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And You let Her Go

You know that grown up feeling that overcomes you for a moment. It’s like an epiphany of sorts and you see something in different light. Something that one point you actually believed that that’s how it should be done. However, given the chance to re-think again today, you’d be like “No, how now?”. Some thoughts or opinions you had before, if revisited can give you a mini heart-attack. I don’t think it’s growing up that caused the change of heart as I’d said at the beginning, but exposure and experience. And that could be why those two are important even as you seek for jobs. Experience and exposure help influence your opinion on certain things, and that’s why…

…opinions are only valid for the duration they’re shared. They could change as soon as you put the full stop.

Anyhow, this epiphany happened as I listened to a current song that I rather like; Passenger – Let her go. Sometimes I listen to songs because of the beats, but when I see myself slowly getting the lyrics in (because I can listen to a song a million times but the lyrics don’t get in, it’s a rare disease called #ijustcantcramlyrics lol), I start to think about what it the artist is trying to bring out. Yeah, I can sing along but maybe I’m chanting illuminati, just kidding, but you know what I mean.

So as I listened on and sang along, I thought “wait a minute, what’s this guys saying?”. Makes sense from the quote “when you love something, let it go, if it was meant to be, it’ll come back, if it doesn’t, it never loved you…” Now, that doesn’t make sense to me anymore, so let me tell you a little something about love, my kind of love. Not necessarily the lover kind of love, just general love. For your family, friends and things.

Clara

You know it when you get it, and you don’t have to let go to know that you have it. Love doesn’t need proof by leaving and seeing whether they’ll (or it’ll) come back. Love just needs a few actions that express what you feel and what the other persons feels for you. Love doesn’t have seasons. Love is not like weather, it’s a constant through out the seasons. Love makes those seasons bearable. What happens within the seasons are feelings. Feelings, which are always bound to change depending on the situation you’re met with. If it’s rainy and it’s muddy and wet, you’ll hate it and wish for the sun, then when the sun is too scotchy, you’ll wish for the cold.

Love like other things in life, have rules, mostly unwritten. A few written. If you read the bible, it makes it easier for you to break the code. That’s why you’d find friends becoming (fri)enemies because of overstepping a love rule. If you disrespect me, then how do we get along? If you don’t forgive me for my shortcomings, then how do you expect this relationship to work out? If you keep my record of wrongs and keep reiterating them, that’s really annoying, just let go and move on, if you’re jealous of my achievement then how do we help each other? If you’re impatient with me, then how do we grow and be there for each other through the highs and lows?

That’s love. Don’t let her go when you love her, keep her instead. Love is about forgiveness, working it out, growing, letting go of baggage and moving on and while at it, the one thing that should stay, is that thing or that person(s) you love. Stupid, would be listening to the quotes and lyrics and letting go to see if the said person or thing will come back, even butterflies don’t. They fly away and find other places where they’ll fit in.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Upcoming Event: ZIADA Nairobi

I don’t mean to brag, but the one of the female vocalists (Rosie) for Adawnage Band happens to be my desk-mate at work. Yes, I know, I know direct access, you can pass all the messages, like how you’re a big fan and I’ll make sure they reach. Yes, I get the chance to ask her to do for me the start part for Uwezo…uwezo, yes, she can randomly pull those notes comfortably without the, “listen to the words and not the voice” excuses. Now if only that ability to sing could just rub off on me. You know what I mean, I would definitely do a vlog. But it’s not yet happened so I remain a cheerleader.

ZIADA

 A Swahili word meaning to ‘increase or have in abundance’, is a series of revolutionary musical events organized by award-winning Christian musicians, Adawnage and Zidi The Band. While Adawnage and Zidi the Band exist separately as fully-ledged units with outstanding female & male vocalists, instrumentalists and support teams, their paths often intertwine. With similar objectives and vision, they have come together to form ZIADA (a compressed version of the bands’ names) to achieve much more impact together.

ZIADA is committed to changing lives and perceptions. Literally. They’ve lined up brilliant works of photography on the beauty of our country captured by talented, professional and widely celebrated photographers. The photo exhibition will precede the musical event. This event is dubbed to create  a relevant and socially conscious music experience that connects impresses upon the 25-year-old adult to play their part in promoting peace in their circles.

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ZIADA NAIROBI: PEACE EDITION

Nairobi town will get to experience the joyful sounds of hope on December 12, 2012 at the Parklands Baptist Church from 3PM from ZIADA. The event will take on a PEACE theme with the hope of uniting the public ahead of the polls next year. Featuring strong leads and additional home-grown artistes such as the amazing Mercy Wairegi, Nasara the poet, Carlisto and Makena. The worship experience is set to be one whose impact will linger on long after the date.

