Random Mumblings

If it were you…but it’s not, lucky you.

Would you go to school with this lousy weather?

I went to to school with that lousy weather.

Would you brave the rain just to attend the lecture?

The rain had ceased, so there was nothing to brave really…lol

Would you find it worth the try, the traffic, the wetness, the process of getting there?

It wasn’t that worth it, but the process was smooth, not as complicated that I’d thought it out to be.

Would you go to that class thinking you should have just gone home?

The traffic was a mess, plus it was muddy. So not really.

Would you enjoy the class?

Yesterdays lecturer can be a pain, but I enjoyed discussing politics and servant leadership in organisations and relating it to Kenya (we are so messed up it’s frightening.)

Would you regret choosing that option?

I didn’t regret it, at least it kept me busy and dry

That’s what running through my mind before and after class. I don’t really feel like going to school and the rain happens to be the perfect excuse right about now but it happened to stop. As I battle with my thoughts which are definitely biased towards going home, let’s see how this one goes. My conscience was killing me so I ended up in school. I’m one of those good girls most of the time…lol

Well, with life comes choices which we should firmly stand by once chosen. You own it. You own your choices, so it make sense to think through them. Trying to see if my answers to any of those questions makes enough sense to support the decision I make. You’ve seen what I did there? Not answering this question is too main stream. I saw what I did there, the answers to support going home didn’t add up, ended up feeling guilty and I needed to own my decision. School it was eventually (better late than never).

Hope your week is going well so far despite the almost predictable lousy weather. Dress warm and be fuzzy to deal. Have a tamu *sweet* Wednesday!

Mines more than awesome. Was on some “gourmet” dinner (*something* turkey and rice with a glass of cold ribena) thanks to him who’s a supper chef. Yummers!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Weird Girliness

Tis the end of the Octo month, but not the end of creating awareness on cancer and how it can be detected early. Let’s not take these things for granted, I know I also forget. Though, the more we talk about it, it acts as a reminder to many.

It’s Halloween too and am sure enough most of us me included don’t really know what it’s all about. Except the part where there are lots of pumpkins, costume parties, scary stories and the best of all, lots and lots of candy from trick-or-treating. All thanks to movies. That’s one of the main reasons I would love to be where they celebrate. I would probably just dress up like a kid and do kiddy things like go trick-or-treating. A few years ago one of my cousins visited us right after Halloween and she brought us a whole months supply of candy. Am talking mars, snickers, m&m’s, haribo’s and the likes…yumminess galore! (A shout out to Wanja, I still recall).

Halloween is not a culture that’s adopted here, in Kenya I mean. So I won’t even go into it. For us, it’s just another day to be on the grind and hustle. No parties, no candy but there’s always a constant supply of scary stories…lol.

Well, maybe I could take this opportunity to tell you 3 things that I think make me a weirdo girly girl. You know those things that would make you think you’re a girl so you should be into them like the way it’s supposed to be, but I am not.

1. Nail Polish

I have never understood girls obsession with nail polish, this includes my baby sister. I have never been into it, but I have tried to force the trend. I even go ahead and buy the polish that’s in it. Spend between KES 300 – 500 on some good polish and it goes stays on my dresser for a while, say until my sister comes over and does her nails.

I am patient, but I don’t extend my patience to waiting for the polish to dry.

I do lots of miscellaneous housework that involves touching water so I prefer plain trim nails. If the hairdresser insist, I do the colorless polish. I hate how polish looks good when you apply it then smudges, scratches or chips after a few hours or days. That means removing and reapplying … Ai! No need.

2. Make-Up

I just can’t. I have not really tried it on a regular day, say once I tried mascara, which was a massive fail because that means I couldn’t touch or “itch” my eyes. Another thing is, how I dress up in 15-30 mins or less depending on how much I snooze, make up would mean I have to wake up earlier or else it would be Halloween everyday…lol. Or maybe am not yet grown up enough, nothing to conceal, I don’t know. The only time I attempted make up was at my cousin’s wedding, which am sure I’d wiped off by the time the occasion began. Lip-gloss is enough make up for me.

