Questions In My Head

“What if…?” a ridiculously rhetorical question I must say. Because in my opinion, it doesn’t have a valid answer. Unless of course you try out the thing in question then find out the actual outcome.

I can’t even deny this, I’m one hell-of-a culprit for asking this rhetorical question. And you wouldn’t believe, but this question comes mostly when you have great and amazing things laid on your table and it just looks unbelievable, like “How can this be happening to me, it’s too good to be true“. You ask it to question the occurrence in your life because you feel like you don’t deserve something that good. Or even if you deserve something that good, you don’t believe that it could actually happen to you. Don’t you go something like, “What’s the catch?“

We see the world full of bad people, it’s the picture that’s been painted by us and the one we display every other day. It’s what we always expect any time someone utters anything to you or better yet does something for you. Such that when you meet people who are genuine, open, honest, caring and what not it’s really difficult for you to see that. You’re probably thinking, there’s got to be more to it than this.

We are used to people who are shifty, liars, betrayers, con people, envious people,*add other bad people traits*. Well those are just a few in your life, it doesn’t mean everyone is like that. It could even be one, two or three people who you’ve met that exude such character. The next thing we do as humans, is generalize. This completely taints how we see the others who come into our life’s under different capacities. “What if…” comes by when someone is good to us, but the first thing that crosses your mind is doubt and suspicion. Because with this person, you’re venturing into the unknown, after all you can only know someone too well, even a place. Sometimes you just have to experience it yourself so that you can know what the person or place is about. You put yourself out there and don’t be afraid to fail or be heart-broken because that’s what brings the “what if…”. Fear is the beginning of all the what if’s. No one wants anything to go wrong, but how else will you know it’s the right thing if you don’t try.

Believe in yourself , believe in them, believe in the place. That’s the only way to counter the “what if…” questions in your head.

So if something good comes your way, it’s good to look at it critically but don’t let “what if…” be the ones to guide your decisions, you could try your guts if you really want something to question. Because that’s what could deter you from achieving what it is that you set out to achieve in the first place. So just believe, turn that fear into something more positive and tangible like curiosity. You’ll come to realize how lucky you are and be content without too many questions in your head. I am

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Closing This, Opening Those

Oh well, something to make my Monday a little more interesting. Yes, as you know it’s in my nature to make Monday yellow yellow and kill all the blues that present themselves today. I mean, I need to write a post to mark some days like today and how I’m taking a big step.

You’ve probably seen me saying it feels like closing day. Yes, it really does feel like it. Only thing missing is a pack of cards, some snacks and you know how it was when it was closing day back in primary and high school. The excitements and all thinking I have never gone through this before and I don’t know what I am supposed to expect. Good thing is that there’s always a first time for everything. This is my very first to serve a full notice to the end and for a job I loved to bits. It’s quite the experience I must say. Ups and downs, but most of all regardless of the that, it’s been a good experience. One that I’ll look back and I’ll be able to give someone a piece of advice.

So, it’s my last day being online content editor for rupu, yup! Been here for almost 2 years now (1 year 8 months to be exact) and lets say they are the ones who have molded me to be who I am today. It’s an amazing thing to see a platform be given birth to, take care of  it as it grows up, and while at it be at the top of the game. If that’s how nannys feel when they see us (the kids they took care of) all grown up after wiping off poop, bathing us, feeding us, teaching us and what not … then it’s such a fulfilling feeling.

So the final one month wasn’t exactly the easiest of my months. Oh my! I’ve experienced many moments, from the beginning where I actually handed in my resignation letter to the last day. Could that be the reason it’s standard that you have to give at least one month notice. It’s a reality check month, it’s a roller coaster of your feelings. At one point you’re here *points top* then next thing you know you’re there *points bottom* and it’s a cycle. You actually get to learn people, your colleagues through the good and the bad, this one is the bad, because you’re actually leaving them, more like dumping your spouse. Resigning from an organisation is not the easiest thing one could do. It bites, it makes you wonder what the others are saying, if they are happy for you, if you’re doing the right thing, if you’re headed in the right direction and other related thoughts.

