Archive | March 2012

Fantasy Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! One of those weeks that just deserve a woooosssssaaaaah! I really really really … like really okay, you get the drift wish I could have it like this ↓ It’s not too much to ask yah? *responses* lol I thought so too.

Random Thoughts

If only you could just speak or write what’s on your mind without thinking what the recipient would think. Oh Lord, wouldn’t some things just be much easier.

Beauty may get the attention, but personality will capture the heart. Speaking of which do you know your personality? Post for another day :)

I’m Feeling

Comme ci Comme ça

This Weekend

I wish, I really wish. Then add the in-betweener (my word) . Movies.

I’m Craving

Nothing really O_O that’s pretty awkward…but hahahahaha—>ha this has just made my day, pretty nostalgic. Now I miss waking up early on Saturday and Sunday just to watch cartoons.

Songs of the Week

Loved this song the first time I heard it. S.A has quite some talent going on.

I Want and Pray

That from my heart, mind and lips to God’s ears.

Quote Of The Week

Make that purple …

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*

The Red Light


Now, I have the perfect answer to “What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?”. I won’t have to go digging deep to look for something that would sound crazy. It’s part of growing up and I am just thankful that it wasn’t as bad, it could have been worse. Now, I can laugh about it, but that was a scary move I made. Getting involved in a party brawl that I have no idea how it started or what ensued. So don’t joke with me or I’ll punch you in the face *just kidding*.

That was my red light. Looks like I’m having a phase of *experience, learn and decide*. If that’s what growing up is about, then clearly I have done much of it lately. If it’s not this then it’s that. I would love to complain and think all this is too much, but I take it in stride and I’m like, if I didn’t go through this then I wouldn’t know. Actually, I’m very thankful that the experiences have come in moderation,  you know getting that opportunity of thinking about what’s going on or what it is I’m doing, how it’s impacting my life. I’m glad I able to do that, it’s like a 2nd chance of sorts and it’s for me to decide whether to take that up or not. What I got that from this experience in particular was,

” If it’s not good for you, if it’s causing more harm than good, then it’s time you stopped especially if you can do without it”. ~ Kawi

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were, you wonder what’s to come. However,  it comes a time, you just know it’s time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we don’t have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up.

“When you’re growing up your mother says, ‘Wear rubbers or you’ll catch cold.’ When you become an adult you discover that you have the right not to wear rubbers and to see if you catch cold or not. It’s something like that.” ~ Diane Arbus

Thankful Thursdays, don’t forget to say a small thank you today. Apparently, they say gratitude is the essence of good mental health and spirituality. Now you have every reason to … yah. Have an awesome day my people’s.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Fab Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! This week dragged and draaagggeeed for some strange reason which I’m still yet to figure, but it’s finally here.

Random Thoughts

Ever thought that you are probably the answer to someone else’s prayers? That you are the reason God will give them a yes, no or just wait a bit longer? Awkward huh!

I’m Feeling

Many things :) but it’s definitely a good feeling.

This Weekend

Pretty sure there’s something being cooked up by some people somewhere? Phone line(s) are open.

I’m Craving

Right now, I’m just hungry for some really good food. You know, like the naan and chicken curry at some Indian restaurant in Yaya *salivates*

Songs of the Week

Ooooh sometimes, I get a good feeling yeeah. I get a feeling that I’ve never never never had before … no no I get a good feeling yeeah! —> Oh … so loving this song.

I Want and Pray

For the far I have reached, I thank God. For where I’m going, I ask him to lead my path. Some things just need to work out right.

Quote Of The Week

“Isn’t it amazing how we go through the same things only in different circumstances? So whenever you get a chance to encourage, bless, share or be there for someone grab it and do something. It could mean the world to them.” ~ Kawi

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*

In My Head

Lord give me a sign!

I don’t know when I ask for a sign I actually expect it to come dressed up in a robe with a golden tiara or in the form of a butterfly or just bird poop on my hair, so that I can end up cursing instead of blessing it. It’s got to be something, like something I can “superstitiously” relate to. Today, if you were wondering what was going through my head as I was walking home since I had mentioned it in my update, that’s what occupied a very small part of it. I am a scatter brain, so I have a million and one things running through my head including what I would do if I was compromised by some strange people…

I started playing the game, “Never again would I…”, and I was like, there are so many things that I have to put on that list. Top of the list was getting involved in undefined things, yes, it had to boil down to dating and relationships. I think emotional roller-coasters with people who don’t deserve it is just a mere waste of time…yes I said it.

