Archive | September 2012

Cue’ing In Friday

Thank God It’s Friday! Yes, I learnt how to do something today, was feeling a bit creative. I think I’ve taken it overboard though, but hey! Hail those moments that you find out you can do something that you’ve been wondering how to go about. How Friday is the day that we all wait for eagerly, the extra sleep in’s, the random plans, the freedom e.t.c and every week you get there, we need to thank God for seeing us through the week. I bet that’s the essence of T.G.I.F, in case you were wondering.

Random Thoughts

I used to love taking and being taken photos and no, am no photographer. No Nikon and canon, am on the normal digi-cams bandwagon. But still, capturing moments was my thing. I don’t know where it went, to an extent I feel awkward unleashing my camera during events and  functions … that’s strange. I think I let people’s comments get to me, when they say, “chic you love photos” and instead of actually agreeing that I actually like them (which I undeniably do), I started getting embarrassed. Yeah, some shame shames on my part.

Now, I’m slowly getting back to it, back to my ‘capturing moments’ despite of anyones comments. Yes I’ll take the photos of my food, if I think it’s worth my flash and my documented memory without flinching. Can I hear an Amen!

I’m Feeling

This Weekend

I’m also wondering…

I’m Craving

I am so full right now, am not craving anything per se. However, I really wanted one or two nice jackets. I hear El-nino is coming up, that gives me every possible excuse to indulge and maybe throw in a pair of some hot leather boots.

Songs of the Week

This one is just it! Loreen – Euphoria . You know it’s kind, makes you want to get on top of your desk, lift your hands and do some star jumps what were you thinking?…lol Lovely lovely, you’ve got to listen to it.

I Want and Pray

I want to discover, embrace, know, understand, give, make lots of efforts and get lots and lots of satisfaction. I’m saying my little prayers for you, you and you so that you can get that which you seek.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*.

Say It, Don’t Jinx It!

Call me superstitious or NOT, because am not (I don’t fear black cats *cheeky grin* okay yikes! Just lied, they creep the hell-out-of me) but I have always had this thing with jinxing exciting moments. Like say you are in an extremely happy mood just because maybe someone is making you happy or you’re expecting something to come through and it’s not been confirmed or you’re eagerly waiting for an event that’s yet to come but you want to keep those exciting things at hush hush, so that you don’t jinx it.

Jinxing it in this case, is the exact opposite of what you’re experiencing or expecting happening. Like you becoming sad for whatever reason, or the thing you’re expecting gets turned down or the event is just a miss. Basically, a spoiler to the good things. So I got to thinking about it at some point, very critically I must say *cough*, in the hope that it sounds scholarly, why would I think that saying what am feeling or expecting be a jinx. If anything, what you confess with your mouth somehow becomes because your heart listens and your mind acts upon it. So if you avoid saying the nice things you are feeling, expecting and desiring, then your heart and mind listen and act upon your thoughts and that’s how you give room for the worst.

There’s was this evening I was beyond happy, you know the kind where everything is  extremely funny with the full laughing to rib aches and tears at every word uttered. Then I don’t know how this happened, but in my mind I was questioning it and was like, “am too happy, I just hope the next level is still happy.” I was even going to mention it, I think on twitter (I mean that’s where it feels like you’re shouting at the rooftop when you’re in the comfort of your couch), but I was like nooo, I’ll jinx it. To my surprise, in not so long, something just dampened my moods, must’ve been a disagreement or something. But I hadn’t even said it *sob* I just thought it. Well a thought is also a confession, apparently. Now I figure.

You jinx it when you don’t say it! You thinking that something will turn out the worst should you say it is being pessimist O_O. No, I didn’t read this anywhere, it’s just a thought process. So to be positive and bring forth positive outcomes during moments and situations:

Say It, Don’t Jinx It!

In short, what am trying to say is don’t question your happiness, you deserve every bit of it. Even when it’s challenged or taken away, always try to get it back for its yours to have, own and flaunt! Have a Terrific Tuesday and be more than blessed *wink*. It’s CAT week, let me dash off to read, wish me luck now. Okay bye, for now!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Nonconforming and All

Thank God It’s Friday! It always feels good on Fridays, regardless! Today I don’t feel like conforming. I’m just feeling like a free spirit, if you know what I mean, hence the name. Just to live by it, let’s do things a bit differently. A little sneak peek into my week and what has been going through my head.