3. Shopping

Yes, it’s retail therapy, ooh some gooood therapy so to say! However, I am more of an impulse buyer than a planned and organised shopper. Every time I plan to go shopping, unless I have involved a dedicated shopper in my plan, that plan goes undone. I do it out of dire need or desperation (I was avoiding that word), but really when I’m like, “I really need shoes or  a coat or …” then I have to go search. In which case, I don’t go looking around much, I probably have a place in mind. It’s like I have some sort of telepathy with whatever it is I want, I don’t have to search long and hard, I just come across it.

Some inspiration for the day. Ooh almost forgot to mention, I love color. At least that one cancels off some weirdo-ness no?

 

Have a beautiful end of month. Take someone out for some shake and cake, scrape off that crave.

Signing Off ~~~ Kawi

A Lil’ Random

Well, totally depsyched to do the TGIF thingie today. Youtube was blocked…oh and facebook…and anything else that’s under the ‘dating and matrimony’ or ‘entertainment’ *laugh at me now*. Why do they do that, I just listen to music, not watch the videos and I try not to misuse facebook and I bet am a nice employee by all means *sob sob*. Anyhow, now am stuck to songs on my iPod, getting in touch with my kind once again. There must be a reason I (or my baby sister) populated the library, thank God, so am just getting accustomed to it.

In the same spirit, I’ll do things differently. Like an ‘I wish upon a little star’ kind of thing. Remember the Disney song,

“…When you wish upon a star /Makes no difference who you are / Anything your heart desires / Will come to you / If your heart is in your dream / No request is too extreme / When you wish upon a star /As dreamers do / Fate is kind / She brings to those who love / The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing / Like a bolt out of the blue / Fate steps in and sees you through / When you wish upon a star / Your dreams come true…”

When it rains and you don’t want the rain to reach to you, when you wish there were umbrella’s covering all your paths or you were just in the mood to dance in the rain and have no care if you got wet, cold or caught a flu. That’s me speaking in parables right there, but you can just take the surface meaning, I mean that too.

Some random thoughts, wishes, tell-a-tale … just something writable.

Getting to understand someone else who is not you and you want a life together, making some decision together, considering them in whatever you do and so on, is the most ‘roller-coaster-y’ ride ever. Let’s just say there’s times you’re on a high and there’s times you’re on a low and there’s times you’re just easy like on normal level. You have to contain all those moments and at the end of the day be happy with the world. That my dear friends, is what a relationship is, and this is just theory…lol. You just need two people who always want to work it out, that’s what it is.

On that note my parents celebrated their 28th wedding anniversary on 1st September *whoop whoop*. They are my living proof that two people who are completely different can be there for each other and with each other for that long. Through basically everything.

We all have weaknesses no?I bet it’s something we can’t avoid. It’s something that other people won’t like in us or something even we don’t like in ourselves. What if we worked on those weaknesses and either turned them into strengths or found a way in which they can work to our advantage.

I saw some really HOT bag sometime ago and I’ve been really thinking about it you know at the back of my head, then I was like, I’ll just give it time and when I go check again and it’s still there, then it’s really meant to be mine. Today over lunch, I went to check it out as a by the way just to show my friend and guess what? It was still there. The universe is speaking to me, plus the price was lesser and am planning to bargain for lesser than lesser…hehe

I am starting my thesis this semester *cringe* am at that point where you come up with your topic and select a supervisor. So by the end of this semester I need to have a proposal and defend it *cringe again*. I hope and wish that it’ll be a swish for me and I’ll make a killer proposal and that I finish the whole thing in due time.

I wish we were we given the freedom to come up with our own language or lingo, because I pretty much make up my own weird words. It makes whatever am saying sound more interesting. It’s like adding sugar and spice to the words that flow out of my mind and through my mouth and fingers…am that culprit and am less guilty.