Why care so much for someone who probably don’t really care about you? Why think about someone who doesn’t think of you? Why place your heart on your sleeve while someone has it locked up with those non-breakable padlocks? Why be in a relationship that you don’t know what/where exactly you are placed or it’s even headed? Why are you in doubt in the first place about all this?  Well, I happened to blubber this to one of my friends, I don’t think I waited for the answer but I must’ve heard something like he’s not ready. Makes much sense, again I say it was probably a case of Mr. Wrong and classify it as fun times. Let bygones be bygones!

Then again, I’m thinking I’ve heard all the excuses as to why someone wouldn’t be ready to have a relationship defined, such as bad past relationships, they’re in a crisis, they’re scared, they just want to have fun, they want to make money first … among many others. Here, I’m just a young lady *cheeky smile* I wear dresses sometimes, I know if I want something I’ll go for it regardless of the many challenges involved. I’m also damaged in one way or another, I’ve had past relationships, non-relationships, flings, and *I don’t know what this is* that are both good and bad, I want to make money or a living, I’m also scared of getting into defined things, I’m scared of getting damaged again, I’m scared of heart breaks who isn’t?. BUT it remains that if I want something I will make it clear that that’s what I want and brush those fears aside and go for it, and tackle the fears again if they ever arise.

So in the same light, I would expect a man to know what it is they want actually from the time they approach you and decided you know what, I like you.  Despite your fears and what you want to do first, you still know what it is you want and you should go for it. If you don’t, it’s because that’s just not it for you and so there all this excuses to sugar coat the actual thing.

Back to my sign, so I’ve decided to make a vow with myself (i.e. my mind, my feelings, my heart, my emotions) that from today, I am done with the punks *Hi 5* no more stupid flings that are going no where, no more unnecessary emotional roller-coasters, no more undefined relations. Basically boundaries need to be drawn so God please help. Now to reserve the rest for that guy! That’s a HUGE LOAD off my small chest literally…lol *breathes out fresh air*

Considering I’m an all love person, my friends shall remain loved equally. No, I’m not ditching, deleting or terminating anyone, y’all play different roles in making my life all worth living.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

This ↓ totally made my day…

There are three possible parts to a date, of which at least two must be offered: Entertainment, Food, and Affection.

  • It is customary to begin a series of dates with a great deal of entertainment, a moderate amount of food, and the merest suggestion of affection.
  • As the amount of affection increases, the entertainment can be reduced proportionately.
  • When the affection IS the entertainment, we no longer call it dating.

Under no circumstances can the food be omitted. ~ Judith Martin

True, ain’t it? LOL

ION, you can try watch this video especially if you stay alone and you love your sleep. Only watched to the spider bit, I’ll watch the rest tomorrow…hehehe!

Okay back to reading, which was the initial plan when I switched on my computer … night night, sleep sweet!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Nostalgia Is …

Remembering how my dad would baby sit us. Well I’m 8 years older than my baby sister so technically I’m the “BOSS” he he. I am the one who baby sitted my baby sister most of the time, just think lots of singing. Considering I can’t sing to save my life, I now think that’s why she used to laugh all the time *face palm*. I don’t even know what has driven me to back in time. When my mum was a nurse (actually she still is) only more managerial hehe so no night shifts and what not. Then, she used to do night shifts, so you can imagine what every one dreads, like baby crying at night, needing to be fed, diapers changed, to be lulled to sleep … yeah, my pops was a master of that. And he would still go to work the following day. I think he enjoyed every bit of it, I could feel it don’t burst my bubble…lol. At least at no point has mum ever told me he complained and she’s a chatter box like me.

My best part of all this is when he would lie on the couch and make me a small space when he folds his legs, and I would call it my small house. We would watch news together in as much as I was totally clueless on what was going on and just stare at the images, but what I enjoyed the most was the small house.

Then a couple of times, circumstances such as mid day snacks on weekends when some hunger has checked in and house-help is nowhere to be found. He would be forced to prepare a meal for us and for some reason I only remember rice and scrambled eggs. There was once he made mandazi’s with fish fillet in them, I ate so much till I got constipated … ha ha that’s a story for another day, but in summary, he had to deal with it…oi!