  • Your heart does not only pump blood, it also apparently pumps feelings. So when someone asks you, “Now you’ve caught feelings?” don’t be ashamed to say yes, it’s a function of your heart…lol. If your heart is at ease, then all’s well with you and the world. If it’s not, you’ll be frustrated by just about anything and everything.
  • Going to church gives me a sense of relief and goodness. It just feels nice, even though I don’t always reach there on time, meeh! Just hearing a little about the word of God and praying in those grounds is fulfilling.
  • A bit of getting used to and you get your way around it, whatever it is. Complaining is good (am good at it, but I get over it), it makes you vent out the frustrations and so on . Your body is like a pressure cooker, it gets heated up and if you don’t provide a nozzle for some pressure to be let out and you let it all stay in…you could blow up in a not so nice way.
  • Relationships take effort, commitment, trust and lots, lots of love and care. It’s a like having your car on the road, you drive it based on the type road you’re in. You cruise when on the highway because it’s all smooth, you can even sing along, laugh to tears and rib aches. But that doesn’t mean when you make a turn and end up in a rough road you leave the car and find an alternative means. You drive slowly, making sure your car doesn’t get damaged, avoiding pot holes, protruding stones until you get back to a good road. All the while still taking care of your car.
  • Dudes and babes have completely different minds. How they think, process things, different.  So share your thoughts at some point, make ‘whoever’ understand your point of view. Otherwise everything won’t make sense or you’ll develop an unnecessary problems.
  • I am a corn flakes girl. Not weetabix as I had earlier thought. No wonder I was never so enthusiastic with cereals and I had weetabix stashed on my shelf always. Until I got me ‘Kellogs corn flakes’…haha did that just sound like and ad. They should pay me.
  • Listening to radio is nice, but the only problem is that I can’t forward a song I don’t like or I have to go through some hideous ads. While I could be listening to some nice song. However, I’m a huge fan of Cess on the Jam (Capital Fm). She’s a rib cracker, whatever she smokes before the show…lol. I like!
  • That moment when you’re with your family or friends and you’re talking, laughing and doing happy things. Ever notice it affects the balance of the world joke, everything seems okay, even when it’s storming out there.
  • Why is it that time flies, when you are having the best time and slows down when you’re at logger heads with people, things? I have always wondered. If only time could talk.
  • Why is it that birthday cakes taste so yummy? Invite me for your birthday shindig and be sure that I’ll eat the cake, lots of cake.
  • I don’t feel like doing the ordinary, is it me or there are too many events scheduled for this weekend? Well, as of now, am not feeling any of those public events. Maybe we should also organize an “event” for ourselves *wink*

In other very related news, today ROCKS! You woke up, you’re busy doing your thing, you’re healthy, you’ve got love from here and there, you have every reason to say a thank you! Share the happiness with those around you. Sooooo, to an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

In My Defence

Defense or Defence … Defensive or Defencive? To be American or British in spelling? Maybe we should just Africanise to eliminate this unnecessary tough decisions…lol

There are those times when you feel the need to protect yourself from other people’s thoughts? When you say something and someone gets it all wrong or they something about you and you feel, “No! I am like that because of this?”.

I have this trait called “in my defence”, where I want to display my case and explain it a bit further, just to make things a bit clear, be judged a bit less or worse, try to seem perfect. So that we can at least be on the same wavelength, catch the same frequency and all that comes with it. However, that’s not how it is in the real world, that happens in my head. It plays out pretty well so to say.

In my quest to making you understand what I am trying to say, instead of making things better. You guessed that right, I make things wrong. I dissect my thoughts and bring out aspects that the other party hadn’t even thought of and it just gets worse with every explanation. As innocently as it came out, guilt engulfs it and it gets twisted all over again. Which now makes me wonder, “in my defence” is not working as intended or not defending me as I thought.

Holding onto that wonder, it comes to my attention that one can never be perfect, in as much as you try to be. You’ll always look imperfect in the eyes of other people and almost always to your yourself … except of course when you beat your expectations, for a moment there your feel like a ninja. This is whether you like it or not, so best get used to it soon enough. To you, everything could be alright but to others you’re doing it all wrong. Basically, your goodness to someone or anyone is very subjective, you can only do so much. The rest is dependent on what they think or perceive of you or even the mood they are in.

Do things to the best of your ability, put your mind and heart into it, past that, there’s nothing more you can do to get through to someone. Just let it it be and let them react as is. If they are happy with you, awesome. If not, at least you did your best. Ain’t it?