However, this is in my own honest opinion. If I have a person who’s resigning in my department/organisation and moving to wherever I would be sincerely happy for them. It shows that they are still of relevance, that you added value to them. Well, that’s what the few organisations I have worked with have done. They have added value to me and I’m super grateful that I worked with them, I will carry that knowledge they’ve impacted in me everywhere I go. After all that’s what life is about – ‘live, learn and apply’. And now my former colleagues are part of my life in one way or another. I would love to meet them and catch up, buy them a drink or vice versa, be invited for stuff, give them business and so on.

Anywhoo, so that’s wassup! So in the midst of all that, let me do something humorous at least. Too much seriousness is not good for me today  So there’s this thing called “Not Me Mondays”, stolen the concept from some random blog I happened to see, I think it must’ve been a post from the link below the image above. It’s where you’re just brutally honest, tell it, then you deny it. I think she must’ve gotten it from “Shaggy’s – It wasn’t me” song. Here’s how I got it, let’s give it a try with 5 for starters and see if I have my hand at it.

• The alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn’t just snooze it and wake up 1 hour later. I mean I would never, never ever…lol
• That guy who was about to splash on my some puddle water while I was walking to work, that guy hmmm! I didn’t throw imaginary daggers at him, if looks could kill, but nah, that wasn’t me.
• The guy in a BMW who was picking his nose like he wanted to remove his brains via his nostrils O_O. I didn’t even judge him and think, who does that on traffic. Yuck! But no, that wasn’t me.
• I’m not that girl wishing that closing day at work could have been a little more interesting, nah not at all. Disclaimer: I’ll make it exciting after I’m out. Now that I have one week of bumming *yaaay* Meeh if only school was also on break, I could take a trip or something. No I’m not the one wishing that.
• I’m not even so overly smitten *swoon* over a certain mister mister, butterflies, giggles e.t.c. I mean, how now? LOL (that’s for another day, I know you’re thinking, suspense is good continue thinking)

Ha ha so how did it go? I think I should do it more often. That being besides the point, cheers to new beginnings, as I swim in new waters, the unknown, yes, new in every essence of it. Quite a couple of new chapters in my life actually, this should get interesting. Just gotten off my comfort zone. And for every ending, there’s always a new beginning. This is mine, as I close this and open those *cheers*

Have a super week lovely readers, one full of positiveness and awesomeness. Be blessed!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Into the Unknown

“When you walk to the edge of all the light you have and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you must believe that one of two things will happen: There will be something solid for you to stand upon, or, you will be taught how to fly” ~ Patrick Overton

Dreams are known to be strange or rather mine sometimes turn out to be. Oh and that’s if I wake up and remember. Sometimes, I feel like I’m making up a bit of it so that I can coin how it’s going to be, this happens when I wake up and realize I was dreaming and I really don’t want to spoil the sequence. But as we know, once you’re up that’s it. It’s not like you can pause it then play when you get back your sleep. Another one starts up all together.

Like dreams, so is reality. We can be living a life that is going on fine, then it reaches a point we ‘re shaken up by a thing or two. This would be equivalent to waking up from a dream. You don’t want to face that which is shaking you up and even as you try to continue your life as it was whatever it is that’s come has to be faced. Life doesn’t pause and play for you. If anything it’s always on play. It’s not like a remote with the forward, rewind functionalities, you live it as it comes.

As your life is played out, you don’t know what’s ahead of you. It’s one day at a time. One day you’re at your comfort zone, the next day you’re forced to venture into the unknown. From the light and into the dark, at one point you could clearly see where you are headed because the path is lit for you, then at a certain place you cannot see what’s ahead, you could be walking into the edge of a cliff or headed to a beautiful place. Regardless of what is to come, trust yourself – your abilities, your decisions and allow yourself to take a risk and venture out, it could be the best thing that’s yet to happen to you.

What I’m trying to say, is that even with all the light or the comfort of being at a place you can relate with, you can never be to sure. The world is to dynamic for you to stay at the same place. You need to grow always, in the different aspects, you should allow yourself to go out to the unlit areas and find out of course don’t throw all caution out the window what that place has to offer. You could be the one to start lighting up the dark areas and create paths for others or creating comfort zones for others.