Word are just that, words. Actions are what determine if the words have meaning. Although words also make or break, so just be ware of what you say, to whom you say it to and when you say it. Like they say, there’s a time for everything. I’m learning to hold my tongue in cheek when I am about to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I’m one of those people who just says because it needs to be said without much care I must have gotten that from my dad…lol.

Sometime I feel like am the worst friend, am I the only one who’s bad in keeping in touch? Someone please console me. I do try though. It doesn’t help that also communicating with people is not my forte. Ps: that when I am physically there with people am like AWESOME ha ha but emails, chats, texts someone shoot me or maybe just call me. I need to style up and be all rounded, right? Anyway, I’m working on that.

Thanking God for who I am and all I’ve got. There are some people who pray for just a portion of what you have and you just don’t know, so don’t take anything for granted.

“’Thank you’ is the best prayer that anyone could say. I say that one a lot. Thank you expresses extreme gratitude, humility, understanding” ~ Alice Walker

Enough of exposing myself. It’s a super day, so Thank God It’s Friday. Despite no Youtube, the song of the day courtesy of the iPod is :  Nick Lachley – What’s Left of Me, I love! Ps: I hope the link I’ve put is the right one, I just googled it.

Quote of the day

And as usual, have an awesome one full of living, loving and laughing. No sad faces, okay, just gotten instant psyche, coffee has nothing on it. Be blessed!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Closing This, Opening Those

Oh well, something to make my Monday a little more interesting. Yes, as you know it’s in my nature to make Monday yellow yellow and kill all the blues that present themselves today. I mean, I need to write a post to mark some days like today and how I’m taking a big step.

You’ve probably seen me saying it feels like closing day. Yes, it really does feel like it. Only thing missing is a pack of cards, some snacks and you know how it was when it was closing day back in primary and high school. The excitements and all thinking I have never gone through this before and I don’t know what I am supposed to expect. Good thing is that there’s always a first time for everything. This is my very first to serve a full notice to the end and for a job I loved to bits. It’s quite the experience I must say. Ups and downs, but most of all regardless of the that, it’s been a good experience. One that I’ll look back and I’ll be able to give someone a piece of advice.

So, it’s my last day being online content editor for rupu, yup! Been here for almost 2 years now (1 year 8 months to be exact) and lets say they are the ones who have molded me to be who I am today. It’s an amazing thing to see a platform be given birth to, take care of  it as it grows up, and while at it be at the top of the game. If that’s how nannys feel when they see us (the kids they took care of) all grown up after wiping off poop, bathing us, feeding us, teaching us and what not … then it’s such a fulfilling feeling.

So the final one month wasn’t exactly the easiest of my months. Oh my! I’ve experienced many moments, from the beginning where I actually handed in my resignation letter to the last day. Could that be the reason it’s standard that you have to give at least one month notice. It’s a reality check month, it’s a roller coaster of your feelings. At one point you’re here *points top* then next thing you know you’re there *points bottom* and it’s a cycle. You actually get to learn people, your colleagues through the good and the bad, this one is the bad, because you’re actually leaving them, more like dumping your spouse. Resigning from an organisation is not the easiest thing one could do. It bites, it makes you wonder what the others are saying, if they are happy for you, if you’re doing the right thing, if you’re headed in the right direction and other related thoughts.

However, this is in my own honest opinion. If I have a person who’s resigning in my department/organisation and moving to wherever I would be sincerely happy for them. It shows that they are still of relevance, that you added value to them. Well, that’s what the few organisations I have worked with have done. They have added value to me and I’m super grateful that I worked with them, I will carry that knowledge they’ve impacted in me everywhere I go. After all that’s what life is about – ‘live, learn and apply’. And now my former colleagues are part of my life in one way or another. I would love to meet them and catch up, buy them a drink or vice versa, be invited for stuff, give them business and so on.

