Archive | June 2012

Friday Fill-Ins

Thank God It’s Friday! Well, well, well I’m that girl “working” from home today so this is one super A.W.E.S.O.M.E Friday. Hakuna pressure yaani. Seeing as I’m still on my breakfast at 12:30, some shame shames! And I can just decide that’s it’s too cold and grab a hot cuppa chocolate, my duvet or just go snooze. Snap, I’m spoiling myself and on Monday am back on the grind…yikes! But to some Friday loving!

Random Thoughts

Oh my! I already feel like a new comer (and it’s Friday) because I start my new job on Monday. I’ll be that girl with starchy clothes and the nerdy look…lol. Oh my, experiencing a mixture of excitement and cringe cringe. Wish me the best.

LOL…that girl! Oh and I started wearing them again.

I’m Feeling

More than loved and blessed. And that thing called “belief ” is an amazing thing.

This Weekend

Just chilling out with him among other things. I know feels weird saying that, oh well new developments.

I’m Craving

Now that I haven’t eaten one of these in a while. Double cream Oreo’s had just kind of taken it’s place. Sorry Toblerone that moment.

Songs of the Week

The first time I heard this one, I was like “Ai, that song is a bit shady…lol” especially when you check out the video. Then I saw it so many times on ChannelO and the next thing I know it’s the coolest ever, it’s the song that gets me up on the dance floor…yes, judge me now. And my blog mate, founder of  TGIFridays thinks so too :-)

I Want and Pray

I want to thank God for the little and the big blessings in my life, those that I see and those that I haven’t yet seen. I know, cliché prayer but I actually do mean it —> Looks like it’s my repetition prayer at this rate, so thankful.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Questions In My Head

“What if…?” a ridiculously rhetorical question I must say. Because in my opinion, it doesn’t have a valid answer. Unless of course you try out the thing in question then find out the actual outcome.

I can’t even deny this, I’m one hell-of-a culprit for asking this rhetorical question. And you wouldn’t believe, but this question comes mostly when you have great and amazing things laid on your table and it just looks unbelievable, like “How can this be happening to me, it’s too good to be true“. You ask it to question the occurrence in your life because you feel like you don’t deserve something that good. Or even if you deserve something that good, you don’t believe that it could actually happen to you. Don’t you go something like, “What’s the catch?

We see the world full of bad people, it’s the picture that’s been painted by us and the one we display every other day. It’s what we always expect any time someone utters anything to you or better yet does something for you. Such that when you meet people who are genuine, open, honest, caring and what not it’s really difficult for you to see that. You’re probably thinking, there’s got to be more to it than this.

We are used to people who are shifty, liars, betrayers, con people, envious people,*add other bad people traits*. Well those are just a few in your life, it doesn’t mean everyone is like that. It could even be one, two or three people who you’ve met that exude such character. The next thing we do as humans, is generalize. This completely taints how we see the others who come into our life’s under different capacities. “What if…” comes by when someone is good to us, but the first thing that crosses your mind is doubt and suspicion. Because with this person, you’re venturing into the unknown, after all you can only know someone too well, even a place. Sometimes you just have to experience it yourself so that you can know what the person or place is about. You put yourself out there and don’t be afraid to fail or be heart-broken because that’s what brings the “what if…”. Fear is the beginning of all the what if’s. No one wants anything to go wrong, but how else will you know it’s the right thing if you don’t try.

Believe in yourself , believe in them, believe in the place. That’s the only way to counter the “what if…” questions in your head.

So if something good comes your way, it’s good to look at it critically but don’t let “what if…” be the ones to guide your decisions, you could try your guts if you really want something to question. Because that’s what could deter you from achieving what it is that you set out to achieve in the first place. So just believe, turn that fear into something more positive and tangible like curiosity. You’ll come to realize how lucky you are and be content without too many questions in your head. I am :-)

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Closing This, Opening Those

Oh well, something to make my Monday a little more interesting. Yes, as you know it’s in my nature to make Monday yellow yellow and kill all the blues that present themselves today. I mean, I need to write a post to mark some days like today and how I’m taking a big step.

You’ve probably seen me saying it feels like closing day. Yes, it really does feel like it. Only thing missing is a pack of cards, some snacks and you know how it was when it was closing day back in primary and high school. The excitements and all thinking I have never gone through this before and I don’t know what I am supposed to expect. Good thing is that there’s always a first time for everything. This is my very first to serve a full notice to the end and for a job I loved to bits. It’s quite the experience I must say. Ups and downs, but most of all regardless of the that, it’s been a good experience. One that I’ll look back and I’ll be able to give someone a piece of advice.