That’s probably the reason you are where you are today, because someone else took all the risk to create light were there was darkness, a path where there was none. It could be in anything, you coming into this world, let’s just start from there, must’ve been a risk taken by your parents … seeing as they didn’t know how some of you will turn out to be. But boy, didn’t we turn out good, okay, I’m talking about myself here. So, move forward and see what life’s got to offer in love, work, school, life in general. While at it, don’t forget to put God first, always puts things in perspective.

Venturing into the unknown, gives you some sense of satisfaction, belonging and achievement. Like you wanted and chased what no one else was or what someone else was chasing but got scared or gave up mid-way and turned back. It’s an accomplishment, one that you can proudly say you plunged yourself into, believed in and you’re now reaping the fruits. To those who’ve gotten there, big up. To those of us getting there, all the best, nothing comes so easy after all… No?

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

The Red Light

Now, I have the perfect answer to “What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?”. I won’t have to go digging deep to look for something that would sound crazy. It’s part of growing up and I am just thankful that it wasn’t as bad, it could have been worse. Now, I can laugh about it, but that was a scary move I made. Getting involved in a party brawl that I have no idea how it started or what ensued. So don’t joke with me or I’ll punch you in the face *just kidding*.

That was my red light. Looks like I’m having a phase of *experience, learn and decide*. If that’s what growing up is about, then clearly I have done much of it lately. If it’s not this then it’s that. I would love to complain and think all this is too much, but I take it in stride and I’m like, if I didn’t go through this then I wouldn’t know. Actually, I’m very thankful that the experiences have come in moderation,  you know getting that opportunity of thinking about what’s going on or what it is I’m doing, how it’s impacting my life. I’m glad I able to do that, it’s like a 2nd chance of sorts and it’s for me to decide whether to take that up or not. What I got that from this experience in particular was,

” If it’s not good for you, if it’s causing more harm than good, then it’s time you stopped especially if you can do without it”. ~ Kawi

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were, you wonder what’s to come. However,  it comes a time, you just know it’s time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we don’t have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up.

“When you’re growing up your mother says, ‘Wear rubbers or you’ll catch cold.’ When you become an adult you discover that you have the right not to wear rubbers and to see if you catch cold or not. It’s something like that.” ~ Diane Arbus

Thankful Thursdays, don’t forget to say a small thank you today. Apparently, they say gratitude is the essence of good mental health and spirituality. Now you have every reason to … yah. Have an awesome day my people’s.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

You’ve got to be kidding…

It’s amusing how our lives are alike, more like ‘same script different cast’. Has your friend ever told you a story and you go, ‘you’ve got to be kidding, me too’. The same thing they have been through, you have also been through just in a different setting and with different people. I tend to think that’s how life is, that’s how it teaches you lessons. It’s like trying to tell you, ‘you aren’t alone in this’, so get yourself together and try to do something different this time round. Worse yet, if it’s something that’s beyond your control then there’s some sense of consolation that there’s someone else who understands and knows exactly how it feels or can basically relate with you in regards to the matter.

I know right! Quite awkward but interesting all together. Such is life, and I think that’s the purpose and essence of acquaintances, friends and mentors. Something is really nagging you? You’re dying to tell someone something? Just go spill it out of course to a trusted deposit and what you should withdraw from them should be something that’s of worth. It could be just a listening ear or it could be them having been in a similar situation and telling you how they went about it or them helping you out.

This relations that we build with people are synonymous to making investments. With an investment you always want more, and as a result even from your relations you always want the outcome to be more than your input … right?  Then again there are different kinds of investments on different levels. So based on the one that you embark on you can determine what kind of returns you should be expecting.

Well to say the truth, I’m the kind of person who doesn’t know how to follow-up with some investments. Pretty bad trait, now that I actually put much thought of it I think 25 is doing things to me. An investments needs to be taken care of, to be nurtured, to be checked up on every so often so to know the time to ‘strike while the iron is hot’ so that you can make profits and benefit greatly from it. And it’s not all the time that things are going well, considering certain factors, there’s the good times and the bad times. Good investors however, always strive for the good, so they work through the bad times to make some magic.

