In My Head

Lord give me a sign!

I don’t know when I ask for a sign I actually expect it to come dressed up in a robe with a golden tiara or in the form of a butterfly or just bird poop on my hair, so that I can end up cursing instead of blessing it. It’s got to be something, like something I can “superstitiously” relate to. Today, if you were wondering what was going through my head as I was walking home since I had mentioned it in my update, that’s what occupied a very small part of it. I am a scatter brain, so I have a million and one things running through my head including what I would do if I was compromised by some strange people…

I started playing the game, “Never again would I…”, and I was like, there are so many things that I have to put on that list. Top of the list was getting involved in undefined things, yes, it had to boil down to dating and relationships. I think emotional roller-coasters with people who don’t deserve it is just a mere waste of time…yes I said it.

Why care so much for someone who probably don’t really care about you? Why think about someone who doesn’t think of you? Why place your heart on your sleeve while someone has it locked up with those non-breakable padlocks? Why be in a relationship that you don’t know what/where exactly you are placed or it’s even headed? Why are you in doubt in the first place about all this?  Well, I happened to blubber this to one of my friends, I don’t think I waited for the answer but I must’ve heard something like he’s not ready. Makes much sense, again I say it was probably a case of Mr. Wrong and classify it as fun times. Let bygones be bygones!

Then again, I’m thinking I’ve heard all the excuses as to why someone wouldn’t be ready to have a relationship defined, such as bad past relationships, they’re in a crisis, they’re scared, they just want to have fun, they want to make money first … among many others. Here, I’m just a young lady *cheeky smile* I wear dresses sometimes, I know if I want something I’ll go for it regardless of the many challenges involved. I’m also damaged in one way or another, I’ve had past relationships, non-relationships, flings, and *I don’t know what this is* that are both good and bad, I want to make money or a living, I’m also scared of getting into defined things, I’m scared of getting damaged again, I’m scared of heart breaks who isn’t?. BUT it remains that if I want something I will make it clear that that’s what I want and brush those fears aside and go for it, and tackle the fears again if they ever arise.

So in the same light, I would expect a man to know what it is they want actually from the time they approach you and decided you know what, I like you.  Despite your fears and what you want to do first, you still know what it is you want and you should go for it. If you don’t, it’s because that’s just not it for you and so there all this excuses to sugar coat the actual thing.

Back to my sign, so I’ve decided to make a vow with myself (i.e. my mind, my feelings, my heart, my emotions) that from today, I am done with the punks *Hi 5* no more stupid flings that are going no where, no more unnecessary emotional roller-coasters, no more undefined relations. Basically boundaries need to be drawn so God please help. Now to reserve the rest for that guy! That’s a HUGE LOAD off my small chest literally…lol *breathes out fresh air*

Considering I’m an all love person, my friends shall remain loved equally. No, I’m not ditching, deleting or terminating anyone, y’all play different roles in making my life all worth living.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

This ↓ totally made my day…

There are three possible parts to a date, of which at least two must be offered: Entertainment, Food, and Affection.

• It is customary to begin a series of dates with a great deal of entertainment, a moderate amount of food, and the merest suggestion of affection.
• As the amount of affection increases, the entertainment can be reduced proportionately.
• When the affection IS the entertainment, we no longer call it dating.

Under no circumstances can the food be omitted. ~ Judith Martin

True, ain’t it? LOL

ION, you can try watch this video especially if you stay alone and you love your sleep. Only watched to the spider bit, I’ll watch the rest tomorrow…hehehe!

Okay back to reading, which was the initial plan when I switched on my computer … night night, sleep sweet!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

This and That

This –> The moving was pretty successful, for those who are interested in knowing now that I whined and whined about it on the last TGIF post…he he but it’s allowed once in a while…no? All in all I got the smooth weekend I prayed for, so I really thank God for that. Now I’m settled once again and I hope and pray to have long and pleasant stay in my new pad.