Date: 12th December 2012

Time: 3:00 pm

Venue: Parklands Baptist Church

By: ZIADA and Number 8

Featuring Artistes: Mercy Wairegi, Nasara the poet, Carlisto and Makena

Entrance: FREE

Adawnage

Adawnage Band is Kenya’s 2011 Group of the Year in the just concluded Groove Awards, for its popular releases, Uwezo and Safari.

Adawnage Band is a vibrant unit of energetic individuals from different established professional backgrounds who have come together with the sole purpose of reaching out to the world with positive, electric, realistic and inspirational music. The Contemporary Gospel Band which traces their beginnings to May of 2008 has as its mission statement ‘Transforming lives through God-inspired music and lifestyle’. The band released its debut album, Safari (The Journey) in December 2010 which comprises of 10 songs and it is a depiction of the journey that the band has taken since they started and the challenges and inspirations they have encountered through their walk.

Zidi, Ziada, adawnage

Breathe, the Zidi the Band’s flagship song won the team the title Group of the Year, in the 2010 Groove Awards.

Zidi the Band is a Christian music ministry, with a mission to ‘Transform and root our generation in God’. The name Zidi, is a Swahili word for exceed and is taken from Psalm 23:5 . In its seven years of existence, Zidi The Band has continued to churn out fresh afro-fusion music targeting young professionals. So far, music from its debut album, Motisha (Motivation) has received generous airplay in local and international stations sold out several times since hitting the stores in 2010.

Off the stage, members of Zidi The Band are pleased to be professional influencers of society in different capacities and collectively as sponsors of the Destiny Children Centre, Mombasa. In addition, partnering in local peace initiatives and music training programs present band members the opportunity to imapact community.

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Are you rooting for peace in our country but you lack a channel through which to promote it? This will be a good one, through photography, music, poetry, spoken word, writing among others. Spread the word and mark your calendars!

Well oh well…

I vouch for peace, always will.

I love the Kenya where I walk or drive freely without fear.

Where I sleep knowing that my family and friends are safe,

Day or night.

Where there is no discrimination,

Tribal or gender related.

To see and embrace the beauty that it holds.

I believe you also do.

Peace is possible.

Not bad huh! Maybe I could try a little poetry *joke*, just felt a little convicted. However, I also think “when the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace”. With that in mind, have a beautiful week ahead and be blessed.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Seekers…Keepers

It’s one thing to know what you want or need,  it’s another to get it and another one to create room for those things once you get them because you eventually do. Problem is that if it’s not self-driven and by that I mean envision it, yearn for it or there’s nothing you’ve had to give up for it, you’ll feel short-changed. The satisfaction derived from that whole process should make you feel like you’re on some spaceship headed to the blue moon okay I just exaggerated but you feel me.

Well that’s just once in a blue moon, most of the times we get things that we thought we didn’t want or need or we actually wanted just had thought of them in a more *castle in the air* kind of way and they drive you off your tangent. That right there is what we call experience, because it’s usually an instance that comes and goes but leaves you some few lessons to learn from.

You have to go through a series of instances to actually figure yourself out first. Pretty sure it’s something we have all experienced in one way or another. For some not in the easiest of ways, for others things have come pretty easy it’s like you had it all aligned it for you. All the same, I think it’s always worth the experience, makes you appreciate what you get even more.

I have been through a couple of experiences myself, in work, at school, in relationships of different kinds … it’s just amazing. I know there’s someone out there thinking, amazing? *pops eyes* are you kidding me? Yeah, I guess that’s how I take it in. Maybe that’s why I’m still sane or that’s why you would see me smiling when I should be hitting the roof as I try to contain my hulk. Trust me we all have a hulk in us, or is this the point where I use singular terms like “I”, I have some hulk a.k.a Meru in me.

Sometimes you get yourself somewhere not because it’s the wrong place at that point time, it’s just a stepping stone to the next level. The next level of taking you towards where you want to be. That situation could be grooming you for what life has in store for you. That’s why I say it’s pretty interesting. Think of it that way and you could be somewhat comfortable with your situation. You know the beauty of it is that, lets assume something goes wrong at one point, you will be sad but it won’t last forever. We are all bound to experience different emotions at different time. Both the good and the bad. Sadness, disappointments, bitterness, is just but a part of them, so is bliss, joy, gratefulness and so on. I tend to think they do take turns, because nothing is perfect, no one is from the human perspective. So at one point you’re on a high, the next you’re at a low (you’ve got to know how to chase this one away once it checks in … low is not a sport, never quite looks good on you).