Now that I have reached my brink with this trait, this is me wanting to drop that defensive habit. To see if the earth will continue rotating if I do. Let’s make it achievable and say at least for two weeks, I should make it my objective. I say what I mean and let the recipient think on their own. If they think what I don’t mean, too bad; if they relate to what I am saying, even better.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

The Friday Awesomeness

Thank God It’s Friday! You know one of those weeks where you have some internal pressures but you can’t even begin to describe them even to yourself. Yaaay! Got a supervisor and a topic for my Thesis, now to start getting my hand dirty…already cringing at the thought.

Just so that you know, so many people from the different areas in your life have so many expectations from you, whether you like it or not. How to meet all their expectations and still be sane? Learn to organize yourself, it can get cray, if you know what I mean. But the bottom line is, always keep your awesomeness and share it with those around you!

Random Thoughts

Just got myself wondering at some point, “Should I be silent so that people can be surprised that I actually talk I’m a chatter box or should I talk so that people can be surprised that I have my silent moments?”

This came about when I was told am being too quiet / zoned out. However, for me there was nothing wrong, I was just being quiet/zoned out just because that’s how my body was feeling. I was enjoying it, then there times I go HAM on conversations, then there are times I just feel like laying it all back so that I can accumulate content to talk when I start it off again joke. Just saying, human beings are unpredictable, we all have our unspoken moments, those that we don’t even know about until someone else observes and points it out to you.

I’m Feeling

This Weekend

Fun things for sure, but let the weekend surprise me this time round.

I’m Craving

Delish dinner for two perhaps *wink* that’s me hinting at the mister, hope the hint arrives safely. And drinks with friends, where my friends at?

Songs of the Week

Dj Miss Ray Madness Snippets – Some awesome mix, I totally like! See, getting accustomed to the NO YouTube vibes with some cool Dj mixes!

I Want and Pray

I think our country (Kenya) is in a crisis but it seems like no one is really concerned. Or they are and are not saying anything, or they are doing something in the background and it’s yet to reflect on the interface (too many or’s…I just don’t know. What are they doing?). Well, I want the best for our country and I pray for our leaders to be good leaders that put their followers or the people they lead first.

Quote Of The Week

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*.

Special’ove’ize

Of late, for some not so strange reason I’ve been trying to figure out what I my specialty is or what is it I love … on my blog that is. I basically write anything and everything that comes on mind. So when someone asks me what my blog is about, I say just that “anything and everything”. I mean it’s not solely about fashion, travels, poetry, food, photography, name it, because I’m pretty sure in the many posts I have, there’s something on each *facepalm*

Then it all takes me back to when I had just finished high-school and it was time to go to campus. How many (feel like saying *by a show of hands* I wish this was a talk of sorts) knew what they wanted to do right after their O-Levels? Personally I didn’t. I was made to go to Strathmore University to do a Diploma in Business Information Technology (DBIT) because my dad didn’t want me hanging around the hood (this was revealed to me later on in life). Then after finishing that one, I still didn’t know what I wanted to do and there was an opportunity of continuation. Such that my DBIT was to act as my 1st year in Bachelor in Business Information Technology (BBIT).

I thought that was pretty cool, that’s minus one year, so I’ll have 3 years of Grad school. As you can see, without much struggle and thought I just got into the Business and IT world. Then I worked hard at it and bore my fruits at the end of it. I then started working and while at it, I was still trying to discover what I want to specialize in. What is it I enjoy doing? This because I came to realize that business and IT is so broad. Slowly while working in my first job, I discovered what I don’t like and what I don’t want to be. Then I was lucky enough to move from my first job and into a second one, where I discovered what I love and what I want to be. Hence, my third and my future ones. Now, I can specialize, I can distinguish between what I don’t like and what I love. That’s what I am up to.

Better, how you generalize all your boys who are friends, they are all the same at the same level. Then comes a time you lay your eyes on this one guy that sweeps you off your feet *swoon* and you special’ove’ize on him, because you want to be in with him for the long haul. So with my blog, I’m still at the general stage, where I am trying almost everything out. So far, I see myself getting inclined to “Life Lessons”, I love writing out my stories in parables and in a way anyone can relate and learn from them. I just need to figure an interesting way to bring it out, so that I can make you enjoy them as well. You know how we say “customer is king”, y’all super readers are my customers.