That –> Through my usual rounds in the internet, yeah, I like taking walks and checking out the scenery and what the world has to offer. I came across a certain random post. You know one of those you read and you’re like, words straight from my mind. Not how I would say it because structuring it would be a bit of an issue. But whoever wrote this couldn’t have said it any better.

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: ‘What kind of man are you looking for?’ She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, ‘Do you really want to know?’ Reluctantly, he said, ‘Yes.’ She began to expound, As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can’t for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’ The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought & stated, ‘ I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life. He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain. She said, ‘I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked – believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man. I need a man who is family oriented. One who can be the leader and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God. I need someone whom I can respect.

In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, he just has to be worthy. And by the way, I am not looking for him … He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help him self.

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, ‘You are asking a lot?! She replied, “I’m worth a lot” ~ unknown author

So what do you think about this? Is it too much to ask for? Because I’m pretty sure we are all in one way or another you probably wouldn’t want to admit it looking for that companion who knows, respects and matches our worth and each of us is worth a lot.

And in other non-related news, now that it’s a little of everything, sometimes you say things to encourage people not knowing that you will have to encourage yourself with the same words…he he! That was me over the weekend, you know those moments you just say ‘close your eyes, clear your heart and just let it go’ on this post…I did exactly that. Some things are not really worth creating a roar with someone who could be your mother especially material stuff. I say, ‘you lose some, you gain some’, that’s how life is. I believe in one way or another I’ll get much more than what I lost.

I love it when the world is in cahoots with you. You know, arranging itself in such a way that you don’t struggle in a circumstance which if that didn’t happen you would’ve had it rough. I think that’s what happened to me this weekend. Some random coincidences, some friends who I will always cling to, life does teach you. The next time my friend mentions they need help with ‘simple things’ like moving houses, I will try my best to help even if it’s just sitting there chatting them up. That was what really kept me sane, clearly I’m now all back to smiley, smiley.

To a super blessed and fruitful week!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Like You? Would You?

 

Has this ever crossed your mind -> What if you were told to go on a date with yourself? Do you think you would like you? Would you enjoy your company or would you feel like forcing a fork down your throat because of how bored you’ll get. Maybe it’s about time you experienced what your friends have to go through *evil grin*

Test it and see how that goes. You know the full cuppa hot chocolate since I’m not a tea fan, with cookies and an imaginary you. Okay, that sounds cray but hey how else will you do it. It’s not every day that people are going to be there for you, you know the ones that you think that will always be there. I mean they also have their stuff going on.

So you should be able to be there for yourself and not pity yourself when people those people you count on are not there? For whatever reasons you have to learn this things the hard way, pretty sure it’s happened to you one time or another. It’s happened to me a dozen of times. The times you expect people to be there it could be on your birthday, when you’re going through ish or you’re just happy and you want to share … they could also be all up in their business too and guess who’s left to be there for you? YOU.

You have to find the joy inside of yourself. Make your self laugh, dress up, be able to just chill out, reflect, be in touch with yourself, know how to love you. Basically be there for yourself. For only then, will you be able to know how to be there for others and it’s importance. Difficult as it seems, yes it is, it’s much fun or so it seems when you have someone or people there to help you out, to chill with, have a good laugh with but what if they are not there. Sulk? Be sad? No! Be happy and go on as usual!

“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.” ~  Lucille Ball

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

This L.O.V.E Thing

This L.O.V.E thing

What do you mean when you say it?

Where does it come from?

What faculty registers it?

How do you say it?

When is the right time to say it?

Who do you say it to?

Do they appreciate it when you say it?

What do you feel when you have love?

Well, this love has a way of making you question everything. The who, what, when, where, how? In my view, love is supposed to be unconditional, it’s not supposed to arouse doubt. You don’t really have to say it for one to know that you love them, sometimes it’s all in the actions more than in the words. Saying it is just a form of affirmation, to make known what is already known and felt.