So, it’s my last day being online content editor for rupu, yup! Been here for almost 2 years now (1 year 8 months to be exact) and lets say they are the ones who have molded me to be who I am today. It’s an amazing thing to see a platform be given birth to, take care of  it as it grows up, and while at it be at the top of the game. If that’s how nannys feel when they see us (the kids they took care of) all grown up after wiping off poop, bathing us, feeding us, teaching us and what not … then it’s such a fulfilling feeling.

So the final one month wasn’t exactly the easiest of my months. Oh my! I’ve experienced many moments, from the beginning where I actually handed in my resignation letter to the last day. Could that be the reason it’s standard that you have to give at least one month notice. It’s a reality check month, it’s a roller coaster of your feelings. At one point you’re here *points top* then next thing you know you’re there *points bottom* and it’s a cycle. You actually get to learn people, your colleagues through the good and the bad, this one is the bad, because you’re actually leaving them, more like dumping your spouse. Resigning from an organisation is not the easiest thing one could do. It bites, it makes you wonder what the others are saying, if they are happy for you, if you’re doing the right thing, if you’re headed in the right direction and other related thoughts.

However, this is in my own honest opinion. If I have a person who’s resigning in my department/organisation and moving to wherever I would be sincerely happy for them. It shows that they are still of relevance, that you added value to them. Well, that’s what the few organisations I have worked with have done. They have added value to me and I’m super grateful that I worked with them, I will carry that knowledge they’ve impacted in me everywhere I go. After all that’s what life is about – ‘live, learn and apply’. And now my former colleagues are part of my life in one way or another. I would love to meet them and catch up, buy them a drink or vice versa, be invited for stuff, give them business and so on.

Anywhoo, so that’s wassup! So in the midst of all that, let me do something humorous at least. Too much seriousness is not good for me today :-) So there’s this thing called “Not Me Mondays”, stolen the concept from some random blog I happened to see, I think it must’ve been a post from the link below the image above. It’s where you’re just brutally honest, tell it, then you deny it. I think she must’ve gotten it from “Shaggy’s – It wasn’t me” song. Here’s how I got it, let’s give it a try with 5 for starters and see if I have my hand at it.

  • The alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn’t just snooze it and wake up 1 hour later. I mean I would never, never ever…lol
  • That guy who was about to splash on my some puddle water while I was walking to work, that guy hmmm! I didn’t throw imaginary daggers at him, if looks could kill, but nah, that wasn’t me.
  • The guy in a BMW who was picking his nose like he wanted to remove his brains via his nostrils O_O. I didn’t even judge him and think, who does that on traffic. Yuck! But no, that wasn’t me.
  • I’m not that girl wishing that closing day at work could have been a little more interesting, nah not at all. Disclaimer: I’ll make it exciting after I’m out. Now that I have one week of bumming *yaaay* Meeh if only school was also on break, I could take a trip or something. No I’m not the one wishing that.
  • I’m not even so overly smitten *swoon* over a certain mister mister, butterflies, giggles e.t.c. I mean, how now? LOL (that’s for another day, I know you’re thinking, suspense is good :-) continue thinking)

Ha ha so how did it go? I think I should do it more often. That being besides the point, cheers to new beginnings, as I swim in new waters, the unknown, yes, new in every essence of it. Quite a couple of new chapters in my life actually, this should get interesting. Just gotten off my comfort zone. And for every ending, there’s always a new beginning. This is mine, as I close this and open those *cheers*

Have a super week lovely readers, one full of positiveness and awesomeness. Be blessed!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Smile…Just Because It’s Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! It’s been a week full of ups and downs. That is, down, down, down then up, up, up, up. Now I’m still on the high. Sometimes all you need to do is just smile, also just because it’s Friday. Smiling has a thing linked to inner happiness *ask Kawi*.

Random Thoughts

I have learnt a couple of things this week, maybe I’ll just list three:

  • My parents, just seeing them and talking to them can bring me from *down here* to *up there*, they console me, they give me psyche, they are clowns by the way, too funny. And when they say listen to your parents, listen to them, chances are that they’ve been where you are.
  • Think positive, I always try to do that. Think happy thoughts, they make you feel better in most ‘not so interesting’ situations.
  • Life has an interesting twist…things just happens, negative and positive things. It’s you who chooses what you will call those happening’s and how you will look at them, they could be blessings, miracles, luck, bad luck, jinxes, heart breaks e.t.c. I choose to call them blessing tweaked with some luck. How you look at it affects your moods, your feelings, your views and so on.
  • Had to add this one, the illegal one. Love in general rocks, if you don’t have love, please look for it. I love love.