 

Point is, knowing what you want, better yet identifying what you need. An important aspect of this is that it lets you know what to keep and what to let go of (people, a character you hold, something material, it could be anything). What you keep can sometimes be what deters you from getting…no? Then again, you could get what you want but it’s not necessarily what you need or you could get what you need but not what you want…lol talk of life getting it all twisted, that’s its nature though. So lucky are you when you get what you want and need. It’s a plus knowing it, because it gets you to treasure what you’ve got more, work hard for it because you know its importance and make sure that it’s for keeps. Everything does count, it contributes to who you are, what you’re yet to be and last but not least what and who is linked to you.

In other non-related news,  the music I’ve been listening to these days. Who knew there was country gospel … pop’ish kinda music? She’s good, Jamie Grace (one song at a time album) on replay, so soulful!

Just saw this on my friends update and thought to share :-) since sharing is caring and seeing as I haven’t fed your minds in a while, these ones looks like some great lessons to adopt:

  1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
  2. Marry a man or woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
  3. When you say “I Love you” mean it.
  4. When you wrong someone, look at them in the eye and say “I’m sorry”.
  5. Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt,but its the only way to live life completely.
  6. Talk slowly but think quickly.
  7. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
  8. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
  9. Remember the 3 Rs: Respect for self, Respect Others, Responsibility for all your actions.
  10. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
  11. Spend some time alone.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Random Snippets

Courtesy of Native Pics

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Yes, I have always wanted to have a picture like this one! Speaks loads about me and I got one @KevDaNative to capture it. If that’s the much fun people have on this random shoots I wouldn’t mind doing one every fortnight *hint hint*.  So @Swambi and I had 3 photographers at our disposal. You know it’s only once in a life time you can get so much undivided attention from three handsome men at the same time. We were so over the skies there were no roofs. Here’s just but a few of the ones we took on Kev’s blog. More to come up, his words, “There will be two more posts from this shoot”, now I’m over the roof.

Daughtry’s album is out *Break The Spell* and I have already over-played it. I’m in love with all the songs in the album. That’s happened to all the others that I have of them. I think they are the only band who I have managed to listen to all the songs in the album and bump my head to them there’s no bad one. Okay maybe I’m biased … but you’ve got to love their music. They always speak to me. I know, the excitement! Thanks to the ones who gave me heads up on this, it’s usually the role of my baby sister … so now you deserve a hi ever day @Theycallmebiggy and @wiselar. Plus you get a mention on my blog, that’s a big thing you know.

Want to listen to the music here’s the link : Click me NOW . Thank me later … Sharing is caring!

My favorite is “Start of Something Good” —> Do I love it or do I love it … definitely love it!

Last but not least, sad news. I lost my dear uncle who’s basically like my second Dad. If there’s one thing you don’t know about me is that I have got nothing but love for my family. So seeing my aunt and cousins sad and imagining that my uncle is no more is just depressing. But hey, it’s God who gives and he’s still the one who takes. So he has his reason as to why he chose to bring him to our lives in the first place and take him from us right now. The best I can do is just be there for my family and always love them unconditionally.

A bit about my uncle, I lived with them a bit for some years when I was younger I think between 3 – 5 years. He spoilt us rotten and treated me like his own. He’s the one who introduced me to all the foreign foods (pizza and what not), how to eat with a fork and knife, going to the sports club and all the fun stuff. They used to tag me along even when I went back home. I was an only kid till I was 8yrs, so my cousins played the brother and sister role very well, they still do … sleep overs and the likes … cartoons, games when were young. Growing up kind of got into the way, school, work, distances … maen! and time is so scarce. The one thing I loved about him is that he always used to hug all of us and give us a kiss on the cheek every single day I lived with them and visited them, he made you feel loved.

It’s not dawned on me that he’s gone, but I hope it comes on lightly. I would love to just understand and accept without feeling so sad or thinking deeply into it. Pray for comfort and strength for our family.

Otherwise … lol, that’s so Kenyan! Can’t go off without the quote of the day.