My reference for love is always the bible. That’s the definition of love that makes the most sense, it’s what I like relating to.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love ~ 1st Corinthians 13:13

Don’t we all look love directly or indirectly from our family, friends, spouses? Yes, it does make your world go round, believe it or not. So embrace it everyday after all even God is love. Don’t be embarrassed or ashamed to love, I think it’s a pretty admirable quality.

Now that my friend sent me this, that’s what we are celebrating today *insert cheeky grin* it’s never that serious. I mean not all of us have ‘valentine dates’ so we might as well embrace the situation…lol

Song of the day

Is’n't Toya DeLazy just amazing! That’s my psyche song for the day —–> “The more I know, the more I grow cause life is beautiful I don’t regret this road. I’ve lived to know one life, one love, one flow you just gotta know. You know this life can crush your goals you gotta know you’re not alone. It’s in your mind you jail your soul fly free and live life”

Quote of the day

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails” ~ 1 Corinthians 13:4

Okay let me just suck it up. Happy Valentines *choke* Day to all my people, said with lot’s L.O.V.E … xo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

You’ve got to be kidding…

It’s amusing how our lives are alike, more like ‘same script different cast’. Has your friend ever told you a story and you go, ‘you’ve got to be kidding, me too’. The same thing they have been through, you have also been through just in a different setting and with different people. I tend to think that’s how life is, that’s how it teaches you lessons. It’s like trying to tell you, ‘you aren’t alone in this’, so get yourself together and try to do something different this time round. Worse yet, if it’s something that’s beyond your control then there’s some sense of consolation that there’s someone else who understands and knows exactly how it feels or can basically relate with you in regards to the matter.

I know right! Quite awkward but interesting all together. Such is life, and I think that’s the purpose and essence of acquaintances, friends and mentors. Something is really nagging you? You’re dying to tell someone something? Just go spill it out of course to a trusted deposit and what you should withdraw from them should be something that’s of worth. It could be just a listening ear or it could be them having been in a similar situation and telling you how they went about it or them helping you out.

This relations that we build with people are synonymous to making investments. With an investment you always want more, and as a result even from your relations you always want the outcome to be more than your input … right?  Then again there are different kinds of investments on different levels. So based on the one that you embark on you can determine what kind of returns you should be expecting.

Well to say the truth, I’m the kind of person who doesn’t know how to follow-up with some investments. Pretty bad trait, now that I actually put much thought of it I think 25 is doing things to me. An investments needs to be taken care of, to be nurtured, to be checked up on every so often so to know the time to ‘strike while the iron is hot’ so that you can make profits and benefit greatly from it. And it’s not all the time that things are going well, considering certain factors, there’s the good times and the bad times. Good investors however, always strive for the good, so they work through the bad times to make some magic.

Well, to say the least, I’m not a fighter especially for boy-girl relationships at least up until I thought about this … I give up easily. For other-non related things, I am patient, persevering through the good and the bad. So for the ‘very cliché question’ why I’m still … umm let me sugar coat it, not really seeing someone, that could be the sole reason. I’m always running away or just silently slipping off without even noticing it … Okay, that’s a lie. I do notice, just that there’s nothing much I can do about it …sure there is but I don’t… so I just let it slide.

Seeing as I hate insisting on stuff especially people, when I feel like I’m insisting or I feel detached I sit my beautiful tush down and do what I do best, let it slide or just think, ‘whoever is not just that into you’. Very bad trait yah! okay don’t say. Now that I have noticed, I should work on it, I’m trying *insert cheeky grin* because everything including that needs to be fought for or at least be given a chance or the light of day. Is there someone else saying ‘you’ve got to be kidding, me too’ and you’ve probably overcome the situation? Maybe you can share how it’s done … lol (seriously though).

All in all, I do appreciate everyone who has played a role in my life in one way or another, if you know me, you know I never take such for granted even the cleaning lady. However, that serious one that includes, love, heart breaks and a mixture of a million emotions … Yikes! God help.