Anywhoo, so that’s wassup! So in the midst of all that, let me do something humorous at least. Too much seriousness is not good for me today  So there’s this thing called “Not Me Mondays”, stolen the concept from some random blog I happened to see, I think it must’ve been a post from the link below the image above. It’s where you’re just brutally honest, tell it, then you deny it. I think she must’ve gotten it from “Shaggy’s – It wasn’t me” song. Here’s how I got it, let’s give it a try with 5 for starters and see if I have my hand at it.

• The alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn’t just snooze it and wake up 1 hour later. I mean I would never, never ever…lol
• That guy who was about to splash on my some puddle water while I was walking to work, that guy hmmm! I didn’t throw imaginary daggers at him, if looks could kill, but nah, that wasn’t me.
• The guy in a BMW who was picking his nose like he wanted to remove his brains via his nostrils O_O. I didn’t even judge him and think, who does that on traffic. Yuck! But no, that wasn’t me.
• I’m not that girl wishing that closing day at work could have been a little more interesting, nah not at all. Disclaimer: I’ll make it exciting after I’m out. Now that I have one week of bumming *yaaay* Meeh if only school was also on break, I could take a trip or something. No I’m not the one wishing that.
• I’m not even so overly smitten *swoon* over a certain mister mister, butterflies, giggles e.t.c. I mean, how now? LOL (that’s for another day, I know you’re thinking, suspense is good continue thinking)

Ha ha so how did it go? I think I should do it more often. That being besides the point, cheers to new beginnings, as I swim in new waters, the unknown, yes, new in every essence of it. Quite a couple of new chapters in my life actually, this should get interesting. Just gotten off my comfort zone. And for every ending, there’s always a new beginning. This is mine, as I close this and open those *cheers*

Have a super week lovely readers, one full of positiveness and awesomeness. Be blessed!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Monday Yellows *T.G.I.M*

Shift your perception of Monday mornings. Thank God It’s Monday, just like we do Fridays no? . As I have shamlessly stolen the excerpt from from some blog post. It passed the message to me, just what I needed to read and because I care for my readers much *this is the part where you smile sheepishly* I thought to share it with you so that you can also try look at Monday from a different angle. More from the yellow side, not the convectional blue. You get me yah!

“Look forward to the new week as an opportunity for growth, as a chance to add motivation to your purpose and invigorate your passion with a newfound vitality.  Tuesday, do the work.  Wednesday, make sure that your work is fresh and exciting.  Thursday,  you can help another person with something they are struggling with, something that you’re in a unique position to help them with.  Friday, look at what you’ve done, finish what needs to be finished, and TGIF, making sure that three days later, you don’t forget to TGIM.”~ Credits. You can read the rest there, and maybe try out the challenge as well.

How do you make today special?  How do you look forward to the present? (I’ll probably think about this and start out the challenge, it seems interesting. Gives you more reason why your days shouldn’t be as dull as today’s weather…meeeh! The sun needs to come out *brrrrr*)

Super week to y’all and blessings!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Monday, Oh Monday!

I know it’s Monday. That day we’re not so fond of especially when your alarm goes off in the morning and you think, “It’s morning already, feels like the night just flew by.” You’re already used to sleeping in till late over the weekend and now you’re back to the weekly routine. To make it worse,  you have 4 more days of that same exhausting routine. That’s why Monday feels so blue. Maybe we can look at it from the perspective that we have 4 more days to make things happen, make a difference in the world, then a weekend to celebrate the happenings, and it becomes a cycle. Then Monday’s will not be such cursed days after all. If I was good in Photoshop (which I need to now learn), I would have Monday splodged with some orange, yellow and luminous green. Just to show how an awesome day it can be (those are wishes by the way…lol)

For now, here are some cuppa tea’s to push you through the week (one for each day)

And some music that totally wow’ed me today. It couldn’t get more beautiful than this. I hope they have more stuff in store.

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Random Monday thoughts

Love yourself, no one will love you better than you can love yourself. Take care of yourself, no one can take care of you better than you can take care of yourself. Be confident your self, no one else can be more confident in you more than you would be in yourself. Trust yourself and your abilities, because only you knows what your capable of. Think the world of yourself.

