Today afternoon I was humming to a song that I have really never taken the time to listen to and internalize. It randomly crossed my mind and I just started longing to listen to it. I couldn’t quite remember the name; I just knew it was something along the lines of desiring to be or to walk with God. I could remember the tune (which is a surprise) and that it was in Swahili. So I kept searching for, ‘Nataka Kufana Nawe’ and the options that were coming, nah ah! It was, ‘Kutembea Nawe.’
I didn’t even know who had sang the song. I’d heard it in church a few times, and I once saw it on my timeline when some beautiful lady did a rendition of it. Then to my surprise, it’s a white lady called Rebekah Dawn, and her command of the Swahili language is impeccable. She sounds more Kenyan than I do (that’s if she’s not Kenyan). The way she does it sounds so pure and genuine, like it’s straight from her heart to yours.
As with many other interactions in life, sometimes, you can listen to someone speak or to a song, read something, go somewhere, or meet someone, and for some reason it’s just another interaction. Then there’s this one time, a similar interaction happens and you feel like there’s more to it than what it seems to be. There’s a spiritual connection of sorts that leaves you with this inexplicable feeling of desire. You want some more where that came from. Like you want to hang on to every word or experience, because it slips through the cracks of your soul, explodes right into it and gives you life.
It also happens to be my mother’s birthday today and she brings me so much inner joy. I guess it’s a natural phenomenon given that she’s my mother… ha ha. But anytime I have uncertainties about my journey, hers has been my sounding board. She has been herself, she has been real and she has loved unconditionally through it all. You can just see it from the way she just lives her life. I admire her and I am glad that I don’t have to look so far for inspiration. I thank God for her, may he keep her happy and healthy.
I don’t have much to say this week to be honest. Besides it being her birthday, this song also raised my spirits. Because sometimes you just raise your hands and you just say, “Jesus, take the wheel” and in a nice way. Sometimes this life can be difficult to decipher, and it’s not in our place to do it on our own (I believe). So when it’s all not making sense or it feels a little tougher than usual, you just do your bit and leave the rest to him. Just in case you wonder why I believe in God, it’s because he gives me that comfort.
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken. Psalm 55:22
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air: They do not sow or reap or gather into barns — and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifespan? Matthew 6:25-27
Now, go ahead and have kick ass week ahead. Spread some cheer, and when you don’t have enough to go around, look for someone who can rub some off some of theirs on you.
Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*