Hope your week has been fruitful? But damn, it’s really flying … I wonder to where to.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Dandy December

Have you ever had an picture but you don’t have a story, or maybe you have a story but you don’t know how to put it down, but you still want to have it up. Oh well, that’s me today. I have had this picture for the longest time and I’ve always wondered how to use it. So it’s being lying in my blog pics folder and I just keep wondering, “Picture, I really want to use you … but how, when, at least I know where”

November was that month for me that can be best described by the royal tears. Funny enough as mentioned earlier, I’m a natural crier … lol but this month anything that got me anywhere close to crying would get a “really?”, or “No ,you’re not!” or “Not now”. From the loss of my uncle, to ‘minor’ heart breaks, too much to handle, home-sickness, loneliness, boredom, just because.

All in all, if there’s one thing about me, is that I’m an optimist. There’s always a reason for everything including those stupid decision made in one case or another which I think everyone does. What matters is what lessons you learn at the end of them all. However, the most important is not to forget to thank God for the blessings too, because failure to see those, you don’t see the beauty of life.

November Lessons 

• Life is short. It doesn’t matter how old you are, the impact is still the same.
• Open your eyes, use your brains and protect your heart.
• Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious.
• It could have been worse
• Learn from every mistake and think about it over and over, so that the next time you’re about to repeat it, you feel stupid.
• If you fall and stumble, don’t let it get you. Let it be your inspiration.
• There are friends for a reason, a season and a lifetime. Accept that and move on or move in.
• If you’re not supposed to be in it, then it won’t work out. I think it’s the way of the universe giving you hints.
• Whatever you do, if it comes from your heart, then all is good. If it fails, chances are that you won’t regret it.
• Actions speak louder than words.
• Life is what you make of it, smile with the world it smiles back at you … frown at it, it will most definitely frown back at you.
• Whatever happens to you, just know you’re not the first nor the last. It always gets better eventually. I don’t know how but somehow it does.
• Lastly,

November Blessings

• Life and life in abundance – Good health, beautiful person in and out.
• My family is my number one supporter.
• Awesome friends, who are there for you, who think of you, who check up on you.
• People who think the world of you.
• I’m able to juggle work and school, it’s crazy I say.
• Fun photo-shoot ( here and here ), fun coast trip.  Plus it had been a while since I swam, that was a blissful moment, should do it more often.
• I enjoy what I do … makes waking up in the morning much easier.
• Awesome colleagues.
• Good music – for what would we do without music? It speaks to me. When no one else knows what to say when to say, music does.
• The ability to express myself in writing.
• For being me … I’m social, smiley, loving and I pray nothing changes who I am. It makes everything much much easy.

December is here

So let’s see … December, December, December. It’s come along so fast … jeez! I ain’t complaining, but you know it’s the indicator that the year has come to an end. Any how, it’s also that month that comes with goodies and fun times. Plus at least 3/4 of the people are usually happy, in a holiday and party mood including our bosses *wink*.

Now since it’s finally here, I might as well get into the December program, though I technically don’t have one. What’s with everyone asking what I have planned for Christmas? Am I the only one who never has anything planned? Other than being at home of course, its standard procedure … tihihi

I love that the month is fresh … feels like I’m letting out my spanking new self and here goes my ↓

December Expectation

• Be much smarter – I think the year has had enough lessons on me, now it’s about time I gave back the lessons learnt.
• Finish my exams – Oh my I can’t wait. Still getting used to the whole “Back To School” set up.
• Have fun fun fun – That’s the standard procedure for December, wherever I am, whatever I do … just make sure it’s fun even if it’s sleeping.
• Be a bit random, crash parties, visit people and places, basically ↑
• Make my family and friends happy, have a laugh , catch up – It’s goodie goodie month. Oh, the excitement.