Well, to say the least, I’m not a fighter especially for boy-girl relationships at least up until I thought about this … I give up easily. For other-non related things, I am patient, persevering through the good and the bad. So for the ‘very cliché question’ why I’m still … umm let me sugar coat it, not really seeing someone, that could be the sole reason. I’m always running away or just silently slipping off without even noticing it … Okay, that’s a lie. I do notice, just that there’s nothing much I can do about it …sure there is but I don’t… so I just let it slide.

Seeing as I hate insisting on stuff especially people, when I feel like I’m insisting or I feel detached I sit my beautiful tush down and do what I do best, let it slide or just think, ‘whoever is not just that into you’. Very bad trait yah! okay don’t say. Now that I have noticed, I should work on it, I’m trying *insert cheeky grin* because everything including that needs to be fought for or at least be given a chance or the light of day. Is there someone else saying ‘you’ve got to be kidding, me too’ and you’ve probably overcome the situation? Maybe you can share how it’s done … lol (seriously though).

All in all, I do appreciate everyone who has played a role in my life in one way or another, if you know me, you know I never take such for granted even the cleaning lady. However, that serious one that includes, love, heart breaks and a mixture of a million emotions … Yikes! God help.

Hope your week has been fruitful? But damn, it’s really flying … I wonder to where to.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Dandy December

Have you ever had an picture but you don’t have a story, or maybe you have a story but you don’t know how to put it down, but you still want to have it up. Oh well, that’s me today. I have had this picture for the longest time and I’ve always wondered how to use it. So it’s being lying in my blog pics folder and I just keep wondering, “Picture, I really want to use you … but how, when, at least I know where”

November was that month for me that can be best described by the royal tears. Funny enough as mentioned earlier, I’m a natural crier … lol but this month anything that got me anywhere close to crying would get a “really?”, or “No ,you’re not!” or “Not now”. From the loss of my uncle, to ‘minor’ heart breaks, too much to handle, home-sickness, loneliness, boredom, just because.

All in all, if there’s one thing about me, is that I’m an optimist. There’s always a reason for everything including those stupid decision made in one case or another which I think everyone does. What matters is what lessons you learn at the end of them all. However, the most important is not to forget to thank God for the blessings too, because failure to see those, you don’t see the beauty of life.

November Lessons 

• Life is short. It doesn’t matter how old you are, the impact is still the same.
• Open your eyes, use your brains and protect your heart.
• Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious.
• It could have been worse
• Learn from every mistake and think about it over and over, so that the next time you’re about to repeat it, you feel stupid.
• If you fall and stumble, don’t let it get you. Let it be your inspiration.
• There are friends for a reason, a season and a lifetime. Accept that and move on or move in.
• If you’re not supposed to be in it, then it won’t work out. I think it’s the way of the universe giving you hints.
• Whatever you do, if it comes from your heart, then all is good. If it fails, chances are that you won’t regret it.
• Actions speak louder than words.
• Life is what you make of it, smile with the world it smiles back at you … frown at it, it will most definitely frown back at you.
• Whatever happens to you, just know you’re not the first nor the last. It always gets better eventually. I don’t know how but somehow it does.
• Lastly,

November Blessings

• Life and life in abundance – Good health, beautiful person in and out.
• My family is my number one supporter.
• Awesome friends, who are there for you, who think of you, who check up on you.
• People who think the world of you.
• I’m able to juggle work and school, it’s crazy I say.
• Fun photo-shoot ( here and here ), fun coast trip.  Plus it had been a while since I swam, that was a blissful moment, should do it more often.
• I enjoy what I do … makes waking up in the morning much easier.
• Awesome colleagues.
• Good music – for what would we do without music? It speaks to me. When no one else knows what to say when to say, music does.
• The ability to express myself in writing.
• For being me … I’m social, smiley, loving and I pray nothing changes who I am. It makes everything much much easy.