I’m Feeling


This Weekend

My cousin is graduating today and with a first class honors *whoop whoop*. He’s definitely following good footsteps :-) and I’m beyond happy. So there’s a lil’ something for him today.

I’m thinking movies at the cinema, assignments, and my baby sister is home for mid-term…yaaay! That girl makes me happy. There’s Dj Cleo … for those going, enjoy on my behalf  just in case I don’t go, fat chance is that I won’t.

I’m Craving

Some time out. A road trip … a fancy place just out town would really do me some good.

 

Songs of the Week

Oooh Robin Thicke, this man *cough cough*, let’s just start with the voice

Okay, can I add another one

I Want and Pray

I want to thank God for the little and the big blessings in my life, those that I see and those that I haven’t yet seen. I know, cliché prayer but I actually do mean it.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Monday Yellows *T.G.I.M*

Shift your perception of Monday mornings. Thank God It’s Monday, just like we do Fridays no? . As I have shamlessly stolen the excerpt from from some blog post. It passed the message to me, just what I needed to read and because I care for my readers much *this is the part where you smile sheepishly* I thought to share it with you so that you can also try look at Monday from a different angle. More from the yellow side, not the convectional blue. You get me yah!

“Look forward to the new week as an opportunity for growth, as a chance to add motivation to your purpose and invigorate your passion with a newfound vitality.  Tuesday, do the work.  Wednesday, make sure that your work is fresh and exciting.  Thursday,  you can help another person with something they are struggling with, something that you’re in a unique position to help them with.  Friday, look at what you’ve done, finish what needs to be finished, and TGIF, making sure that three days later, you don’t forget to TGIM.”~ Credits. You can read the rest there, and maybe try out the challenge as well.

How do you make today special?  How do you look forward to the present? (I’ll probably think about this and start out the challenge, it seems interesting. Gives you more reason why your days shouldn’t be as dull as today’s weather…meeeh! The sun needs to come out *brrrrr*)

Super week to y’all and blessings!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Get Your T.G.I.F On

Thank God It’s Friday! Today I don’t have a stories. I’m just happy that it’s Friiiidaaay and with many other things, but bottom line is that I’m just happy. Yeah, I’m going to be doing some of that now that it’s one of my besties Birthdays. She also does blog here. Happy Birthday Wanja Majid, Tin Man a.k.a Josh too … me love you long time.

Random Thoughts

I once did a post on my dad, well it wasn’t Fathers day, but now that it is, you can check it out here (it’s titled “Nostalgia Is“) for the message. But the bottom line is ↓

He is that guy for me, he protects, he provides, he loves, he cares but most of all he’s always there. I don’t think I could ask for more. I always thank God for my dad and my mum for taking care of him. I hope I get there some day as well, role models much.

I’m Feeling

This Weekend

Randomness, but there’s definitely going to be a date in the midst of that randomness. Actually, I already have one *in mind*, I’ll actualize it … get him to go for coffee with me :D

Birthday Parties, looks like I have quite a bunch of good friends born in June. Y’all are the best, God’s blessings June babies.

I’m Craving

Now we know, where my weekend ideas are coming from.

Songs of the Week

Who doesn’t like Florence +The Machine? *waits for answers*, if you say no, I think you’re weirrrd…hehe weird with a triple r.

I Want and Pray

To let go and let God, to do my best and let God do the rest. To always strive to be a better me and be a motivation to the people around me. To love without limits and fear.

Quote Of The Week

Happy Fathers day to all the daddies out there and those to be, may you be the best. Y’all are awesome man, if it wasn’t for you, we definitely would be here…right!

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Love Without Limits *Guest Post*

To see and hear other peoples views of the world and its happenings  is more than amazing, that’s one thing that always gets me. @Dyrants my very noisy desk-mate and friend decided to do a guest post here *yaaay*. No, I didn’t tell her what to write about, so this is all her…

“It’s the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It is the one who won’t be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.” ~ Bette Midler

There is no perfect way to live. There is no right way to live. Our parents/guardians teach us good values to guide us through life. Teachers give us knowledge and information to get us through life; kind of like equipping us with practical skills to help us survive. On the other hand the society at large has an idea of how you should live life; what you should do and what you shouldn’t do. ‘The society’ disguises itself as friends, relatives, colleagues and acquaintances that we come across in our day to day lives. They pass judgement and question our beliefs, ideologies, choices, options and even go as far as offering solutions to the problems that they have created. These are people you trust or relate with daily and slowly their ideologies replace yours, their choices soon become your choices and your beliefs fade away. We start to live someone else’s life. At the back of our minds however our ideologies never really die. They just coil due to the pressure from external forces. They try to speak up but fear of ridicule wins that fight and we find ourselves doing what is expected of us and not what our heart really desires. Some might call this reason; I choose to call it fear, cowardice.