Quote of the day

Someday is why we never say never. It’s the reason we never give up, the reason we never give in. It’s a place in our hearts that can’t be broken, where our dreams always come true and the moment we’ll never let go ~ Justin Bieber

To a Dandy December full of laughter and lots of love! Just the way it’s supposed to be. God Bless Ya’ll … xo!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Yes, I’m a Girl

So I was doing my blog whoring here and there. Sometimes I just follow links from one blog to another looking for interesting reads. Some which I can relate to, others I can learn from, others I can critic but not loudly, others make me laugh and I’m sure to bookmark them. I am easy to please, so some become my favorites and every now and then I go back.

There’s this poem like thing going round the internet, “Yes, I’m a girl”. Actually saw it at this blog and later in some fan pages. It totally got me, because from the 1st to last, that’s so me.

Yes, I’m a girl.

I push doors that clearly say pull.

I laugh harder when I try to explain why i’m laughing.

I walk into a room and forget why I was there.

I count on my fingers in maths.

I hide the pain from my loved ones.

I say it is a long story when it’s really not.

I cry a lot more than you think I do.

I try to do things before the microwave beeps.

I listen to you when you don’t listen to me.

And a hug will always help.

Yes, I am a girl

Then after reading, of course I felt like adding others in as much as I thought what’s said basically sums it all up … but being a girl, there’s always much more … lol

Yes, I’m a girl

I ask why even when I know the reason

I say “it’s okay” when it’s really not okay

I say give me a minute when I actually mean 15 minutes or more

I stare at my wardrobe for ages before deciding what to wear

I blubber when excited and keep quiet when sad

I think and act with my heart

My brain comes into play when it’s a bit too late

I say I don’t know when I actually know

The smallest of things get to me

I can go from normal to not so normal in a few seconds

I read manuals because I’m clueless

I wait for you to call me or text me first

I keep checking my phone or waiting for a beep once I click ‘send’

I hide behind my colors

If I forget, it was not out of choice

Sometimes I don’t say what I mean, but I mean what I say it’s supposed to confuse you

I have a lot running through my head

I cannot capture my thoughts in a simple sentence

Sometimes just a hug and a smiley face will do

Love makes my world go round

Yes, I’m a girl

Quote of the day

Hope the week is fairing well? Don’t forget to give thanks for the blessings seen and unseen.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Random Snippets

Courtesy of Native Pics

Photo Credits

Yes, I have always wanted to have a picture like this one! Speaks loads about me and I got one @KevDaNative to capture it. If that’s the much fun people have on this random shoots I wouldn’t mind doing one every fortnight *hint hint*.  So @Swambi and I had 3 photographers at our disposal. You know it’s only once in a life time you can get so much undivided attention from three handsome men at the same time. We were so over the skies there were no roofs. Here’s just but a few of the ones we took on Kev’s blog. More to come up, his words, “There will be two more posts from this shoot”, now I’m over the roof.

Daughtry’s album is out *Break The Spell* and I have already over-played it. I’m in love with all the songs in the album. That’s happened to all the others that I have of them. I think they are the only band who I have managed to listen to all the songs in the album and bump my head to them there’s no bad one. Okay maybe I’m biased … but you’ve got to love their music. They always speak to me. I know, the excitement! Thanks to the ones who gave me heads up on this, it’s usually the role of my baby sister … so now you deserve a hi ever day @Theycallmebiggy and @wiselar. Plus you get a mention on my blog, that’s a big thing you know.

Want to listen to the music here’s the link : Click me NOW . Thank me later … Sharing is caring!

My favorite is “Start of Something Good” —> Do I love it or do I love it … definitely love it!

Last but not least, sad news. I lost my dear uncle who’s basically like my second Dad. If there’s one thing you don’t know about me is that I have got nothing but love for my family. So seeing my aunt and cousins sad and imagining that my uncle is no more is just depressing. But hey, it’s God who gives and he’s still the one who takes. So he has his reason as to why he chose to bring him to our lives in the first place and take him from us right now. The best I can do is just be there for my family and always love them unconditionally.