December is here

So let’s see … December, December, December. It’s come along so fast … jeez! I ain’t complaining, but you know it’s the indicator that the year has come to an end. Any how, it’s also that month that comes with goodies and fun times. Plus at least 3/4 of the people are usually happy, in a holiday and party mood including our bosses *wink*.

Now since it’s finally here, I might as well get into the December program, though I technically don’t have one. What’s with everyone asking what I have planned for Christmas? Am I the only one who never has anything planned? Other than being at home of course, its standard procedure … tihihi

I love that the month is fresh … feels like I’m letting out my spanking new self and here goes my ↓

December Expectation

• Be much smarter – I think the year has had enough lessons on me, now it’s about time I gave back the lessons learnt.
• Finish my exams – Oh my I can’t wait. Still getting used to the whole “Back To School” set up.
• Have fun fun fun – That’s the standard procedure for December, wherever I am, whatever I do … just make sure it’s fun even if it’s sleeping.
• Be a bit random, crash parties, visit people and places, basically ↑
• Make my family and friends happy, have a laugh , catch up – It’s goodie goodie month. Oh, the excitement.

Quote of the day

Someday is why we never say never. It’s the reason we never give up, the reason we never give in. It’s a place in our hearts that can’t be broken, where our dreams always come true and the moment we’ll never let go ~ Justin Bieber

To a Dandy December full of laughter and lots of love! Just the way it’s supposed to be. God Bless Ya’ll … xo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

New Favorite Month *November*

Yes, November is my now new favorite month. I just discovered my awkward, most unexpected firsts happened in November. I make it sound like it’s a list, but they are just very few. Okay it’s just two, don’t get too excited. And I will say at least three special things I’ve learnt from them.

Moving Out

Who would’ve ever thought, at least I didn’t. Let me let you in on my thoughts when I was living with my folks. I used to think that I will be whisked off their house by my prince charming and into ‘our’ house (I blame all those cartoons and Disney movies). I never thought I will pay rent for myself, think about what I’m going to eat for supper or when I’ll get my house and laundry cleaned up, fill it up or not have to ask for permission or alert them that I’m going out.

Then the unexpected or rather “not thought of” expected came and my parents were moving to their house a bit too far from town. Guess who had to look for house…clueless about it. (This would make an awesome series by the way…LOL). The whole process was just … for lack of a better word, new! Described here.  The 3 things that I’ve learnt in that one year from this experience:

Independence

How to be able to rely and fend for myself. Of course no one wants to go back running to mum and dad every other time, I wouldn’t want to. This was a chance to show them that this little girl they brought up has got it and their efforts never went to waste.

Balance

Home, Work, School, Fun … Life. This time round, you have your freedom, no one’s monitoring you, so you really have to be mature about it. Screw up one of them and you are fucked. disclaimer: that was a french word.

Responsibility

Yes, it comes with a tonne full of responsibilities;  from managing your finances, thinking about the future… it could be the near or far future, taking care of yourself. Let’s just say, you are on your own and you need to survive … while at it you still need your smile and laugh.

Blogversary

I started blogging 2years ago, at this particular time. I’m not so good with dates, except birthday days of people who would slaughter me if I forgot, point in case my baby sister. I have come so far, who thought I would ever write this much? I have discovered I ask this question a lot, but really, who would’ve thought? it’s supposed to come out as rhetorical though.

I can be a mouthful, I always have an opinion and try make it known — blonde or bright, the blog was a channel to just bring it out uninterrupted. And it’s worked wonders, it’s my therapy! So the few things I’ve learnt are:

Consistency

Yes, this was a tough nut to crack. Blogging ain’t as easy as it looks, especially if you have many other things that bog you down by the end of the day. Thinking and putting down your thoughts becomes a challenge, but since I started, I might as well keep going. I have had that feeling, where I go to someones blog expecting something’s up and zilch…and I go back with a sad face. That right there, is my inspiration to be consistent for those guys who are my regulars *wink*

This is where I started trying to figure out what stupendoustidbits is about!