But if you can find someone who loves, takes care of you, is confident in you, trusts you as much as you do yourself and thinks the world of you … appreciate, treasure them and reciprocate the good deeds. Because not everyone looks out for you, but those who do, spare them a special place in your heart, the more than deserve it. However, if you don’t do that for yourself first, chances are that you won’t even realize when someone is doing it for you. It always has to come first from within, then without. What do you think?

Quote of the week

Take a chance on something or someone today, tomorrow, in future … some time. One of the few times being scared is good. Have an amazing and productive week ahead.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Crunch…ch…ch Time

No, it sure ain’t me feeding on some crunchies. Now I wish I actually was, do you know those chocolates are back in the market, the ones that would stick to your teeth as you crunch on them. As I now figure out why I loved them , they used to keep my selective hyper-active self a bit busy as I try to clean my teeth with my tongue. In the same spirit, they should bring back goody goody. Yah, who’s for that? who can pull some strings? I wish I had the resources, ingredients and recipe.

T.G.I.F Sillyness

Yeah, so I’m still doing exams, hence my weekend is actually the crunch time, I’m on a handout marathon. You can see the side effects ↑, they come in different faces. Frustrating I tell you, but I’m a survivor since I dug myself a hole and got into it myself…lol. I could’ve been the good student and started reading on time and what not, so now I’m fighting my procrastination and last minute demons and boy are they powerful.

Anyway, I hope you’re having a better weekend than I am. Plus, what’s with the rain of late? It’s like the clouds have a timer, it’s sunny then all over sudden it’s pouring hippos & elephants in the afternoon (1:59pm = lunch time) and evening (4:59pm = home time). Somehow the rain makes us feels soluble, at least it makes me feel so and the traffic that follows kind of proves that we’re many who feel the same and it just binds you, you just want to stay in. I don’t fancy the cold at all, though I can recall complaining when it was too hot.

Sometimes we can really confuse God. He gives us this (the sun), then we think nah, maybe this (the cold) or that (the rain) would be better. Then when he gives us the alternatives and we just can’t keep up with them we’re like you know what, I like what I had before (the sun) . Personally, I’d rather be heated up by the scorching sun, at least then I can wear my vests, sandals, sun-dresses *cough*, the roads are dry, I can take my walks with no worry of puddles and second showers by the roadside, no wet clothes/shoes, less traffic, no umbrella’s and last but not least, NO COLD *brrrrr*.

Let me make you laugh though, now is when I can see the benefits of the sun, when it was there, I was really taking it for granted. I feel like apologizing and just begging it (or mother nature) to bring it back. Such is life mates, when you have something or someone at your disposal, you don’t see it’s/their importance or you see it but you take it for granted. Sometimes it happens subconsciously that we just find ourselves complaining or ranting about something that indirectly makes us happy or that if we didn’t have everything wouldn’t be so okay.

Not that we should have a huge party every-time that the sun is out (that we have whatever it is we have or want), but those small gestures of appreciation could do. You know those that imply that you know what you have, you care about it and without it things wouldn’t be okay. Chances are that when that when you do that, you feel whole like you’ve done your good deeds of the year over and over, such a fulfilling feeling. Yes, it does go a long way, feeling like you’re in the right place, that you’re needed and wanted is a priceless feeling for anyone everyone no?

It’s the little things and the much joy the bring. As I always tell me, you don’t have to do it big to prove a point. Actually those little things have so much meaning … Oh don’t get me wrong though, I didn’t say I don’t want the big things. I like how India Arie puts it out (song: Little things). You should actually listen to it, I recommend and you know my taste is good *hides*

As simple as a phone call just to make it known
That you’re gonna be a little late
Pure as a kiss on a cheek in a word
That everything will be okay

Call in the mornin’ from my little sister
Singin’ to me, “Happy Birthday”
In the quest for fortune and fame
Don’t forget about the simple things

Song of the week

And Taylor Swift has a new one that I hadn’t heard. I heart her music and how she brings out.