A bit about my uncle, I lived with them a bit for some years when I was younger I think between 3 – 5 years. He spoilt us rotten and treated me like his own. He’s the one who introduced me to all the foreign foods (pizza and what not), how to eat with a fork and knife, going to the sports club and all the fun stuff. They used to tag me along even when I went back home. I was an only kid till I was 8yrs, so my cousins played the brother and sister role very well, they still do … sleep overs and the likes … cartoons, games when were young. Growing up kind of got into the way, school, work, distances … maen! and time is so scarce. The one thing I loved about him is that he always used to hug all of us and give us a kiss on the cheek every single day I lived with them and visited them, he made you feel loved.

It’s not dawned on me that he’s gone, but I hope it comes on lightly. I would love to just understand and accept without feeling so sad or thinking deeply into it. Pray for comfort and strength for our family.

Otherwise … lol, that’s so Kenyan! Can’t go off without the quote of the day.

God bless ya’ll. To living, loving and laughing. Have a Wonderful Wednesday … even the weather is smiling at you, so be sure to smile back yah!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

The Chronicles of Kawi

I know you were expecting some BIG news, but errrm! Here goes *drum rolls* My interest in relationships and things related has significantly decreased  by a very large percentage. Why? Because that person you want doesn’t want you back and that person who wants you, you’re probably not interested. So you know what happens, we just settle! You settle with someone who bores you to death or doesn’t really tickle your fancy or doesn’t get you or you don’t get them or they make you depressed or uncomfortable half the time.

In short, I think relationships are overrated! Maybe I’m among the people who overrate it…lol. The thought of it now gives me the creeps because the little that I expect always seems too much. Here’s what I expect:

• To love and be loved back  - It’s an encapsulation where there are other things included but I don’t want to make them so apparent.
• Exclusivity – this is the only case where sharing is not caring.
• Respect – it’s a two-way thing. You respect me, I give you back mad respect and maybe a litto bit submission too *wink*
• Don’t pretend – so that just in case you’re weird I can jump out fast … lol #justkidding
• Be focused – You’re the man, I would expect you to be way better off than me

What I don’t expect:

• Someone to be all up in my space – some guys become too much , if you know what I mean. Texts and calls every second, eish! Even 3 times a day that being a number just off the top of my head, depends on how you relate  is good enough, I can give you a thumbs up for that, at least I’ll know you still care and I’ll reciprocate…hehe
• Insecurity – Why oh why would you be in the first place?
• Change in character once you start dating – Hmmm! just don’t pretend.
• Weirdness and discomfort – Now this is just bad … MJ bad.

These are a few of my favorite things *cue sound of music*,  and read few, but so far the most important. The rest can align themselves around these ones. Sadly, you cannot really get what you want, I hope that’s just for want. I hope it doesn’t creep in on the need too. I think I’ve kissed way too many frogs for my own good, now I’ll just wait for prince charming. Yikes! Just remembered that prince charming was also a frog…puh!

I am an optimist by nature, so in as much as I sound like I’ve given up on this venture, maybe I really haven’t. There’s that 5% remaining, and that’s BIG! No? Sometimes I wish I had just gotten into this things when I was young and naïve (which I did by the way) and stuck to the same person even through the drama, when you become knowledgeable it eats you up because now you know what you want, what you deserve, what you need, who you want to be with and those other things that makes you feel like a smart a**.

So I read this somewhere

I swear by a quote from Andrew Carnegie which states, “As I grow older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do.” If a person says they like, love, and/or care about you that’s great. Do their actions back up their claims? If so, that’s perfect! If not, take a step back and evaluate your relationship. —> See! Growing up does things to you.

Last but not least … Married folks, please make marriage look like bliss, that’s what I always thought of it. I still need to think of it like that so that I can aspire to get there. Problem is that you keep puncturing my marriage balloon (Yes, I had one that was fully inflated), but the more I see married men hitting in us young girls, the more you just make me think my future husband will be doing the same and the balloon is deflating at a fast rate. At least you had your piece of the cake without being told how yuck or yummy it is, now let us also have our piece without knowing the ingredients, the best you could do is make it look yumm!

