean … Bra, Knickers n’ Pants! LOL

♥ Rockphile

 Yeah, that’s poetry by my baby sister. She’s a rock fanatic, as you can see it in her “name”. I discovered she does poetry because she would take my incomplete journals or get us to buy her journals every other month. Not that I’m snoopy *in my defence* … lol, but I happened to land on one or two of her poems and I thought WOW. So I asked her if I can do a guest poem on my blog. I love how she writes. Here’s another one she’s done here before (You Are Special).


“A place belongs forever to whoever claims it hardest, remembers it most obsessively, wrenches it from itself, shapes it, renders it, loves it so radically that he remakes it in his own image.” ~ Joan Didion

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Super Celeb Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! It’s not everyday you appear in a newspaper, so I’m allowed to gloat just a litto bit. Someone say long weekend, it’s such weekends we live for. When the holiday strategically falls on Monday, just the way it should be. *Cue Rebecca black* ↓

Random thoughts

So excited, now my picture is plastered on Nation, Zuqka for all the right reasons and people who haven’t talked to me in forever  are now calling *cheeky grin*. It’s an awesome feeling. I actually bought the newspaper in the morning, and jeez! Nowadays they go for Ksh 50. Long live digital age.

Then there’s this gobble in my stomach because I haven’t finished reading for my QT exam. Then again excited that I’ve completed my term paper. Humans, is there any time we are genuinely satisfied with what the world has to offer, there always seems to be a void of sorts.

I’m feeling

So privileged, part-of  :) and thankful to all who pass by my litto virtual haven right here.

This weekend

Hanging out with friends and family. I just hope my QT / math paper will be a breeze *crosses fingers* as I should be reading right now … then everything else will just align itself.

I’m Excited

My friend comes in next week. This is awesome, let’s just say we were child hood friends who used to hang out loads then life happened and now he’s visiting *excitoz* it’s called catching up with change. Plus Tinman, don’t get ahead of yourself already, just in case you come across this :p

I’m craving

A casual coffee date, haven’t had one in a while. Why are they called coffee dates again while half the guys take milkshake or juice? Anyway, that’s besides the point though.

Songs of the week

David Guetta is just the man! How has he done a mix for almost all the musicians *thumbs up*

I want and pray

I want a camera, actually I need to get me one after mine was mysteriously borrowed *read stolen* … I miss the kodak moments.

I pray that mum’s prayers are answered. The powers of a praying mother, she passed by my house with her friend and when they were leaving, they said a word of prayer. In short, I need to revise my prayers. At the end of it I felt too blessed. Guess it was the motivation behind Alaine – When Mama Prays.


To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Dandy December

Have you ever had an picture but you don’t have a story, or maybe you have a story but you don’t know how to put it down, but you still want to have it up. Oh well, that’s me today. I have had this picture for the longest time and I’ve always wondered how to use it. So it’s being lying in my blog pics folder and I just keep wondering, “Picture, I really want to use you … but how, when, at least I know where”

November was that month for me that can be best described by the royal tears. Funny enough as mentioned earlier, I’m a natural crier … lol but this month anything that got me anywhere close to crying would get a “really?”, or “No ,you’re not!” or “Not now”. From the loss of my uncle, to ‘minor’ heart breaks, too much to handle, home-sickness, loneliness, boredom, just because.

All in all, if there’s one thing about me, is that I’m an optimist. There’s always a reason for everything including those stupid decision made in one case or another which I think everyone does. What matters is what lessons you learn at the end of them all. However, the most important is not to forget to thank God for the blessings too, because failure to see those, you don’t see the beauty of life.

November Lessons 

  • Life is short. It doesn’t matter how old you are, the impact is still the same.
  • Open your eyes, use your brains and protect your heart.
  • Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious.
  • It could have been worse
  • Learn from every mistake and think about it over and over, so that the next time you’re about to repeat it, you feel stupid.
  • If you fall and stumble, don’t let it get you. Let it be your inspiration.
  • There are friends for a reason, a season and a lifetime. Accept that and move on or move in.
  • If you’re not supposed to be in it, then it won’t work out. I think it’s the way of the universe giving you hints.
  • Whatever you do, if it comes from your heart, then all is good. If it fails, chances are that you won’t regret it.
  • Actions speak louder than words.
  • Life is what you make of it, smile with the world it smiles back at you … frown at it, it will most definitely frown back at you.
  • Whatever happens to you, just know you’re not the first nor the last. It always gets better eventually. I don’t know how but somehow it does.
  • Lastly,

November Blessings

  • Life and life in abundance – Good health, beautiful person in and out.
  • My family is my number one supporter.
  • Awesome friends, who are there for you, who think of you, who check up on you.
  • People who think the world of you.
  • I’m able to juggle work and school, it’s crazy I say.
  • Fun photo-shoot ( here and here ), fun coast trip.  Plus it had been a while since I swam, that was a blissful moment, should do it more often.
  • I enjoy what I do … makes waking up in the morning much easier.
  • Awesome colleagues.
  • Good music – for what would we do without music? It speaks to me. When no one else knows what to say when to say, music does.
  • The ability to express myself in writing.
  • For being me … I’m social, smiley, loving and I pray nothing changes who I am. It makes everything much much easy.

December is here

So let’s see … December, December, December. It’s come along so fast … jeez! I ain’t complaining, but you know it’s the indicator that the year has come to an end. Any how, it’s also that month that comes with goodies and fun times. Plus at least 3/4 of the people are usually happy, in a holiday and party mood including our bosses *wink*.

Now since it’s finally here, I might as well get into the December program, though I technically don’t have one. What’s with everyone asking what I have planned for Christmas? Am I the only one who never has anything planned? Other than being at home of course, its standard procedure … tihihi

I love that the month is fresh … feels like I’m letting out my spanking new self and here goes my ↓

December Expectation

  • Be much smarter – I think the year has had enough lessons on me, now it’s about time I gave back the lessons learnt.
  • Finish my exams – Oh my I can’t wait. Still getting used to the whole “Back To School” set up.
  • Have fun fun fun – That’s the standard procedure for December, wherever I am, whatever I do … just make sure it’s fun even if it’s sleeping.
  • Be a bit random, crash parties, visit people and places, basically ↑
  • Make my family and friends happy, have a laugh , catch up – It’s goodie goodie month. Oh, the excitement.

Quote of the day

Someday is why we never say never. It’s the reason we never give up, the reason we never give in. It’s a place in our hearts that can’t be broken, where our dreams always come true and the moment we’ll never let go ~ Justin Bieber

To a Dandy December full of laughter and lots of love! Just the way it’s supposed to be. God Bless Ya’ll … xo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*