God bless ya’ll. To living, loving and laughing. Have a Wonderful Wednesday … even the weather is smiling at you, so be sure to smile back yah!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Now, I Figure *Pooh*

On Friday as I was looking up some quotes for my TGIF, I remembered my favorite cartoon. There was a time I was into cartoons like I am into movies right now. Funny enough, I am one of those people who besides learning from experience, I also learn from what I watch. Actually most of my wisdom, the little that I have acquired so far comes from what I see. I hear people say that movies, series or cartoons limit your intelligence, they say it’s garbage in and encourage you to read a book instead. Oh well, I have done both, and I choose to disagree. For me, movies open up my mind and make me think beyond what is being shown. I put myself in it. If it was me what would I have done, said or reacted … just the same way I do if or when reading a book.

Then again, different people, different preferences. So back to where I was before I digressed. I came across this site here, talking about the real life lessons from Winnie the Pooh. And now, I figure out why I loved it so much. It always gave me food for thought or better yet, it made me admire their lives gullible is me :). On the upside, it was a cartoon out of a book, so I got a dose of both!

They say, “the wisdom of  Winnie can guide a kid from childhood straight into adulthood and beyond. Following are some important life lessons courtesy of  Winnie and the rest of the gang from Aker Woods.” I think that’s just what it did, and going back through the quotes gives me goosebumps. Here goes:

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Love Your Friends

“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”

“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we’re apart.. i’ll always be with you.”

“If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.”

“Promise me you’ll never forget me because if I thought you would I’d never leave.”

“Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. “Pooh,” he whispered.

“Yes, Piglet?”

“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw, “I just wanted to be sure of you.””

“I wonder what Piglet is doing,” thought Pooh.
“I wish I were there to be doing it, too.”

Appreciate the Little Things in Life

“It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn’t use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like “What about lunch?””

“Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known.”

“Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day.”

“Don’t underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can’t hear, and not bothering.”

“I don’t see much sense in that,” said Rabbit.
“No,” said Pooh humbly, “there isn’t. But there was going to be when I began it. It’s just that something happened to it along the way.””

“Nobody can be uncheered with a balloon”

“Well,” said Pooh, “what I like best — ” and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn’t know what it was called”

“Those who are clever, who have a Brain, never understand anything.”

“Poetry and Hums aren’t things which you get, they’re things which get you. And all you can do is go where they can find you.”

“The spring has sprung, the grass is rizz. I wonder where them birdies is?”

“Twirl around Piglet,
Step lightly Pooh,
This silly ol’ dance is perfect for two.”

Be Patient

“If the person you are talking to doesn’t appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear.”

“Wait.”

Don’t Get Bogged Down in Details

“You can’t help respecting anybody who can spell TUESDAY, even if he doesn’t spell it right; but spelling isn’t everything. There are days when spelling Tuesday simply doesn’t count.”

Put Others First

“A little Consideration, a little Thought for Others, makes all the difference.”

Take Care of Yourself

“A bear, however hard he tries, grows tubby without exercise.”

Be Considerate of Others

“Just because an animal is large, it doesn’t mean he doesn’t want kindness; however big Tigger seems to be, remember that he wants as much kindness as Roo.”

Don’t Be Afraid to Ask Questions

“Before beginning a Hunt, it is wise to ask someone what you are looking for before you begin looking for it.”

Be Proactive

“You can’t always sit in your corner of the forest and wait for people to come to you… you have to go to them sometimes.”

Be Careful

“Always watch where you are going. Otherwise, you may step on a piece of the Forest that was left out by mistake.”

Be Silly

“If you want to make a song more hummy, add a few tiddely poms.”

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And that my dear friends is just a way to add more spice into your life. It may not look like it’s the best but ultimately it’s the only one that you have … so you don’t have a choice but to make it the best with the little that you’ve got. As my friend would say “there is no such thing as small houses, only small hearts”. I bet so is life and it’s content, nothing is small … it’s always about how you look at it.

To a blessed Sunday and I hope your weekend is going as planned. Mine sure is, I have had an AWESOME one. Today, I am house bound trying to make up for the time I should’ve spent on books. But no regrets whatsoever. Ps: I swam yesterday and did a shoot with the most amazing peoples. I hadn’t done that in ages, the bliss! They will tell the stories better *suspense gallore*

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Laure Courtellemont *Dance Away*

This is my motivation for the day!

So are there any classes like this in Kenya?

Because if there is, I’m in it. Looks like so much fun … much more fun than going to a boring GYM and lifting weights or following boring routines and instructions. Anyway, *breathes out* if only I could dance that well *wishful thinking is good for my health*. I’m thinking if I heard she has classes around, I would pay whatever to attend even if it’s just one class.