Passion

At least in my list of what I love doing, I can proudly add “Blogging” and I have something to show for it. How cool is that? When I was younger than I am, that is, I never knew what my talent was and when someone asked me, I would come up with something from the top of my head … like singing (note that I can’t really sing alone, only in a choir with supporting voices…lol). Then I grew up and now I can say something real or substantial.

Expression

I can say this and that … what I feel, what I don’t feel, what I’m thinking, what I’m attempting not to think. Basically, it is my medium, I can speak in parables and be me, from mind to fingers.

I would really love to try to do some “Do It Yourself” posts. Seen some and for some reason I now feel like going for some tailoring classes…lol

New things to come

I hope I will be talking bigger things in future, like; finished my masters, published a book, travelled across the world, got married blah blah blah. For now that’s it, getting to where I am today for me is one HUGE step. So I still want to grow into something way bigger and better.

Ya’ll can drink to all that … more like a toast to me yeah, sometimes I can be so full of myself. No? And that’s a few of the reasons why  November rocks already. Have an awesome new month and strive to do new challenging stuff.

Finally, from the guys who kept me entertained most of all my childhood. With all the cartoons, animations and movies … they helped develop my mind when I wasn’t busy playing with other kids —> Quote of the day courtesy of Walt Disney.

May this month be a blessing to you. All you have to do is just believe and do your thing to the best of your ability.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Musings of the First Friday *Favorite Month*

Oh my it’s September already! That was fast but I’m not complaining. August was one hell-of-a-crazy month, especially the middle part of it. I think it’s now that I actually realized that being alone can be quite depressing sometimes.

I’m the kind of person who likes to share irrelevant things … talk about anything that’s worth talking about. So every time I go home and something lame has happened to me like I have attended the wrong finance class TWICE or work is just too much and school is another thing all together, I have a flu or I’m feeling stressed about *I don’t know*, maybe there’s this someone I like … you know, that kind of stuff.

And there’s no one to blubber all this too. I think August is the time I missed my family the most since I moved out. I really miss living at home, the nagging, the questions, the being babied when I’m “sick” and all. In as much as my folks used to irritate me with all the questions about school, work, life and so on every time I get home … now is when I appreciate and really miss all that. I would now find myself being the one to call them, to voluntarily tell them what’s going on … because they are the one of the few people, if not the only ones who are interested in all these things that may seem irrelevant but in one way or another they are so relevant and need to be shared.

Considering I don’t have so much time on my hands with work all day and school in the evening … depression at the end of the day, no people to talk to or ask me what’s going on, besides the phone call in which you can’t exhaust everything. I thought I was used to all this stuff. Living alone is fun, the freedom, self-responsibility … but it can get pretty lonely! And you start adapting to the loneliness, which is not a cool thing. TV and movies become your best friends, which is so unlike me … bad bad bad!

Now since August is over you know one of those months that you would want to get over and done with *switches back to my normal self*. I think such stuff happens so that you can know yourself better and not let some circumstances change who you are, because who you are is amazing. I had a whole week of pouting and complaining about everything … and that’s definitely very unlike me, but glad I figured what was going on.

Anyhow, today happens to be the first Friday of the month. And I like September and September babies … I have no idea why? and don’t even ask me why, but one of my besties in campus is a September baby and she made life in campus so much fun with no drama … lol I remember she used to tell me, there’s no for catching feeling when someone does something,  it’s never that serious … then now she’s disappeared, now that I’ve remembered *rushes to gtalk*… but it’s definitely bound to be a good month.

Random Thought

I’ve always said I like September babies for the longest time and I find July babies cool and now I wonder if there’s someone who thinks February babies are awesome … haha that was for lack of a random thought…ok, it’s really random *marco polo*

I’m Feeling

So good, so awesome, so bubbly … so contagious tihihi! I could be the best company right about now.

This weekend

My friends baby’s birthday party then after that I’m loose like a goose *does the goose dance* , then I should go home and ask my baby sister why she told me I’m becoming like my mum (is that a positive thing or a negative thing?) hmmmm, but girl has got to read and watch movies after finishing school *insert mums voice* ]:)

I’m thinking

Now that I can’t really can’t place a finger on what I’m craving … I’m thinking,

Song of the week

Neyo – One In a Million –> How we’re complicated maen! Her reaction at the end … lol. Would love to see the continuation or there already is?