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~ *Kawi*

Mojo Jojo’ing

I’m having one of those bleh days…wololo! Not so good. I’m supposed to be excited about nothing in particular, I always am. But now I’m having that crashed feeling like someone just put me in a blender and squeezed all the juice from me. Okay, I’m looking for ways to get my mojo back like looking for a good song, which I’m not getting. They are either too mush mush, too slow, too fast, boring. Yes, my playlist is on shuffle and I am forwarding all the songs looking for that one…lol

I know it’s not a Kawi’s special feeling, I bet we all have one of those. The one’s that you what you would love is to just have friends around and talk about anything so that you can find yourself randomly laughing or smiling because when you’re alone at that particular time you don’t much to smile about. I was even feigning myself a smile in the morning while looking at the mirror, like smile woman, smile now. Maybe it’s the weather, it’s too dull or maybe it’s the clothes I’ve worn, the colors are too earthy. Anyway, I don’t know. Sure I’ll be back to normal transmission in no time. Maybe I’ll find that song or get those people to derail me into laughing … something needs to happen sooner than later.

Beside’s that looking forward to the weekend. I’ll say everything in a random way, plus considering today’s T.G.I.F falls on a 13th let me do it differently.

• I have a Kid’s party to go to, who knew I’ll be invited for one. What are 5 year old kids into nowadays? I’m sure the Ben10 phase has passed…no?
• Nkirdizzle is coming over on Sunday and I don’t know what to cook for her. Maybe I’ll do my magic meal, the one that gets someone uuuu’ing and aaah’ing at my cooking skills.
• Grapes are my new snack. If that’s what people in the stone age used to feed on, then no wonder they never used to complain. But how expensive are those tiny fruits.
• “All men are sculptors, constantly chipping away the unwanted parts of their lives, trying to create their idea of a masterpiece.” ~ Eddie Murphy
• Just ate Ugali, sukuma wiki and beef for lunch *YAWN* the tortures we take ourselves through.
• I should now start looking for the kind of car I want, the costs and what not. Talk of ambition.
• I thank God for basically everything and everyone in my life. Life is never that easy and for me to have it flowing fine regardless of those little bumps, hiccups and potholes that come along. I really cannot complain about anything, and for that I am more than grateful.
• In case you ever wonder who friends are and what they are meant to be. I found this to be a good description of them: A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. One who is there for you when they’d rather be anywhere else.
• When you were a kid, you really wanted to grow up not really knowing what growing up entails. Until you get there and you’re like O_O raw deal this is. What do you do with raw deals? You’ve got to ripen it up and that’s why when you’re grown up you have to work your ass off so that you can achieve those things you had on your wish list.
• There are two kinds of people. Geeks and Non-Geeks. And they should be paired, because I think the geeks would have a field day every single day. If you think Ice cream Sandwich is a dessert, go \_ there, you’re a non-geek. If you know that it’s an Android O.S stand there, you’re a geek. What next? Mingle? We need to spread this knowledge maen!

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

 

Back to searching for my mojo? There’s a reward pegged to it if you find it for me. All the best to me…lol

To an awesome weekend, to having fun, living, laughing and loving. Stay Safe. XO!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

This and That

This –> The moving was pretty successful, for those who are interested in knowing now that I whined and whined about it on the last TGIF post…he he but it’s allowed once in a while…no? All in all I got the smooth weekend I prayed for, so I really thank God for that. Now I’m settled once again and I hope and pray to have long and pleasant stay in my new pad.

That –> Through my usual rounds in the internet, yeah, I like taking walks and checking out the scenery and what the world has to offer. I came across a certain random post. You know one of those you read and you’re like, words straight from my mind. Not how I would say it because structuring it would be a bit of an issue. But whoever wrote this couldn’t have said it any better.