“For the love of what you do, what you want to be, where you want to be or who you want to be with, your world somehow comes together at some point to help you specialize in it, that’s what I call special’ove’izing.” ~ Kawi

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

A Lil’ Random

Well, totally depsyched to do the TGIF thingie today. Youtube was blocked…oh and facebook…and anything else that’s under the ‘dating and matrimony’ or ‘entertainment’ *laugh at me now*. Why do they do that, I just listen to music, not watch the videos and I try not to misuse facebook and I bet am a nice employee by all means *sob sob*. Anyhow, now am stuck to songs on my iPod, getting in touch with my kind once again. There must be a reason I (or my baby sister) populated the library, thank God, so am just getting accustomed to it.

In the same spirit, I’ll do things differently. Like an ‘I wish upon a little star’ kind of thing. Remember the Disney song,

“…When you wish upon a star /Makes no difference who you are / Anything your heart desires / Will come to you / If your heart is in your dream / No request is too extreme / When you wish upon a star /As dreamers do / Fate is kind / She brings to those who love / The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing / Like a bolt out of the blue / Fate steps in and sees you through / When you wish upon a star / Your dreams come true…”

When it rains and you don’t want the rain to reach to you, when you wish there were umbrella’s covering all your paths or you were just in the mood to dance in the rain and have no care if you got wet, cold or caught a flu. That’s me speaking in parables right there, but you can just take the surface meaning, I mean that too.

Some random thoughts, wishes, tell-a-tale … just something writable.

Getting to understand someone else who is not you and you want a life together, making some decision together, considering them in whatever you do and so on, is the most ‘roller-coaster-y’ ride ever. Let’s just say there’s times you’re on a high and there’s times you’re on a low and there’s times you’re just easy like on normal level. You have to contain all those moments and at the end of the day be happy with the world. That my dear friends, is what a relationship is, and this is just theory…lol. You just need two people who always want to work it out, that’s what it is.

On that note my parents celebrated their 28th wedding anniversary on 1st September *whoop whoop*. They are my living proof that two people who are completely different can be there for each other and with each other for that long. Through basically everything.

We all have weaknesses no?I bet it’s something we can’t avoid. It’s something that other people won’t like in us or something even we don’t like in ourselves. What if we worked on those weaknesses and either turned them into strengths or found a way in which they can work to our advantage.

I saw some really HOT bag sometime ago and I’ve been really thinking about it you know at the back of my head, then I was like, I’ll just give it time and when I go check again and it’s still there, then it’s really meant to be mine. Today over lunch, I went to check it out as a by the way just to show my friend and guess what? It was still there. The universe is speaking to me, plus the price was lesser and am planning to bargain for lesser than lesser…hehe

I am starting my thesis this semester *cringe* am at that point where you come up with your topic and select a supervisor. So by the end of this semester I need to have a proposal and defend it *cringe again*. I hope and wish that it’ll be a swish for me and I’ll make a killer proposal and that I finish the whole thing in due time.

I wish we were we given the freedom to come up with our own language or lingo, because I pretty much make up my own weird words. It makes whatever am saying sound more interesting. It’s like adding sugar and spice to the words that flow out of my mind and through my mouth and fingers…am that culprit and am less guilty.

Word are just that, words. Actions are what determine if the words have meaning. Although words also make or break, so just be ware of what you say, to whom you say it to and when you say it. Like they say, there’s a time for everything. I’m learning to hold my tongue in cheek when I am about to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I’m one of those people who just says because it needs to be said without much care I must have gotten that from my dad…lol.

Sometime I feel like am the worst friend, am I the only one who’s bad in keeping in touch? Someone please console me. I do try though. It doesn’t help that also communicating with people is not my forte. Ps: that when I am physically there with people am like AWESOME ha ha but emails, chats, texts someone shoot me or maybe just call me. I need to style up and be all rounded, right? Anyway, I’m working on that.

Thanking God for who I am and all I’ve got. There are some people who pray for just a portion of what you have and you just don’t know, so don’t take anything for granted.

“’Thank you’ is the best prayer that anyone could say. I say that one a lot. Thank you expresses extreme gratitude, humility, understanding” ~ Alice Walker

Enough of exposing myself. It’s a super day, so Thank God It’s Friday. Despite no Youtube, the song of the day courtesy of the iPod is :  Nick Lachley – What’s Left of Me, I love! Ps: I hope the link I’ve put is the right one, I just googled it.

Quote of the day

And as usual, have an awesome one full of living, loving and laughing. No sad faces, okay, just gotten instant psyche, coffee has nothing on it. Be blessed!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*