I want and pray

I want September to be that great month for me.  My prayer goes to *drum rolls* HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY FOLKS! 27yrs is not a short time, thanks for all the love and the values you’ve taught us. You’ve made our life’s more than beautiful and all I ask God is to bless you with all the happiness, peace, strength, wisdom and most of all, all the love you need, because we’ll definitely be needing so much of that from you … as usual

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

This is kinda stupid but … hehe

Have an amazing weekend, full of laughter and loads of fun. Take care and keep safe!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Rantings of a young girl *shame shame*

It seems when you have so much to do time goes so fast and by the time the day or the week is over you feel like you have basically done nothing. That’s me lately, every time I reach home there’s this empty feeling like there is something I am supposed to do that I haven’t done. And by the time I’m getting to the house I am so exhausted that even cooking is a MAJOR task. All I want is to sit and watch t.v (yes I finally have a t.v *whoop whoop*) or just lie down and sleep.

Juggling up work and other many activities can be so hard. I think it actually needs some serious getting used to. I wonder how our folks hacked bringing us up, going to school and working at the same time…while at the same time dealing with their spouse…because relationships are clearly not as easy either, they could be more tasking that the others things combined.

I think I’ll have a sit down with my mother some day *very soon* and ask her. I’m sure if by the end of the day if you tell a woman of her calibre that you’re tired and you just can’t juggle work and other simple things such as school, they would slap you back to reality with how much responsibilty they have and they still manage to liven up the home.

I need to figure out:

Where do they get their energy from:

I mean, she would come off work, and if she’s doing school she goes, she’s also probably been up and down getting errands done. Then comes home and starts checking the state of the house i.e is it clean, have the meals been prepared. If not she’ll get down to business and get everything looking spic and span.

I, on the other hand, gets out of work and I’m tired and too lazy to do any of that work. I mean I even miss the househelp many at times. Like if only I could get home to a cooked meal… shame shame!

How they do things without complaining:

Tell your mum to help you out in doing something … it could be as simple as getting something cleaned up, to helping you run an errand and they do it straight-up, no complaints. They won’t say I don’t have time or I’ll be so tired. And at the end of the day of the week, they’ll have you sorted, in the midst of all their responsibilities and the number of other errands they have to run, yours will be one of them.

I always have an excuse for everything…and most of them are on the lines of time and exhaustion…lol Now it sounds funny, when I think about it. As in you’re given an errand and the first response is, “ummm I don’t think I’ll have time to do it.”

How they are patient, caring and always there for all of us:

Just as it is, they take up all our pieces together. You can be scattered all over, but she’ll help you pick up your pieces no matter the distances the pieces are apart and no matter how irritating you can be in the process. They take it all in, in stride, they’re patient with you…will do anything for you and they’ll always be there.

I, on the other hand, just doesn’t care what goes on. I’ll do whatever makes me happy not thinking about the rest, if they are affected by the actions, after all “it’s all about me and if I’m happy, then everything else doesn’t matter”.

How or why don’t they press “SNOOZE” once the alarm rings?

If the alarm rings, mothers especially wake up at the 1st ring. Ps: they are the ones who probably slept latest and they are the ones who’ve over worked during the day and night.

I, on the other hand, presses SNOOZE then eventually STOP and I continue sleeping…tsk! tsk! tsk! and she’s the one who’ll wake me up, but now since I live alone, I oversleep…lol

Trying to figure out such stuff, maybe it’s just all in their heads, like they just make up their minds that’s how they are going to be. Since I want to be a good one like her, practice makes perfect. So from today onwards here’s my little purple rule book:

• I will never sleep hungry because I am too lazy to cook, I’ll just drag my lazy self into cutting up those onions and tomatoes… I mean after all it’s just a short process *yeah right*, even if it means eating them alone.
• I will not procrastinate because I feel exhausted…that’s my excuse for not meeting my set targets. I mean we are all tired at the end of the day, it’s only human, but I need to find a way to contain that exhaustion.
• I will not give an excuse related to time or exhaustion unless what I’m being asked to do is very impractical in terms of those two. Otherwise if it makes sense I will find time to do whatever it is.
• I will not complain when given an assignment or if I’m told to do something outside my comfort zone.
• I will never SNOOZE * God help* maybe that should be what I give up this season. I mean in my sleep I press the SNOOZE and the STOP simultaneously without opening my eyes…lol. I’m a Snooze pro!
• I will be patient, caring and there when I’m need or even when I’m not needed.

Yeah basically, let me start with those few and see how it goes. Ok, I don’t have choice, but gosh let me say try in case I’m pushing it too much especially the cooking part. The rest I’m sure I can hack. As for the one i’m a pro at, the one that I’m giving up this season is a MUST.

After all, QUOTE OF THE WEEK says,

“Do something everyday that you don’t want to do; this is the golden rule for acquiring the habit of doing your duty without pain.” ~ Unknown author

Have a lovely week ahead lovely people’s

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Plus One *It’s Even and It Gets Better*

One year older, One year wiser … but I’ll always hold it, forever young!

It’s become a tradition now to write a post just before my birthday – about me – and share it with the world … oh well! Ok, this is utterly exciting … I love the feeling and I love February 1st … it’s a hot date. So when it’s your birthday do you grow a tad bit taller? or what happens? very rhetorical question. So my age adds a plus one … Yikes! A while ago I used to find people saying they are the age I’m turning  and I used to think … “Gosh you’re old!” Ummm! Now I’m there so I’ll feel pretty weird saying the age.

A year is actually passed … 23 was a year and a half (no wonder it’s an ODD number). So much has happened in it, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful but one thing still stands, that I’m still me and I haven’t changed a tad bit. Maybe for the better, which is what I plan to carry forward. Having managed to achieve a couple of stuff that I even wouldn’t have thought I would. I think this year has gotten me to be mature.

This year I’ve basically learnt to take care of myself in the very essence of it, which I think in life is a lesson one needs to learn … the easy way of the hard way. Thank God I didn’t have it rough, at least now I know I can be sure to take care of others.

As for this year, I have no plans really … I don’t have a pre-arranged list per se, but I have an idea of random things so here goes and it’s all about “I” and what “I” want, because today is the only day it’s all about me, me, me

• I just want to be happy … like genuinely happy. I pray that the people who will be around bring me happiness and lots of love  hehe yeah love,  and I will be sure to reciprocate.
• I would want to be the best at what I do … it’s not the easiest thing in the world, especially when you have to be creative and think outside the box. I pray that God opens up my mind this year and many to come, because I love what I’m doing now.
• I would want to make better decisions, to make the right choices as hard as it can be … I hope this year I make stuff right!
• I want to be wise … I just don’t want to fall for anything if you know what I mean. I want to make wise decisions in all this circumstances, this life can be so confusing … lol, last year I had my roll of *what’s the opposite of wisdom?*
• I want to be more of  a Christian, does that make sense? I want to read more of my bible, go to church  on Sundays and find myself in God … you know how we struggle so much in life, and all you probably need is just a short prayer calling out to God to sort you out. And he’s always got you, so I want to put him 1st in everything.
• I want to always be there for my folks … in my 23rd they have shown me what being a parent is all about. They’ve been there for me since I was conceived, and my life so far has been the best because of them. I don’t know of a better way to appreciate them. So I pray for God to make me super able to always be there for them (I know I’ve dotted there…lol)

Basically, that’s what I want and I think if I’m able to achieve all this … the rest will be a breeze. So, God help. I hope that’s not so much to ask for on my birthday

IN THAT CASE!

“The secret to staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.” ~ So true…lol

“And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.” ~ Abraham Lincoln

For those who wished me, are wishing me, will be wishing me happy birthday … MUCHAS GRACIAS! I love y’ll like you wouldn’t believe it. Friends and family are God Given, and I think the world would be a monster without you!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*