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: ‘What kind of man are you looking for?’ She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, ‘Do you really want to know?’ Reluctantly, he said, ‘Yes.’ She began to expound, As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can’t for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’ The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought & stated, ‘ I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life. He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain. She said, ‘I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked – believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man. I need a man who is family oriented. One who can be the leader and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God. I need someone whom I can respect.

In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive, he just has to be worthy. And by the way, I am not looking for him … He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help him self.

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, ‘You are asking a lot?! She replied, “I’m worth a lot” ~ unknown author

So what do you think about this? Is it too much to ask for? Because I’m pretty sure we are all in one way or another you probably wouldn’t want to admit it looking for that companion who knows, respects and matches our worth and each of us is worth a lot.

And in other non-related news, now that it’s a little of everything, sometimes you say things to encourage people not knowing that you will have to encourage yourself with the same words…he he! That was me over the weekend, you know those moments you just say ‘close your eyes, clear your heart and just let it go’ on this post…I did exactly that. Some things are not really worth creating a roar with someone who could be your mother especially material stuff. I say, ‘you lose some, you gain some’, that’s how life is. I believe in one way or another I’ll get much more than what I lost.

I love it when the world is in cahoots with you. You know, arranging itself in such a way that you don’t struggle in a circumstance which if that didn’t happen you would’ve had it rough. I think that’s what happened to me this weekend. Some random coincidences, some friends who I will always cling to, life does teach you. The next time my friend mentions they need help with ‘simple things’ like moving houses, I will try my best to help even if it’s just sitting there chatting them up. That was what really kept me sane, clearly I’m now all back to smiley, smiley.

To a super blessed and fruitful week!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Hand Me Down

“I love this jeans, they don’t really fit me now but I’m sure I’ll grow into them” … I just wonder how many of us have such conversations in our minds? The attachment we have with our stuff is unbelievable. Then it got me wondering whether it’s emotional or not. That’s because I was definitely sure it’s not emotional, only that the process of acquiring them was a bit involving and within it was some emotional distress, that’s why letting go becomes an issue. Makes a perfect excuse huh!

Like you just want to go home one day, raid your closet and put aside all the clothes, shoes or gadgets you haven’t worn or used for a while and give them out to friends or for charity. Every time I have the energy and zeal to do so, I find myself giving an excuse for each piece of garment. That’s the day I actually figure out that it would be perfect for this occasion or that it would totally match another garment or that I will use it next week …who am I kidding? Then I end up with no pile of clothes to give out.

At that point in time you feel like it’s stuff that you can’t live without, but once that moment is gone. They continue featuring in the ‘unused section’ of your wardrobe, shelves. They gather dust and the same process goes on again when given an opportunity to get rid of them or better yet practice the art of sharing. I would really love to able to just go pick something and give it out without thinking about it deeply.

The number of times I’ve managed to reach the point of actually giving out clothes, shoes, gadgets feels so good. I just close my eyes and pack them up then think of the good I’ve done and how happy the person receiving would be. This is once in a “many years” occurrence. So I’m just wondering how I can make it a bit more often like half-yearly or so?

I used to have a cousin, still do though she’s not around (wish she still was, then maybe I would get tips). She would clear her drawers every 6 months and just distribute her pretty clothes to us cousins, it was like a sale. I loved going to her house for sleep overs, because she made sure we look pretty and our little bags are stacked when we are going back home. I’ve always wanted to do that, but ‘lo and behold’ how do I even start restocking … is that the mentality of someone who’s stingy? Oi!

Anyway, I plan to do it because considering how impulse my shopping is, restocking shouldn’t be an issue. Little by little, then maybe I can own clothes that I actually wear and look stunning. Not let them gather dust and indirectly beg me to hand them down to others who would probably look really good in them or utilize them much better. Lets see how that goes. In case you are good at it, maybe you can tell us how you go on about it?

Catch phrase of the day “Sharing Is Caring!” Hope you’re on top of your Monday and not vice versa … lol Have a good one.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*