Anyway, I was just having a nostalgic moment. I usually have a couple of those. My dad has done (still is doing) the best job ever, and the thought of it just makes me happy that I think the world of him. He’s a bright shining example and a happy twinkling in my heart. I always pray that the man I get will be a good father to our children too. To me that’s more than a huge blessing!

It’s only when you grow up, and step back from him, or leave him for your own career and your own home – it’s only then that you can measure his greatness and fully appreciate it. Pride reinforces love ~ Margaret Truman

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Musings

Thank God It’s Friday! That’s another week gone just like that…oi! I’m on recess *woop woop* but it’s a fake one because in as much as it’s a break, right after ‘enjoying it’ I have a CAT on Monday. I feel played, but it’s Friday and I love Fridays.

Random Thoughts

A friend or two who you can relate with and talk to is more than awesome. Then the rest can just be people who you share a laugh with or chit-chat about many other (ir)relevant things.

I’m Feeling

Like I’ve got jokes … hehe

This Weekend

A bit clueless, but I have a date with Mr. Books at some point. Not really looking forward to that one in particular, he always makes me get all serious and worked up. Especially when he asks questions that are complicated and difficult to answer then I have to ask his friends and what not…not cool!

I’m Craving

Got my alternative favorites and I didn’t even eat them, was too sleepy and full to do so. So today *rubs hands* and maybe I should pull a “no begging” on my colleagues.

Songs of the Week

Considering that I’ve been replaying it. The vid makes me feel like going sky diving…haha but maybe I should start easy like bungee jumping. Errrm … No thank you!

I Want and Pray

Always thankful. Just prayed for what I want, I hope it was from my lips to God’s ears.

Do you ever wonder how God listens to everyone’s prayers? I think after watching Bruce Almighty it kinda messed up my thoughts of this whole process…lol

Quote Of The Week

Ha ha maybe this does explain it, if you wondered why you feel some of the things you feel.

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*

Friday Musings

Thank God It’s Friday! Lovely week this is by all means. Seemed draggy at first but now I’m thinking, ‘ :-o snappity snap! Time is really flying’. You know what that means especially if you’re in school. It means that all your assignments and projects are almost if not due and exams are just around the corner … hence the coffee mug!

Random Thoughts

Be sure who you relate with and how you relate with them. Maturity I tell you my dear friends, definitely doesn’t come with age or status, it comes with personality and character.

I’m pretty sure I’ve saved someone from a cardiac arrest *awaits response*. There are some things that shouldn’t shock you, make you have a sleepless night or make your heart skip a beat i.e immature people, especially if their character is suspect.

Here’s my manual of how to deal with them : Tell them what exactly they have done, once they know, then this is very important, heck leave them alone. Let them swim in the pool of immaturity alone, because if you go on and on with them you join the bandwagon too. In short, don’t engage in an argument, leaving them with the knowledge that they’ve done something quite immature is good enough and very mature of you.

I’m Feeling

Joyous, like doing a happy jig.

This Weekend

Relax by all means, you know one of those things you really deserve, this is one of those.

I’m Craving

Besides some delish *closes eyes and visualizes* barbecued pork spare ribs *salivates*, I really miss Snakes & Ladders, Monopoly, Scrabble, Ludo, Start & Stop … I mean life can’t be this serious already, I need to feed the kid me.

Songs of the Week

Her music is just purely beautiful - Jennifer Hudson

I Want and Pray

You know that point you know what you want and pray for but you’re like you know what, I leave it all unto you, you know better. So, for the far I have reached, I thank God. For where I’m going, I ask him to lead my path.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*

Woman Of Substance

Don’t we all hate disappointments? That being the sole reason you would rarely find me asking for help. I’ll always try to be ninja or superwoman just to avoid disappointments. I am totally guilty of this, I can’t even start denying and as result I set low expectations on people.Which after some thought in as much as it seemed smart, I found it rather lame.

Why would I set low expectations just because I fear disappointments? That means then I get a raw deal from whoever it is and I’ll just be okay with it. It’s not what I deserve, but it’s what I have chosen to get and so I settle for it. It’s more like a trade-off,  to avoid getting disappointed, then set low expectations, a lie we feed ourselves every other day.  Low expectations are actually the reasons we get disappointed, why we get hurt, why we are not happy, why we don’t get what we deserve, why our worth is under estimated.

