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Reflecting 2012, Welcoming 2013

Do you ever look back and think, “what great things have really happened in my life this year?”, like you’re expecting massive changes, and I mean massive. Then again you wonder what massive is? It’s meaning in your life because at one particular point it could be the greatest or best thing to happen to you then after a while it fades off and you tend to forget the impact it had on you at that moment.

That’s where you underestimate yourself, it’s as if nothing really happened to you throughout the year. I was reflecting about that because at some point I was somehow forgetting what this year has actually brought me. Then I had the bulb light moment, of “Jeez, how ungrateful can one get.”

Count your many blessings, name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.~ Nurser Ryhme.

It may be just a nursery rhyme. One that we sang to pass time or make merry with our playmates but in essence it’s our guide to living a more content life. So in my reflection of what went on in 2012, I thought I could say 12 essential things that I realized have made me who I am today. 2012 made me realize;

  1. My family always want the best for me. Even when am independent, being mature and responsible, they want to be part and parcel of my life. That I need to involve them because whether you’re young or old, I remain their daughter and sibling. For me they are selfless. (Funny how my dad still gives me pocket-money when I visit home or how my mother packs for me all the frozen foods and veggies or my baby sister keeps me posted on latest music or makes demands just because. They don’t care whether I have or don’t, they’re always there regardless.)
  2. My birthday is what I make it. This year’s wasn’t mind-blowing, but neither was it boring. I ordered for myself cake just in case people forgot to get me some…lol. I was at that point in my life, where I was almost ‘alone’. Luckily, I ended up having 4 cakes, because other people thought of me. I don’t take that for granted, you’re awesome.
  3. Schooling never ends. I am still at it but can’t wait for the day I’ll be reading just for fun, then again will that happen unless am reading some intriguing novels or fancy magazines.
  4. That I need to be in charge of myself. There comes a time you draw the lines, make tough decisions. Character and personality are what define you and when you see them getting compromised, do something. Be in charge.
  5. You need to let go, to get better. There’s no other way to go about it. You want to get better, let go of what is holding you back or what was. Look forward to what is and what will be.
  6. Not everyone you know or relate to has to be your friend. If they don’t like you, disrespect you, gossip, it’s okay, don’t take it personally. Sometimes, a stranger can be more of a friend than the person you have grown to know. Such is life.
  7. That the people who are your friends and want the best for you are few. Know them, be there for them and while at it, let them surprise you. Don’t expect too much because they also have their battles to fight.
  8. God always has my back and I attribute everything to him. I believe that without God, you’re basically nothing.
  9. That you get what you ask for. Your mind, body and soul are somehow aligned to what you’re searching for – You find what you seek. Maybe that’s the influence of the Alchemist, but I definitely have experienced it. In more ways than one.
  10. Positivity, genuineness and gratitude is what connects you to others. That’s what humanity actually needs from you.
  11. Love is life. “I believe that when you find love, you hold onto it and cherish it because there is nothing finer and it may never come again.” ~ Mr.Feeny. That’s what I am doing. He got me and I got him.
  12. That I have grown. I am able to embrace change without so much fear and worry unlike before.

It was a good year, I have no complaints. Loved the amazing opportunities it brought me, the challenges, the newness and revelations it carried. The mantra I unknowingly lived by this year, “It’s better to know, ignorance is not bliss”. Looks like Maya Angelou figured it out because she says “when you know better, you do better.”

I don’t know what 2013 holds for me, us … but it definitely feels like it’s going to be a S to the U, to the P.E.R YEAR. I just feel like the growth experienced in 2012, when brought forward will be a great foundation to start the year. Plus, I know God has so much in store for me. There’s lots yet to be done and those things are not going to do themselves. So, “Let’s Go!”

Anyone setting new year resolutions for 2012? How did the ones for 2012 go? If you did not set any like me, what were your 2012 reflections?

Get your jig on this New Year! It only comes once, so welcome it in style. Ps: Only 1 day to go. What will you be up to?

Pretty Little Liars, Aria Montgomery

Or maybe the Ke$ha way, looks more epic. And don’t we want it that way, whatever will make you get your jig one. Be on it.