I love this quote by Bette Midler because it encourages me to be who I am and not what I am expected to be. I love even when I know I’m loving the wrong person/thing or for the wrong reasons. I love because it’s what my heart wants; because in that moment and time it’s what makes the most sense. Some may call this a weakness but I love without judgement until given reason to. Everyone deserves a chance to be loved and love back. I am not afraid to love because I know that if my heart does break, I’ll still live to see another day. I’ll proudly walk away and say, at least I got the chance to meet person ‘X’ The scars on my heart can tell their own story of sleepless nights and the tears but they can also tell a victory story. Of lessons learnt.

Time heals all wounds they say. We just don’t realise how true this is until we’re faced with a situation that we thought we’d never recover from. Love. It’s the only chance you’ll ever get plus YOLO (shoot me) if your heart does break, fix it! Bandage it! Walk away with your head held up high, you loved, you learnt and I’m sure it was worth it while you were in it.

Author : @Dyrants

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Never Meant To Be

There’s something called ‘accepting and moving on swiftly’. Yes, sometimes you have to create motto’s for yourself to abide by or you’ll forever be caught in situations that leave your heart frustrated but in essence they are completely out of your control. There’s just nothing you can do, if it’s not meant to be, it’s just not meant to be. There’s no better way to sugar coat it.

Credits

Think of it like we are puppets and there’s the puppeteer. Up there the puppeteer manipulates the objects with the bars and strings. Then for this two objects (the puppets), there’s that one bar that totally keeps the them apart so no matter what they do to come together, the efforts are futile. Oh tell me you have not experienced this and you must either be a lucky one or there’s something wrong somewhere.

You know how you meet someone and you hit it off from the beginning. Much to talk about, much in common and all those mush things. I mean, you even end up really liking the person and get ideas. But there’s a problem, in as much all this looks and feels amazing there’s something missing. Well, I don’t know what because at that particular time, you’re thinking it’s something that could actually work out. At the same time, there’s that one thing or two that as small as they seem makes you think nah, let’s give it time and see.

As you give it time and try to work against those odds of being together, you just don’t seem to understand each other at a certain point. It just doesn’t work out because there’s always something going wrong, someone trying too hard, it could be from one side or from both. It’s like the puppeteer is trying to give you signs but you’re trying your best to ignore them. The more you try to be together, the more apart you get for some strange reason. Yes, it’s that bar not the place, but the object that’s keeping you apart. Maybe nothing about you is actually compatible like you thought. You’re just working with feelings and the bar is acting as the middle man trying to prevent you from getting yourself into trouble, from heart aches and other related issues.

I know right, that’s how it makes sense best. Sometimes you just need to obey nature. If it clearly shows you something won’t work and your gut feeling to some extent tells you the same, as difficult as it may seem, listen and obey. I mean even magnets don’t attract everything you know, if anything ” like poles repel and unlike poles attract each other”. Thank God for the options of friends, that’s one of the ways you get friend zoned. Plus I don’t think it’s malice or anything, friendship is a good thing and you know as a person, you can’t be emotionally attached to everyone, it’s only reserved for one person really. So as you can see, the friend zone is not such a bad zone after all. At least you’re indirectly or directly involved in someones life anyway.

The problem with people is when they take this the wrong way and you become enemies, which in my case doesn’t cut it, actually, I would find that lame. If your live by certain codes then ‘it’s never that serious’ does really make a lot of sense. If it’s not working out, just be a normal friends and lead a normal life…the phrase ‘it’s easier said than done’, doesn’t work here because it’s actually easier said and done as well. Did you know keeping enemies is a task all together? It’s actually much easier to keep a friend than to keep an enemy, because with enemies you have to pretend so much. No talking, no smiling, no jokes, no laughter, loads of tension…yikes too much! It’s never that serious.