Set high expectations for yourself and for others because a woman of substance knows what their worth and what they deserve. A woman of substance is a woman who has strong character, is consistent, has more to her than meets the eye and has a variety of interests outside and within her home and family. She is interesting to get to know; she possesses a depth of personality and character.

That’s what you should strive to be, don’t let anyone or anything make you think any less of yourself. You’re the best there could ever be and there’s no one else who can match up to you. I mean, after all you are the only you around. You need to leave a mark that no one else can replace, we all have that ability in one way or another…no?

To all, the women, whoever you are and wherever you are, it is a huge blessing that you are there. You all make life beautiful for without you so many things wouldn’t be. And to say the least, as my friend has put it, all those little things women do that may seem fussy, they actually do make life much easier for you. Take some time to appreciate a woman or two who play a role in your life, not just today but every other day and you’ll see the difference that makes.

Well … well … well, now that most women are defined by their relationships I can bet I’m not wrong on this. Here goes to the song of the day, I love it!

Lot’s of love to the women in who make my life beautiful. God bless y’all with your heart’s desires!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

This and That

This –> The moving was pretty successful, for those who are interested in knowing now that I whined and whined about it on the last TGIF post…he he but it’s allowed once in a while…no? All in all I got the smooth weekend I prayed for, so I really thank God for that. Now I’m settled once again and I hope and pray to have long and pleasant stay in my new pad.

That –> Through my usual rounds in the internet, yeah, I like taking walks and checking out the scenery and what the world has to offer. I came across a certain random post. You know one of those you read and you’re like, words straight from my mind. Not how I would say it because structuring it would be a bit of an issue. But whoever wrote this couldn’t have said it any better.

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: ‘What kind of man are you looking for?’ She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, ‘Do you really want to know?’ Reluctantly, he said, ‘Yes.’ She began to expound, As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can’t for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’ The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought & stated, ‘ I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life. He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain. She said, ‘I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked – believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man. I need a man who is family oriented. One who can be the leader and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God. I need someone whom I can respect.

In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, he just has to be worthy. And by the way, I am not looking for him … He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help him self.

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, ‘You are asking a lot?! She replied, “I’m worth a lot” ~ unknown author

So what do you think about this? Is it too much to ask for? Because I’m pretty sure we are all in one way or another you probably wouldn’t want to admit it looking for that companion who knows, respects and matches our worth and each of us is worth a lot.

And in other non-related news, now that it’s a little of everything, sometimes you say things to encourage people not knowing that you will have to encourage yourself with the same words…he he! That was me over the weekend, you know those moments you just say ‘close your eyes, clear your heart and just let it go’ on this post…I did exactly that. Some things are not really worth creating a roar with someone who could be your mother especially material stuff. I say, ‘you lose some, you gain some’, that’s how life is. I believe in one way or another I’ll get much more than what I lost.

I love it when the world is in cahoots with you. You know, arranging itself in such a way that you don’t struggle in a circumstance which if that didn’t happen you would’ve had it rough. I think that’s what happened to me this weekend. Some random coincidences, some friends who I will always cling to, life does teach you. The next time my friend mentions they need help with ‘simple things’ like moving houses, I will try my best to help even if it’s just sitting there chatting them up. That was what really kept me sane, clearly I’m now all back to smiley, smiley.

To a super blessed and fruitful week!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Fussy WEEKend

Thank God It’s Friday! It’s been an alright week, not the most awesome, alright would just do. It’s also the week I ate junk all through, that’s very unlike me. I just didn’t have the psyche to do stuff and the fact that I’ve been fussing over moving out all through the week in the hope I’ll enjoy it, I still don’t.

Random Thoughts

Sometimes you can see someone walking past you but you just don’t know what’s going on in their life, so be cautious while approaching them.  He he this is because some boy tried some stupid moves on me at the Nakumatt Lifestyle yesterday, I think they had a bet with the friends, to say the least he got the not so better part of me.

I’m Feeling

Super Stressed! Moving just sucks for me, I hate the whole process. The changing, the newness, the getting used to the new place and people, the packing, the feeling like you have the whole world on your shoulders…as you can see I just don’t like it.

This Weekend

I’m moving houses … that’s what I believe the massive source of the stress is.

I’m Craving

Actually feeling nostalgic. Remember this

Songs of the Week

Going back, this was one of my favorite Alanis Morissette’s songs.

I Want and Pray

For a smooth weekend

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*