Kesha

And don’t miss that kiss when the clock strikes midnight. Keep yours close-by.

New Year Kiss

Otherwise, seeing as am Kenyan and that’s the way we start our sentences, using conjunctions. Grammar is fun when it’s less serious (just reminded me of the Fanta Ad. More Fanta, Less Serious … very unrelated.) For all my super readers, you know I got nothing but love for you! Thanks for visiting all year round, it’s been great having posts for you to read. Now let’s pray that next year, my content will be bountiful and exciting.

New Year, Happy, 2012

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

All I Want for Christmas…

Haven’t things changed? It’s not the same anymore. Either that, or am at a point where it’s not all holiday, jingles, decorations, gifts and christmas’y things at least for now, okay maybe it’s because it’s 21/12/2012 (which was supposed to be the end of the world according to the Mayans. Or we interpreted them wrongly, maybe what they meant was that they run out of paper to make calendars…lol). I’ll be working through the festive season, of course except for the public holiday. All the same, this is culture shock for me.

I miss the sleeping in’s, eating breakfast at lunch and lunch at 4, sleeping late, watching christmas’y movies and cartoons (kind of brings to life the Christmas spirit), not decorating and shopping around for stuff. Somehow at this time you could get away with putting anything in the shopping cart and dad wouldn’t go like “and what do you need that for?” or “is that really necessary”… gone are the days, now am all grown up. There are chances I could re-live that if we do shopping on Christmas Eve since I’ll be at home *whoop whoop*. That was the life of the festive season, now it’s like nothing is really happeeeening *cue dragged voice*. It’s just the usual.

Christmas, Merry, Wishes

If I had my way this Christmas, this is what I would ask for or get. Of course some I will get, some will remain a wish for now, others I’ll save for and try buy next year after saving a bit more for thee cause. Others, oh well, I’ll continue wishing and working harder to get.

Samsung Galaxy S3 or even a Samsung Galaxy S3 Mini. I’ve had my current E63 for the last many years, to an extent my baby sister is actually complaining. Oh my! I need a change of gadget, and this is the one am ogling for at the moment. If only…

Samsung-Galaxy-S3-versus-Samsung-Galxy-S3-mini

Inky pinky ponky … biggy or mini mmmmh!

Some nice woolen coats since our weather is proving to be quite shifty. I figured my wardrobe is more inclined to summer and spring. Oh wait, do we even have these seasons in the tropics? I meant to say the hot weather. While every morning it’s freezing, not anything close to winter but cold all the same. So, a few of these would do me good and help keep the doctor away. Seeing as my sinuses go bonkers every morning, it could be because I don’t know how to dress the cold weather.

Jackets

 

Miss sleeping beauty could do with an annoying alarm clock. I don’t know why I’ve never gotten one all this years and the way I go on and on about sleep and snoozing. I’ve always used my phone because of how simple it is to snooze, I don’t even have to open my eyes. Just remove the annoying buzzy thing (that’s when your cell phone is demoted to just a thing) from under the pillow, press snooze or stop, and continue with the not so beautiful sleep now. Now that I want to get another cell, it can’t afford to be under the pillow…lol wishes are made of this. But the bed side clock, maybe it will actually make me wake up…I think.

Who has a bed side alarm clock? Is it any different?

alarm, clock, wake up, sleep

A stereo / music system/ home theatre. I don’t know what to call it, but it’s of late that I have been talking about it. Been comfortable with a T.V and DVD player but now I’m thinking, I would want me one.

music, stereo, samsung, sony, home theatre

Although now that I started with “samsung”, I should remain loyal to the brand…lol

I would actually want a much bigger house. Been thinking about it the last couple of months. I think it’s gotten to that time now where I need to have an extra room for when family and friends come over to visit. Or where I can actually call a couple of friends over for dinner, without wondering where the 5th person will seat or if one of them has claustrophobia, you know people and their issues *I’m thoughtful of you* so a really spacious house will do right. Plus, I want a big kitchen to exercise my culinary ummmm, okay not me, the boyfriend, he cooks way better than I do. So the more space, the less I interfere, like when I see him pouring the spice on the food and am like O_O isn’t that too much, then it turns our just perfect … smh!