Oi it’s mid week … a few days to Friday, keep strong! Have a productive week and strive to do something awesome, blessings!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Into the Unknown

“When you walk to the edge of all the light you have and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you must believe that one of two things will happen: There will be something solid for you to stand upon, or, you will be taught how to fly” ~ Patrick Overton

Dreams are known to be strange or rather mine sometimes turn out to be. Oh and that’s if I wake up and remember. Sometimes, I feel like I’m making up a bit of it so that I can coin how it’s going to be, this happens when I wake up and realize I was dreaming and I really don’t want to spoil the sequence. But as we know, once you’re up that’s it. It’s not like you can pause it then play when you get back your sleep. Another one starts up all together.

Like dreams, so is reality. We can be living a life that is going on fine, then it reaches a point we ‘re shaken up by a thing or two. This would be equivalent to waking up from a dream. You don’t want to face that which is shaking you up and even as you try to continue your life as it was whatever it is that’s come has to be faced. Life doesn’t pause and play for you. If anything it’s always on play. It’s not like a remote with the forward, rewind functionalities, you live it as it comes.

As your life is played out, you don’t know what’s ahead of you. It’s one day at a time. One day you’re at your comfort zone, the next day you’re forced to venture into the unknown. From the light and into the dark, at one point you could clearly see where you are headed because the path is lit for you, then at a certain place you cannot see what’s ahead, you could be walking into the edge of a cliff or headed to a beautiful place. Regardless of what is to come, trust yourself – your abilities, your decisions and allow yourself to take a risk and venture out, it could be the best thing that’s yet to happen to you.

What I’m trying to say, is that even with all the light or the comfort of being at a place you can relate with, you can never be to sure. The world is to dynamic for you to stay at the same place. You need to grow always, in the different aspects, you should allow yourself to go out to the unlit areas and find out of course don’t throw all caution out the window what that place has to offer. You could be the one to start lighting up the dark areas and create paths for others or creating comfort zones for others.

That’s probably the reason you are where you are today, because someone else took all the risk to create light were there was darkness, a path where there was none. It could be in anything, you coming into this world, let’s just start from there, must’ve been a risk taken by your parents … seeing as they didn’t know how some of you will turn out to be. But boy, didn’t we turn out good, okay, I’m talking about myself here. So, move forward and see what life’s got to offer in love, work, school, life in general. While at it, don’t forget to put God first, always puts things in perspective.

Venturing into the unknown, gives you some sense of satisfaction, belonging and achievement. Like you wanted and chased what no one else was or what someone else was chasing but got scared or gave up mid-way and turned back. It’s an accomplishment, one that you can proudly say you plunged yourself into, believed in and you’re now reaping the fruits. To those who’ve gotten there, big up. To those of us getting there, all the best, nothing comes so easy after all… No?

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Musings

Thank God It’s Friday! It’s been one of those weeks that I can’t even begin to describe. You know the kind that you’re like, “Oh my I just took another leap, that’s a big’ish one *cringe, excitos, in between*”. I know right now it hasn’t sunk in per se, that’s me for you. I take forever to absorb some things, especially things that would get a normal person (hmmm! Maybe I’m implying that I’m not normal) over the roof. You know how when you touch something hot you’re supposed to react automatically by quickly removing your hand and probably squeaking (that I do, my threshold for pain is small…lol) . With respect to that, if something beyond exciting happens to you, you’re supposed to be all over screaming and leaping with joy. Well, I’m the exact opposite in that case, I don’t know if it’s just for the fear of jinxing myself…lol, but in all I thank God. I am more than blessed!

Random Thoughts

Life’s little pleasures, never take them for granted. I’m not perfect at all, but it’s in our imperfection we find all the beauty. It’s in imperfection we find the humour that makes us afford a hearty laugh or broad smile. It’s in imperfection we find genuineness, belief and inspiration. It’s in imperfection we understand the abstract and appreciate. It’s in imperfection that we have the perfect moments, those that we wouldn’t exchange for anything, those that make you happy even if it’s just for a second.

I’m Feeling

Something like Fenamenal Woman :D Her video is finally out and she’s definitely done it good. “It’s in the way I talk, the way I walk, the way I do my thing…”

This Weekend

Hmmm! Relaxing, just relaxing. Now that school’s open (and it’s blocks, those short semesters), with work,  it’s going to be an involving one. Considering I have assignments on week 2.

I’m Craving

I wish I could get a crowd of friends doing board games or cards or TV games … just something interesting preferably in a warm place i.e. a house. That’s what’s on my mind.

Songs of the Week

Beautiful … just beautiful. Lady Antebellum just rocks \nn/

I Want and Pray

I want to thank God for the little and the big blessings in my life, those that I see and those that I haven’t yet seen. I pray for knowledge, wisdom and passion for whatever I put my hands on or get myself into.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*