Ummm and whoever said whites don’t have rhythm, she clearly proves the theory wrong. So, Laure Courtellemont is from Paris (she’s French) and she does ragga jam and dance hall classes. Who would’ve thought? What do you think? So where are all those guys who dance at the clubs? Know of anyone whose doing something like this in Nairobi at least? Someone should open a big studio like in town *hint*

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Ps: Those pants she’s wearing, are they just ‘Track Suit pants’ or do they have another name? I should get me one of those. Fashionistas say something!

Her dance classes are now my current obsession … lol, you can’t blame me. So the day I will be able to dance like that, I’ll have to show off  my skills *wink*

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Anyhow, enjoy your weekend to the fullest. If you have a friend who can dance … like really dance and teach novices like me how to dance some certain dance routines, tell them this is a very viable business idea … Ragga and Dancehall classes at a convenient location, there’s already one willing member.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Collide *POW*

Today is one of those day’s they say, “I woke up on the right side of the bed”, whoever coined that phrase *shaking my head* because I always wake up on the right (hand) side of the bed. I bet they meant the other right … hehe. I’m in this happy-go-lucky mood and I have no slightest idea where it’s come from, not that I’m complaining. Suddenly I have psyche to do things that I had lost psyche doing :) , which is a very good thing.

I love rock n roll \nn/ and the roll it leaves on your tongue when you’re saying it, the r’s and l’s in the statement can be quite the tongue twister considering my Meru genes are quite strong, might just get myself saying, “I love lock and loll”, “I rove rock and roll”, I love lock n roll”…hehe. Anyhow, the Xfm frequency (105.5) was never clear in the office but today it was … could the day get any better, felt like jumping up and down, but this was all happening in my head. Next on the playlist is ~ Howie Day – Collide ~

My favorite part of the song is the choruses (whats the plural of chorus?) … I’ve mixed them up to feature the lines I like!

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind

Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

That one, is on the top of the list of my most favorite songs, why? Because I’m the kind of person who listens much to the message that the song is passing on, okay, the beats, it’s gotta pump me up. It’s one of those that get me saying “I love this song” *in the most girly of ways* and you’ll probably go like awww! Well, I said I could come up with a post out of a word, this is it today *COLLIDE*

Collide: To come together with violent, direct impact; To meet in opposition; conflict

Always dreaded, never anticipated is what colliding is. It happens when you least expected and the outcomes are always unknown. What I like about it, is the surprise it holds. I can’t say I love surprises, although I secretly do, but I have never brought myself to admit it. And today will not be the day I surrender, holding on strong, to my *I don’t like surprises*

For something to collide, there has to be an opposing force that is conflicting with it. Like opposite poles attract and like poles repel … same concept I guess.  I would equate this to life success, friendships, relationships. Basically, nothing comes easy, you have to fight for stuff, for it to work out.

In case you ever wondered why everything can be so hard sometimes, it’s because heaven and earth are having are colliding. Heaven is trying to make it heaven here on earth, while earth is trying to occupy it’s place and make it earthly. If they merge and form a good union … everything is heavenly and awesome, else hell breaks loose and depressing … okay that’s a joke, I done why life can be such a behind (euphemism at it’s best) sometimes.

Everyone is different ->and different people have different views, opinions, objectives, goals and so on. Then how do we make it together, because in the long run, a man is not an island? You need another to be able to achieve that which you’ve set out for. Your difference has to finally meet and I’m pretty sure they (the differences that is) ain’t going to sit around and wait to see what happens, they’ll have a go and eventually collide and the outcome could be either for the worst or for the best … surprise! surprise! This right her explains why I don’t like surprises, seeing as I’m human, I would love everything to be the best always.

Anyhow, you will find out that, that which collides, in the end, when it all works out, then it was worth the try. So don’t deny yourself anything based on the fact that it’s not you,  it’s different, out of this world or better yet not your kind of thing. Maybe that’s the key  to your treasure box. As long as it’s something that’s worth the fight then go ahead … what are you waiting for? *It’s not as easy as it sounds in writing/reading…lol*

Just to remind you that, no one has it all because even the best fall down sometimes and yeah, even the stars refuse to shine (do they?) … lol, just that the best and the stars never give up at any given circumstance. So giving up was never part of the plan … yah!

Okay, now go have a lovely evening … be happy, be the best, be a star and don’t be afraid to collide, it’s a way of life!

And this is my song of the day —> That’s more like me!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*