Those are just a few of the things on my wish list, I could go on and on and on, but you get the drift. However, Christmas is not all about material things, it’s about spending time with your loved ones and appreciating those precious moments. Of course it’s also a little about gifting them and seeing the smile on their faces, oh I live for such! Since am a last-minute person, am still trying to figure out what to get who.

Do you believe in giving or gifting during Christmas?

Christmas, Festive, Gifts

Make a difference, make someone smile this Christmas. After all, that’s what festive seasons are about right? Keep safe and look out for each other. God bless y’all abundantly!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Bin It or Keep It?

Is the question! Holding some sort of “value” towards things? Not because your mother gave it to you, neither was the first gift from the boyfriend or your baby sister or friend hand-made it for you for your birthday. I’m talking of some random item that you prefer to keep just because you don’t want to let go of it. You keep imagining that it will be of use some time later or you could just keep them just because. Sometimes it actually make sense why you would want to keep something, other times it just doesn’t, like when you’re the only one who sees the importance of that thing you are holding on so much on to.

  • Like you buy new bed sheets and instead of getting rid of the old ones that are not of much use, you still keep them because they will could be of use later. Of course they are not useless, they will come to be of use some time in future as you say. Maybe when all your sheets are wet or you have many visitors and they all need extra bedding.
  • You could also have shoes that are worn out or you’ve outgrown. However, you decide to keep them for your own reason because they are of no much use since you can’t wear them. It just feels good seeing them stacked on your shoe rack, while they could be looking better on someone else’s feet or in the bin.

Well in both cases, you’ve found an excuse to keep the item. Keeping the old bed sheets makes so much sense if you put it that way, but why don’t you think that you’ll buy other bed sheets should a point come where you need extras? Limiting yourself and your abilities in future maybe? They are easily replaceable, why insist on keeping the old ones? The shoes, that doesn’t make sense at all, once they’re worn out or you’ve outgrown them, that’s it for them. Keeping them in the rack doesn’t repair them or make them expand in size.

Clutter

That my dear friends, is how we pile up our clutter. That’s how I pile up my clutter. By getting new things and still insisting on keeping the old ones. When I saw that, I was like maybe I’ll be holding something and going through those questions and majority wins. I should have an answer column with the options of “bin it” or “keep it”.

I know the old has been nice and served you well (or not), but you can’t keep holding on to it because it’s reached its expiry point in your life. You have to work into making your present and future beautiful and uncluttered by things from your past. In case you were looking for ways to make your house a bit neater, this could be the secret they’ve all been keeping from you.

Clutter

Well, that’s more or less the only way to go about it. The less clutter, the more beautiful and less complicated it is. So, if you’re like me, LET’S DO THIS. Ps: I’m already on it *wink*. Happy Holidays! For those working like me again, have a breezy week.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Hold It Down

Disclaimer: This will be one of the most nonsensical posts you’ll ever read. If you don’t relate with it, I told you so *cheeky grin*. Thank.God.Its.Friday though!

There are many times we question things, right? I bet am not alone in this *hoping for some consoling responses*. Not necessarily because something is going wrong or maybe something is actually wrong, but just because you’re wondering how and why it is the way it is at that moment. Why am I feeling? What am I doing? Is it the right thing, in the right place, for the right reasons? What could I have preferred to do or feel instead?

Like you could be extremely happy and for a moment there you wonder, yikes! Is it possible that I am this happy? You could be sad and you’re like, “I wish someone could just give me a hug and tell me it’s going to be okay”, haha of course no one does at that moment, so you hug yourself get over it. You could be writing and you wonder why you even write in the first place, does it even make sense really? You could be chatting with people and wondering how alone you are. All this, just for a moment. Then you’re back at it *whatever it was you were feeling or doing* with no questions. It’s at this point you even feel like laughing at your questions or at your situation.