I’m on Team Kawi all together, she oozes of awesomeness…yes? Don’t you wish you could stay by yourself and not get lonely? If only it was humanly possible, that would be uber cool, but it’s not!

Note to self

I hope Monday is taking you well? Funny enough this is an awesome Monday. No blues expect for the sky.  Then the number of assignments that I have to hand in this week and the next week, plus read for exams *pouts* , let’s just say this masters will the end of me and education.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Of Signs, Love and Life

Random thought : Do you ever think that God sometimes has some serious laughing moments when he listens to our thoughts?

Now, now, now where to begin! This is one of those posts I have been wanting to write for the longest time but I never know exactly how to. I know you’re probably wondering why, well, that’s because it’s about life, love and the irky relationships. If you’ve read my post before, you probably know that I’m one of those people who’s big on relationships and love, but umm not any more.

I have just come to the conclusion that I don’t understand the whole concept of relationships and chances are that I was probably not cut out for it, but since I most definitely don’t want to be a nun or celibate, I will need to figure it out some day *read sooner than later*. You know how sometimes you want to try figure yourself out without having to ask others, yeah, that’s was an epiphany I had, now that sometimes my mind is usually on an overdrive.

Ever heard of the zodiac signs?

The signs of the Zodiac can give us great insights into our day to day living as well as the many talents and special qualities we posses where you can discover a great deal of relevant information about yourself, get to know things like why you are so attached to your possessions or why you are so emotional and so on.

You can also learn as much as you can about the traits of the different sun signs and make your life flow smoother because you understand the motives behind Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra , Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius and Pisces. In case you didn’t know there are 12 of them.

The funniest thing is that I used to think that these zodiac signs are the most stupid things ever. Until I grew up I got myself reading through my dear zodiac sign, Aquarius! And 3/4 if not all the things I was reading I was left in awe because that’s so me, I was like this O_O the whole time. Of course there’s those one or two things where I’m a bit different thanks to factors such as family, background, experience and so on. Then I started reading others peoples signs and I’m like, “Jeez! If I had read this stuff before”. Then I would know what I am getting myself into when dating or befriending some people and maybe it would’ve been much much easier than it was.

And the more I read them, the more I’m like how do people with such different traits even manage to be together … It’s just depressing. You know how a person whose a loner “ingoing” dates someone who’s outgoing … And the loner wants time to themselves and this other one wants to hang out with the loner (of course it would end up being annoying for both) or if it’s two loners then they’ll stay apart because they all want to be alone, if it’s two outgoing guys then there’s going to definitely be something wrong somewhere because there needs to be one who’s a bit relaxed (I’m just guessing) … see why I say I don’t get this! This is just one very random complex example.

Hahaha *evil grin* So of late I’ve been asking my friends their birthday dates or for the ones that I know, I have checked out some of their traits from the zodiac signs and guess what … some are totally matching *scary huh* but what’s better than having an idea of what you should be expecting from people? Maybe it will make disappointment easier to handle, or at least you will know what it is about them that’s going to disappoint you or make you happy and if your traits and theirs can at least get along and if not, what you need to do to compromise like be more persistent, more patient and stuff like that.

Anyway since I can’t keep running away forever, I’ll have to learn how to deal with the “completely opposite to me” people, dealing with disappointments. Considering I also have flaws, as much as I’m running from certain disappointments, I could also be a disappointment to someone … tihihi! I don’t want to grow old and alone, that’s pretty boring so can this fairy tales we used to watch when we were young just happen … Kiss a frog and it turns into a prince or the knight in shinning armor comes to save this damsel in distress. If wishes were horses, clearly weaves would be non-existent and they definitely aren’t *snaps back to reality*.

QUOTES OF THE DAY  got to be a bit positive you know :p 

“Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.”

“We think there is always a tomorrow, so why expose our feelings today? Why risk being vulnerable? Why take the chance? Because today, what we love, what we feel, what is real, is what we have. Tomorrow, it may all change.”

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*