It’s a moment where you kind of lose meaning of your current feelings, actions. And at that moment, you’ve got to hold it down. Hold it down for yourself and for the people around you because it’s a moment of questioning that’ll disappear before you know it. Should you not hold it down, you could do or say something you can never take back just because of a moment of self-weakness.

I was just wondering why in heaven’s name I blog? Stupid question right, figured the same. So I held it down, got over it and now blogging it. Leading by example…maybe!

In other related news, a tid bit on me, could be stupendous. Sometimes I breathe out so much energy, I bet you can attest to that, am the full energizer bunny with stories from here to *God knows where*. Then sometimes I can actually be the zoned out loner, you know that girl who sits at the corner and watches what’s going on and hopes that someone would breath energy into her, because maybe she’s run out of it. That’s actually the source of my weird moments of questioning.

Kelly Clarkson always does it right with her music, at least for me.

*whoop whoop* I’m that girl who just registered as a voter, not as useless politically any more huh! Now those politicians need to give me reasons to vote them in or out.

voter, vote, elections, Kenya, Politics

Have you registered as a voter?

Have a super awesome weekend and as usual to a lil’ more living, loving and laughing!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Fives

Thank God It’s Friday … more sore because I am in solidarity with the rest of you who are toiling. However, I can’t quite tell what day of the week it is, because am on leave. Okay enough, don’t envy me much because I have exams. Can’t wait to be done with school though, it’s on top my New Year wishlist (Ps: it’s 24 days remaining). It’s not fun going to class every evening and thinking of school books, assignments and projects every other time. On that note, congratulations to those graduating today.

TGIF

1. Oopsies!

It’s Christmas time already! Hello, December. Like seriously, it’s unbelievable how time flies. I’m on my second-last semester in school. This is such a blessing.

I’m not one to count days and months but hey  I’ve been dating for a while now *whoop whoop*. Let’s say good relationships are not formed in a day and am lucky to be with someone who really wants to be with me come rain or sunshine and vice versa. To love *cheers*.

My sister finally finished school (O’ Levels), jeez! And with all these school stuff going on, haven’t quite gotten a chance to hang out with her. Congratulations Cla, that’s just the 1st step into independence. You’re still under daddy’s wings and nest…lol. There’s no escaping. I still am.

Our company (Mo DE – Mobile Decisioning) won the inaugural African leg of the IBM Smartcamp contest. How cool is that? Thanks for voting!

Thankful

2. Weekly Crackers

Is it just me or is the air in the Urban bites package more than the crisps themselves? Remember Krackles as well, same thing. What would happen if they filled up the air bit with crisps? But couldn’t resist getting me some, goes so well with ribena.

Urban Bites and Ribena

3. Faves and Craves

I am at that point in life where I feel like I need some restructuring of sorts. Like I need to re-furnish my house or even get a bigger house. Oh gosh! So I’ve been having this thoughts that I can’t quite put to paper. Looks like I’ll start that change from my couch, slowly by slowly and see how that goes. I really wish we had an IKEA furniture store in Kenya though or does someone know a good carpenter? Maybe we can work something out. I just see their stuff and ogle.

4. Stupendous Snippet

Most of the things that happen in our life are seasonal, especially the ones that we find difficult to deal with. The ones that make you wonder why you have been put in that situation at that time. And in most cases, it gets you to learn something, appreciate something or best yet, know that in life there has to be things that shake you up a bit, more like testing you or give you a challenge. Else, we become complacent.

Truth be told, I hate tough times, but considering that’s how life is, we should always brace ourselves. Also knowing that if we work at it, it always comes to pass and leaves us beaming and glad that we’re over it. No one has it smooth all the way (reminds me of that Embassy advert way back … lol), even the ones that we think have it all sorted out.

5. T.G.I.F Inspiration

True ain’t it? Considering that no one’s perfect, and no one has it all put together. It’s amazing when someone knows you, your flaws and still thinks the world of you. It gives you the morale to even better yourself.

Relationships

Let me cut myself short now before I bore you… hehe, hope you didn’t agree to that *I see you*. To living, laughing and loving more each day. Have a super weekend.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*